Respawn

Chapter 87: Farewell

I went to the garden to await her arrival. We'll be safe in the garden, and no one will realize we're conversing. Katsumi has arrived after 30 minutes. It appears that she is still getting ready before coming here. "Hello, my apologies for yesterday. Please accept my apologies. I'm just curious as to why you'd like to speak with me so early in the morning. Do you want to say something significant to me? ", she enquired. I can't look her in the eyes because it makes me feel like I'm about to cry. "I'd want to resign as your gold knight, and if you don't mind, I'll leave this mansion today. Allow my wishes to be fulfilled. Right now, I desperately want to resign, "I stated.

"Are you going to resign? You are unable to quit at this time. I'm not sure why you want to leave. Are you resigning as a result of yesterday's events? You can't do it since I've already given you the gold knight's power, which can't be reversed "she stated Right now, all I want to do is leave. For Darius' and her sake, I can't stay here any longer. "I understand that you cannot take the power away from me, but you don't need to be concerned because this power will only stay in me for a few days because it is only supposed to last a month. I will pay for the days that I have left to exercise this power; just give me time and a chance to make money, and I will pay for it "I stated.

"Please, Takahashi, pay attention to what I'm saying. You can't leave and you can't quit. That is clear. You are staying here since you do not have a place to stay. You are unable to leave "she stated When I look her in the eyes, I feel as if tears are going to pour from my eyes. "Katsumi, I don't want to get in the way of your plans to marry a man. I won't be able to stay here much longer, especially once you marry Darius. I don't want to look at you and continue to love you while it's against the law. Katsumi, staying here feels so terrible since I have feelings for you. I'm not sure why I'm reacting this way toward you, but things just happen. Katsumi, you may not have noticed, but I love you," I said.

I believe this is my last day, therefore confessing to her isn't a big problem. Before I depart, she should at least know that I adore her. I don't want her to be unaware of my feelings for her. I want her to have some inkling that a man like me would fall in love with her in an unexpected way. "I was completely lost and had nothing to cling to when you arrived. I used to believe there was no reason for me to live, but you've given me the strength to fight every day and face a new day. I get a warm feeling when I look at you. The hug you offer is the hug I yearn for all the time. I appreciate how you are always willing to help me. I appreciate you for standing up for me and protecting me from other people, "I stated

"I assumed that the night we shared, when we talked about life, occurred because we had a mutual emotion. Is it possible that I'm overthinking things? Please accept my sincere apologies. I simply expect too much from you, which causes me to believe that there is something going on between us that is connecting our hearts and feelings. Isn't it possible that I'm mistaken?" I stated. This is a better situation. When Darius says that he can treat Katsumi better than anybody else, he is correct. Darius is taking good care of Katsumi. He has the ability to provide Katsumi with the life she desires. He can offer her the opulent lifestyle she is accustomed to. I don't have those things, and I won't be able to present them to her. The only thing I have to offer is love.

"However, please don't feel bad for me," I added, feigning a laugh. "Because, to be honest, I'm fine. I'm just having an emotional day today. I'm just surprised that you already have someone else, and it appears that you have no intention of telling me about it. How long will you keep it hidden from me? What are you going to do with my heart while I'm completely oblivious? For a man like me, who only wants to love you, that's too cruel "I stated. She is deafeningly quiet and simply looks away from me. It appears that she will not pay attention to what I am saying. "Please disregard what I am saying. I'm only telling you the things I wish I had told you earlier. Katsumi, please accept my heartfelt apologies "I stated

"I'm not acting this way because I don't want to hear what you have to say. Because the things you're saying aren't true, I'm acting this way. Why do you make it seem like I'm the one who's making trouble and treating you badly? I apologize if I am currently wounding you. Nevertheless, believe me when I say that I have never had and will never have the aim of hurting you. Why would someone like me play to the heart of a pure man like you? I'd like you to know that I'm not like that "she stated If she is simply being cautious in her decision and truly cares about me, I will not feel this way. Maybe I'm making her out to be the bad guy in this complicated love story.

"You have no clue how much I give up for you or how much guilt I carry around with me every day because of you. Just for you, I keep lying to other people and to myself. You're probably aware of how good it feels to be treated the way you want to be treated. It's incredible to wake up every morning thinking about someone you want to be with, and even more incredible to know that you'll be seeing each other every day since you share a mansion "she stated. I'm not sure who she's referring to. I'm not sure if she's talking about me, Darius, or Bara, so I'll simply listen to what she says next. She seems to want to tell me things that she has been keeping hidden for a long time.

"Then one day, I awoke pleased and ready, and Bara appeared. She expressed her admiration for you. What am I supposed to do in the situation? I promise her that I will back her up on this. Bara holds a special place in my heart. I want her to be content, and seeing her smile makes me content as well. I'm not going to betray her. She is far too kind to betray me, and she has already been serving me for a long time. Do you know what it's like to be in pain? It's difficult to act as if you're fine with your cousin and the man you love being together. Takahashi, I love you too, but we can't be together for Bara's sake "she stated She loves me, too, and she's been suppressing her feelings all this time so that we don't hurt Bara.

"Then came Darius, who proposed to me. I accepted his proposal under pressure from the king and the throng. I begin to realize that he is not a stranger to me, but rather a childhood friend. Darius is a kind man, and knowing you'll be in the care of Bara isn't a bad thing. She is capable of looking after you, and I am confident that she will supply you with all you require in life. You'll have Bara, and I'll have Darius. I'll be marrying Darius soon, and I know how much you're suffering as a result of my actions. If you believe your decision is correct, I will not ask you to stay any longer. Perhaps you've already suffered enough. I'm letting you go because you deserve serenity and happiness, "she remarked.