Respawn

Chapter 3: Dawn of Love

    Saki had held me to the wall and was staring into my eyes. "Can you tell me if you think of me as a possible lover?" Saki was the one who inquired. Saki is approaching me, her face close to mine. Is she going to give me a kiss? While our faces approach closer, Saki closes her eyes and I close mine as well. "Don't be delusional," she urged, repeating what she had stated earlier. Saki has a knife in her hand, and she is about to cut my throat with it. Saki is the murderer. "Thank you for your advice", I add with a smile, "but it appears the tables have turned." Saki glances up and notices that I'm holding a g*n to her head. "I am the sheriff, baby darling,"

    I pull the trigger as quickly as I can before Saki can slit my throat. I shot Saki in the head with my g*n, and she died as blood flowed from her head. Her lifeless body was in front of me, and her blood was splattering on the floor. "The sheriff assassinates the murderer! Takahashi Fujin has won this round of the murder game! " A money was delivered in my virtual money; I examined the hologram and discovered that I had received the money and had earned my first earnings in this world. I am transported back to the respawn lobby, where I meet Saki. "How can you be so harsh on a girl like me? Try to be gentleman" she said.

    Saki keeps touching the spot on her head where I shot her with a g*n. "That hurts a lot," she admitted. "I'm sorry," I said as I drew closer to her and checked to see if she was okay. I recall seeing her dead body in front of me. This world frightens me; Saki is standing in front of me as if she hadn't been killed, and her blood is all over the floor. "Are you okay?" I inquired. "Of course, I am, I am fine look, I'm fine from the bottom to the top," she punched my shoulders. "I can't believe you're the murderer in the murder game; I thought you were innocent," I exclaimed. "I didn't expect you to be the sheriff," she laughed.

    I recall Saki's earlier query. Is it all a game, or does she really want me to answer those questions, or does she just want me to be distracted so she can win? "Saki," I said quietly. Saki turned to face me as I whispered her name and asked, "yes? what is it?" "You asked me a question earlier. Do you want me to answer that question right now? " I stated. "Which question?" she inquired. I'm not sure if Saki is simply pretending that she forgot to ask her question earlier. Maybe she forgot because she's just teasing me and playing with my feelings.

    "You ask me if I see you as a potential lover. Do you want me to answer that question?" I said, looking her in the eyes. We look into each other's eyes, and I'm hoping Saki can sense my sincerity. I will be willing to answer her question because she is the first person in this world in whom I will put my trust. I hold her hand to reassure her that it is okay to answer my question and that she does not need to be embarrassed. She burst out laughing and began slapping my chest, and she said "Why are you asking questions like that young boy? I can't believe you fell for that. You're such a funny guy. I'm only joking! Please accept my apologies if I have raised your expectations. Takahashi, I'm not interested in you. "

    Her response has rendered me deafeningly silent. Is it too soon to end things with her? I mean, there's nothing to cut ties about because she's not my lover at all. I try to conceal the fact that hearing what she said makes me sad. I join her in her laughter, touch her nape, and say "I thought you were serious because you're being creepy, but that's just a strange question to ask. I'm not interested in you either; I have my own preferences, and I don't like girls like you ". It appears that we are using fake words to conceal our true feelings. "You don't have to tell me you don't like me," she rolled her eyes. "I already like someone," she explained.

    "I still don't have someone I like because my standards are high," I said, mockingly. "My expectations are also high! This guy I'm talking about is very handsome, and..." she paused for a moment before continuing, "he is clumsy, but he is awesome just the way he is!" Maybe she has feelings for that guy. I can tell she likes him based on how she describes him. "He is courageous! He is one-of-a-kind, and I believe he possesses something special! Unlike other people, I can see that he is a good guy, "she continued. This hurts a lot; perhaps I have a bit of a thing for Saki. Hearing her describe the boy he likes hurts me.

    "The little things about him are cute, and there's something inexplicable about him that makes him interesting to me!" she added. I kept listening to her and waiting for her next words as she described the guy she likes. She gave me a stern look and said, "I'm so sick of you! Let us return home! Simply contact me when you want to play with me again, stupid! ".. I didn't even say goodbye to her as she walked away. She walked away without looking back, and she continued walking quickly. Perhaps she has no feelings for me.

    I began to walk in an attempt to calm myself. I want to cry, but I know that these emotions will pass. This is nothing more than a simple crush. I know I'm like this because Saki was the first person to accept me. I return to my apartment and attempt to resolve issues between Saki and myself. It's clear she doesn't like me. It's obvious that I'm not her type, and I just convince myself that she's a denial to make myself feel better. I place my hand on my head and cover it with a pillow. I'm not sure how I'll deal with Saki.

