Never Will I Ever

Ep5.| Moving out

Two hours

That was how long I stood in the big Hall all waiting for Julia. Apparently her wonderful son had to make waiting for her unbearable!

Stupid walker

I took the files home hoping to visit my bed soon only to be greeted with tons of chores. Life couldn't get any worse!

I managed to finish before 11:30pm thank heavens. Tomorrow was Monday and I had to study something I started to having a liking for.

Strangely studying made me feel content, I didn't know if it was because I had the goal to have good grades or maybe studying just kept my mind off things.

If only my life was a little different. If.  Somehow when memories of my parents comes to view my eyes starts to give out water. What happened to them?

I went to bed praying for the first time in a long time. Maybe, just Maybe God's not Dead.

No one, Absolutely no one love Monday mornings! Mother had to wake me up before six. Just great!  got to school early as always. Looking through my table English was my first class.

Mr. Rubin is a short almost bald man and might I add handsome for his age. Apparently he was taking my class today. To me English was just a borrowed language I had to learn because the world understood it.

After class I didn't meet up with Gifty because we didn't have a class together. I mean I get that we should hung out and all but she had other friends too and I don't really fit into her circle so I just stayed the loner that I was, besides who needs friends?

I got home only to meet my suitcase nicely arranged with my parent and brother waiting patiently.

The tension was evident it was killing my me. Somehow my eyes locked with my brother’s, he looked innocent, pure, he didn't have to be corrupted like me. He didn't have to grow up hating anyone or having a wrong perspective about everything like I did, he didn't have to get nightmares, he didn't have to shut himself up. He is a light, my light in the darkness and I didn't need him to dim.

" Lena, sorry for the impromptu act, but we are traveling. I got a contract but it's not around here. 

"Why?" I asked feeling a light weighted.

"It's just for a few weeks, but we don't want to disturb your schooling so you won't be going with us"

For a second the news felt overwhelming but as it was, I didn't like change. I mean I am a Taurus.

Mom and Dad were leaving me alone. Dream come true!

"We can't leave you alone here, so Julia has agreed to take you in"

The new information felt great, Julia was my dream. she's the mother I have been yearning for, it felt unreal. I didn't want to tear up in front of them, I mean it would be tears of joy but a little part of me wanted to go with them, my brother was with them and the last thing I want is they arguing in front of him. But now I couldn’t do anytime about it.

"Okay when am I leaving?" I said trying to conclude things.

Mom looked surprised and I didn’t blame her. All of a sudden I agree to go stay with Julia? Mom knew I liked being alone, I barely liked any of her friends or even had one.

"Today. you are leaving today and I packed up for you " I nodded before turning to kiss my brother.

"Then take care" I turned leaving with my suitcase. I gently made my way out and God knew the kind of joy that held my heart. I couldn't prevent the evident smile from taking control over my body, I needed it, Julia was a wonderful woman and staying with her was a dream come true. I wiped the hot tears that made its way to my cheek and for the first time I felt free

Free from hurt.

Sorrow.

Suffering

Pain.

I still had the smile plastered on my face till the door swung open reviling an unwelcoming face

Jez I forgot!

Emmanuel walker.

Julia came down from the stairs leading to her room wearing a very simple flower printed dress. she looked pretty, her smile widened seeing me and mine found a way to my lips

"Oh Lena Darling, welcome" she gracefully descended the stairs,

"Thank you Julia, "

"Oh why, let me show you to your room"

We took the same path leading to Walker's room.

"Here" she turned turning open the guest room.

I simply froze. The bed was big enough for two enemies and there was an air conditioner! Freaking air condition. The walls were beautifully waited a sea blue with floral rose designs. The room was simply Gorgeous.

"Hope you like it!" Julia said hands clasped together evidently excited as I was.

"Julia, I love it thank you"

"Oh Lena!" She sounded a bit worried and overwhelmed. Why was she sniffing? Oh my God, why was she crying now?

Her warm embrace engulfed me again and I let myself get lost in it. I felt safe.

"Don't tear up darling, it makes me Emotional" she said wiping the tears I hadn’t realize with her thumb.

"I- I am sorry; I didn't mean to" I stuttered

"Don't worry, have fun, I have to check up some designs I will see you at dinner"

"Thanks" I muttered as she made her way out.

 laid flat on the queen size bed, it smelled nice, I mean everything here was nice, for a moment I didn't want this to end. I wanted to stay here forever and be with Julia. But I knew it didn’t work like that.

With everything it was always my brother, that wouldn’t be fair to him. it was always him before me no matter what he was the reason for my existence.

I freshened up after unpacking, oh yes it was fun, plus I was playing "Sally walker by Iggy " so it couldn't get any better. The ringing on my phone pulled me out from the semi-loud music playing on my laptop.

My hand found my phone, viewing the caller ID it was Nhersa.

Nhersa was my favorite, she had a beautiful sense of humor, friendly and very social. probably the exact opposite of me and yet we both clicked perfectly well. She moved to a different state in middle school, but we still kept contact

"Lena!" She squealed

"Nhersa, good heavens!  I missed you, Soo freaking much!

" I do too sweetie, very much-what's up with you?"

"You know me, just there minding my business" I said forgetting she couldn’t see me roll my eyes.

"Too bad, I have a date today!"

"Well, you seem very hyper, say hi to Drake for me"

I heard her chuckle "Drake and I are no more"

“What! Wait, ain’t you supposed to be sad or something?”

I mean Drake was hot! Not that I checked out guys or anything but I had eyes!

"Chill, Andy is much hotter " I could sense her smirk

"He better be! I missed you Nhersa please come around soon okay?"

"Oh, why not I will and Lena?"

"All ears!" I answered ready for her latest juicy news.

"Live" before I could ask what she meant the line was dead. She hanged up!

But I knew it had a denotative meaning to it, Nhersa really did love and care for me, she was different compared to Gifty.

Gifty is amazing and all but Nhersa was more understanding, we had a lot in common, our connection was real and I didn't feel I had to guard myself around her.

She was real, I didn't have to try to get her attention or practically get jealous because she's having fun with other friends. I just felt she would always be there for me no matter what. Unlike Gifty, sometimes I didn't feel comfortable with her, she made me feel out of place most times.  I literaly had to work for her attention or the fact that she thought she was always right, it made our relationship a bit of a slope. Which made it hard to fully trust her.

A soft knock pulled me from my thoughts

."Uh come in" I tried to sit Indian style on my bed

Julia came in wearing a smile. she was so pretty.

" Hi, enjoying your stay?" She asked sitting on the bed. She mirrored me taking me by surprise.

Why was she easy going And sweet? was that even legal?

"Thank you, I love it"

"Good!" Stretching she took my hand in hers. It was soft and warm.

Our gaze locked she- God she was beautiful, her dyed red hair sparkling and her beautiful blue eyes. her lips were thin and a shade of pink, she was a beauty

"Lena you are very beautiful" she whispered

My heart was beating at a faster rate this time! God I could hear my own heartbeat.  Literally.

She leaned forward making me pale, draining all the strength and activeness in me, my heart didn't make things easier, it felt uneven

I closed my eyes welcoming her touch