Me, Him, Us

Chapter 4

Okay it’s been 1 hour it’s time to get dressed now since my make up is finished, I’m scared cause I got this lace dress to wear tonight that basically shows my n*****s but I don’t care I want to be brave and a bad b***h, besides they’re just n*****s and no one gives guy this much grief with they’re n*****s so I think I’m good. The other girls are done and taking pictures so I quickly run to my suitcase get the bright red lace dress and go get dressed in the bathroom. Once I’m sure everything looks good I step out to show the girls and everyone hoots. 

“Guys stop it! You’re making me blush” I say while flipping my hair and twirling around. 

“Babe do you think Howard will be okay with you wearing that?” Rose says. 

I take a second to process what she just said before I lose my s**t. 

“Lol Rose Don’t worry my master Howard will be fine” I smile then walk away, I mean I’m confused, when did getting a boyfriend mean he dictates what I wear? Gosh I hate people with that mindset. If he wasn’t okay with me wearing this kind of stuff we wouldn’t be together, period. 

Besides Howard says I have no sense of style anyways so I know he doesn’t care about what I wear, according to him I look like a hobo too much. 

Anyways after we take our pictures for gram we head out to catch the last tram, honestly guys you’d swear my parents weren’t filthy rich. I mean who would take the tram over a taxi but the truth is I don’t want Rose, Alison and Eve to know I have money because I know they’ll take advantage of it, considering I always get them drinks but none of them offer to ever get me something but it’s whatever. We get to the club and it’s afrobeat night which is amazing cause I love me some Burna Boy, I listen to African giant atleast 10 times a day. Anyway we get in and see Donnie with his friends David and Jeff. David is a bit weird but Jeff is like the little baby of the group, he is so cute and adorable I want to eat him.

3 hours have passed and I have yet to speak to Howard, I saw him with his friends and said hi but that was it, he doesn’t really like it when we chill at the club together so I usually steer clear of him. It’s really hard especially when I see girls throwing themselves at him but what can I do? Jennifer tells me to go lay my claim and grab his face and kiss him but what if he ducks? Do I kill myself on the spot of later? I guess Howard is just too unpredictable with affection, it’s scary. I don’t like how he acts single in public but what can I do? God I’m pathetic, anyways I’m enjoying myself but Jennifer and I go out for some air because that club has no windows which was a terrible architectural idea but whatever we were sitting outside laughing when I see Howard come out with his best friend and this other girl, my arch nemesis. 

Okay fine she’s not my arch nemesis but we went to the same high school and coincidentally came to the same university as well! Not only was she mean to me at high school but I’ve seen her, she definitely has a crush on Howard, and I always tell him but he comes with some stupid excuse ‘don’t assume things’ like hello?! A girlfriend always knows when a girl has a crush on her man, but I’m just labeled crazy and jealous. Gosh I get distracted easily, Jennifer calls Howard over and I look her with a panicked face, WTF?! 

“Hey Howard” she says 

“Hey Jennifer what’s up” 

“Nothing, just thought you should know your girl looks beautiful today” I almost killed her on the spot 

“I know” he says after looking at me 

“Well why don’t you tell her” she further instigates while crossing her arms 

“She knows, besides if I tell her all the time her head will get too big” I drop my head at that because it’s a a lie. He never says I’m beautiful.

“Howard just go back to your friends” I give him a fake smile and a little push 

He shrugs and walks away, I turn to Jennifer and give her death eyes 

“Why would you do that?” I ask her 

“Someone had to remind him that he has a girlfriend” 

I sigh because she’s not lying, and that’s why I love her so much because sometimes she’s the push I need especially when it comes to Howard I tend to be super lenient with him. 

I walk to her and give her a kiss on the check 

“Thank you baby girl, come on let’s go get our grind on” I grab her hand and pull her towards the club.  

At around 5am when we had danced our hearts out we went to Mcds for post turn up food, I mean did you really go out if you don’t get Mcds afterwards? We were such a big group of atleast 15 people so we took up the back of Mcds. After I finished eating I went around taking pictures with everyone because I have a friend picture wall full of pictures of obviously my friends, so I like to seize the moment whenever I can to capture these moments. The only sad thing is Howard hates pictures so he rarely features in my pictures except for the one I forced him to take other then that his friends appear more than he does but it’s fine I guess. 

“Guys come on let’s go the trams are up and running” I say to everyone because everyone was done eating and I wanted to get home already. We walk to the tram stop and it’s freezing cold. “Don’t you wish you brought a jacket? Busy screaming your ‘hoes don’t get cold mantra’ well look at you now” says Howard as he walks past me. God I really don’t know why I’m dating that guy, I mean who says that and he didn’t even offer me his jacket, I mean I would’ve said no because I have pride but he doesn’t know that. I drop my head and walk towards Donnie and his friends. 

“Hey guys did you enjoy tonight?” I ask them as I enter they’re circle. “Yeah it was crazy and I loved the music” “Right! Gosh it was so amazing I didn’t even realize I had been dancing for the whole night but now I can’t feel my legs, I can’t wait to go home and sleep” “Bella you look cold do you want my jacket?” “It’s fine Donnie I’ll be home soon but thank you for offering” we kept talking until the tram came and then went our separate ways. I know I know Donnie is so sweet, doing things my own boyfriend won’t but that’s why his my friend because he’s so kind. As soon as I got home I quickly got in the shower, to wash off my make up because Rule number 1 is never sleep with make up on. I dive into my sheets, turn in the tv so I can watch some big mouth before falling asleep, what a night