    What exactly is this feeling? Is it dissatisfaction? I'm disappointed because I assumed Saki liked me, but it now appears that she doesn't. I should have realized sooner. I should've known better. I feel stupid for thinking that a girl like her will like me. It's clear that she's out of my league. I wrap a blanket around myself and close my eyes to sleep. But every time I try to close my eyes, all I see is her. Saki has beautiful hair and eyes. I recall her hurtful words earlier as I tried to imagine her stunning appearance and how much I like her. I'm such a total wreck.

    It's clear that she already has feelings for someone else. It's understandable given how long she's been here and how many guys she's met. I'm not going to speculate on whether she found someone better or more attractive. I think I'm just too attached to her because she's the only person with whom I spend my time. Maybe I should start meeting new people instead of settling for Saki. Saki has her own life, and I may be insignificant to her. I don't need to wonder why she isn't interested in me. Who would fall in love with a guy she only met yesterday?

    Even though it's morning, I still don't want to get out of bed. I don't have the motivation to get started this morning. I continue to close my eyes and ignore the fact that the sun is already rising and the temperature is rising. Saki didn't even chat or contact me, according to my hologram. She doesn't give a damn about me. I re-wrap myself in a blanket. I notice a sound coming from a window and turn to look at it. Saki is the one who rushes to my window. She approached me and asked, "Are you sick?" She touches my forehead to see if I have a fever. "What's up? You didn't even contact me!" she exclaimed. I wrap a blanket around myself. I don't want to hear her say anything.

    "You are so naive! Are you ignoring me?! "She screamed. "Go away, I don't have the strength to talk," I told her. I think I'm just tired of Saki reappearing in my life, despite the fact that she doesn't even like me. I despise how she hangs out with me when she already has a crush on someone else. Then don't hang out with me and instead hang out with the guy she likes. She slapped me and said, "You're pretending to be sick, aren't you?". "I just don't want to talk, I'm exhausted" I said. She starts walking away, stomping her feet. Before she left, she gave me a look and said, "Now I get why girls won't like you."

    "If you want, just communicate with me or contact me," she stated. Saki exited my apartment through the front door. How could she be so obnoxious? I'm simply acting this way because I like her presence. I'm not sure what would happen if she realized I like her. I check my bank account and see that I still have enough money. I still don't have much of a need to play. I went outdoors to look for cheap meals when I came across a fortune teller lady. "Hey, mister," the old lady asked, "would you like to know your fate?" I was intrigued, so I went to her stall and sat in the chair. "Would you wish to know your fate?" the old lady inquired. "I'd like to know my fate in love," I said.

    In her magical crystal, the old lady begins to read my fate. The elderly lady sighs and turns to face me. "Young man, why don't you just confess what you're feeling?" she said. As she continued to read my fate, the elderly lady added, "You must make a decision; if you are still hesitant to confess, you will lose one possible lover before meeting your first love. If you think that the girl you like today will be the best lady for you, go ahead and confess right now; if you don't think she is, let go and you will find your beloved. "

    Saki and I haven't spoken in a week, and she hasn't even paid me a visit. Perhaps she truly despises me, or perhaps she believes I am uninterested in her. I wish I didn't care so much about her. Maybe she isn't interested in seeing me anymore. I step outside to get a breath of fresh air. I haven't ventured outside the apartment in over a week. I go for a walk and attempt to be cheerful by believing that things will get better. As I walk, I notice Saki, who is also staring at me. Her eyes are gleaming, as if she has something important to convey. I recall what the old lady said to me. I must confess if I believe Saki, the girl I like today, is the best girl I could have.

    "Takahashi," she said as she continued to walk near me. Is she going to admit it? Then it struck me that I recall what she had said previously. I recall that I should no longer be delusional. She said that she was joking. I recall her exploiting my emotions in order to gain an advantage over me. All of the things she said to me that I didn't want to hear are still fresh in my mind. She's getting closer, and I'm sprinting as fast as I can to avoid her touching my arms. I ran and ran, closing my eyes despite the fact that I had no idea where I was heading. She cried and said "Wait!"

I ran as fast as I could so Saki wouldn't be able to catch up to me. I come to a halt against a tree to catch my breath. From the forest, I heard a loud voice. I discovered a man harassing a woman, so I ran up to him and punched and kicked him in the face. Because of the impact when he fell to the ground, the man couldn't even stand for a moment. "What are you doing?" exclaims the narrator. I screamed. He was about to stand up when I smacked him in the face again and said, "If you don't leave now, I'll report you to the higher knights!" The man begins to flee in terror. I stare at the lady in an attempt to help her and lend her a hand, but seeing her fills my heart and soul with butterflies.

    When I first saw her, nothing made sense. I had powerful thoughts that I couldn't put into words. In my chest, I felt a very quick heartbeat. What do you refer to this as? Is this what they meant when they said "first love"? If meeting this lovely lady is indescribable and leaves me with all the sentiments I can't put into words, I'd say it's love at first sight.