The Psychopath's Obsession

Chapter 17

"I'M LONGING TO KISS YOU, BABY..."

Just what is these s**t all about? Why is he still doing these stuff? I thought that it will stop that night. But this morning, I just received another box that I know came my stalker.

Pictures of me and Bullet. When we're coming out in the company, in Bullet's condo. How could he get in? As long as I want to tell it to Bullet. I can't... I'm afraid.

I don't know what will happen next if I tell him. I just need to hide it, carefully. When he found out about these, I know he will leave me.

I sat slowly at the bed. I think my energy just left me. I don't know what to do anymore with this stalker of mine. I can't talk to Brandon, Bullet don't let me.

It's my day off. Sunday. And I just came from church. I attended the first mass. Bullet told me he wants to eat breakfast with here, so I should get up and prepare the food. I need to act like nothing is happening. Like there's nothing wrong.

I prepare pancake, fried egg, hotdogs, tocino, coffee, mango juice, and water. It's his favor. He wants this. I don't know why I'm obeying him, like I owe him my life, but this is what I want. I want to serve him. I want to make him happy, with me.

Same as I put the rice in the table when I heard the knock on my door. My smile made on my lips. He's here. Bullet is here.

I walk to the door with my smile. The moment I opened it, my heart beat faster than it's normal rhythm. I feel like its going to explode! God heart, please behave.

"Hi my goddess…" He whispered below my ear as he hugged me. His arms already hanging on my waist.

"Hi too! Come, the breakfast is ready. I cook what you want!" I said jubilantly.

He chuckled then grip my waist. I look down to it. "Let's go. I'm hungry." He guided me inside. He didn't let go of me.

I don't know what happened why we became super comfortable with each other like this. I just wake up one morning that I'm not against what he do to me. His touch gave warmth to my body, tension and tingling sensation.

I don't understand his action, why he became like this to me. Yes we're close before but not this close that we're not minding if he touch me.

"Hey... You're spacing out. Are you okay?" He drink his coffee.

I bit my lips as I look at him. "Hmm... I want to... I want to go out with you..." I bow my head. "It's not w-what you think like romantically! It's just---"

He caressed my face gently. "It's okay. I planned to asked you too, but you already did. So, where do you want to go?"

I'm nervous as hell. I never imagined that I'll be doing this. I never thought that this day will come. "If you don't mind..." I stopped. I can't tell it. s**t. I don't know if he would agree.

"Come on, tell me. What my goddess want, my goddess get. Just tell me." He smiled at me. The moment I saw it, I know I lost it. I fall. Hard. I can't pull my self up anymore, because in the first place I didn't fight what my heart wants. I feel like he's now the lord of my body. He owned me.

The way his smile form on his lips. His smirks, grin chuckled and laughed. It's all too precious for me. I treasure it so much.

When he smile at me, I can't think that he could be dangerous when his mad. He could be irrational when his mind thought. But nevertheless, I still want him. I still accepts him. I still... Love him.

I guessed I love him already. It's not hard to love Bullet Davids. He have all the woman wants. You can't wish for anything when you have him, and sadly, he's not mine but I'm his.

"I want... To spend our day, uhm… at you place..." I bit my nails as I lowered my head. I heard his sexy and low chuckled. I look at him hesitantly. He have this boyish grin plastered on his face. My face heated up. "Well, I know you're not okay with that so, let just stay here---"

"Pack some clothes. We're going to my pad. Don't pack sexy and daring and shut clothes okay? Just pajama." he told me.

I nodded my head. "But, how about my undies? Can't I pack them too?"

He laughed. He almost choked that's why I handed him the coffee, he drink it then stick out his tongue quickly. I laughed hard. That's what you get for teasing me.

"Why? Drink your coffee." I teased him.

He glared at me but I didn't mind it. "I feel like my tongue burn in hell! Why did you do that?"

I can't stop myself from laughing. "Sorry, okay? You always teased me! I just get even... " I poured.

He cursed. "Your face and personality is a total curse!" he said. My laughter vanish as I felt my heart aching.

Did I over do it? Why would he need to say it? Is my being really a curse? I lowered my head as I fight back my tears. Does he see me as a curse? It hurts.

I felt his hands in my chin. He slowly lifted it up to come face to face to him. I gazed at his dark ones that hide so many secrets from me, I know it, he have secrets, but I'm not in the position to question it.

His lips form into a soft and warm smile. He wiped something in my cheeks. It's tears. I thought I stopped it from falling.

He gently held my face. "You know why? Because even when you're sad, you still look like a goddess. When you mad, it's like I'm seeing a goddess wrath, but still so beautiful. When you smile? f**k, I can lose my sanity by just looking at it. And when you laugh? That's it. You completely bewitched my whole being. You're only curse that I'm not afraid to envelope me." he said. Sincerity is evident in his eyes. I can't stop myself from crying because of happiness.

God tell me. How could I not fall for this wonderful man? He's so perfect. Just gave him to me, and I'll take care of him with my life.

"You made the same to me too, so we're even." I whisper to him.

He chuckled. "So stop crying. Pack your clothes. If you want to stay with me--i mean in my place, you can go there freely. I'll give you an access. Whatever you desire, I'll do and give it to you."

My heart beat faster again. I think it's going to explode from my rib cage!

I desire to have you, Bullet, would you let me have you? Will you give yourself to me? I think, I sounded like a maniac.

After we ate, we go to his condo. He talked to the front desk and listed my name with the people who have access to go to his pad. I can't stop myself from smiling.

The whole time that were going to his pad, I'm smiling, and so he is. I just don't know why he's happy too.

"Do you want to see the room?" he asked as we entered his condo. I can't still stop myself from being amazed to his pad. The whole floor is his!

"How many rooms do you have?" I asked instead.

He shrugged his shoulders. "Just two. One for me and for my future visitor that happened to be you, but we're staying at my room." he declared. I just nodded my head even when I'm confused.

Why would I need to stay in his room? Oh, maybe he'll be the one to stay at the other one!

His scent envelope my nostrils. He really smell nice. So manly. His room is so huge. There's a huge bed too, it's color gray. His walls was painted with gray and white, looks really manly. There's a two door inside, I bet his comfort room and I don't know the other one.

There's a bed table and a lampshade. All in all, his room scream class and money! My apartment looks like his pet house. I felt ashamed.

"So, what can you say?" He looked at me.

"It looks expensive." I answered.

He chuckled as he came closer to me. He held my waist. "Don't feel discomfort. You could stay here and owned it whenever you want." He tucked the hair that falls behind my ear. "Do you want to watch a movie?"

"I would love too." I smiled.

My Sunday passed like a dream. I really have a great time with him. And now, I'll face the nightmare. By the look in their faces, I know, they're not still over to what happened.

I sighed as I felt their burning gazed. I acted like I don't care. I open the computer and waited for it to start.

"So, the w***e is already here." And its now starting. I hoped I'll survive.

I didn't look at Monica, I just lowered my head. I didn't answer her. It's obvious that she's mad at me.

"Did you cast a spell on him that's why he's hanging around you?" I didn't answer her.

I pick the folder that need to change. I almost jump when she snatched it from me and throw it to my face. I'm really having a bad day 'cause the folder is made with plastic. The moment she threw it to my face, I felt the pain in above my brow to my temple. I felt the hot liquid flowing down. My hair stick to it.

Again, I didn't answer her and just looked at my hands. I may be look weak outside but I'm strong inside. I'll not cry in front of everyone. I will not give them the satisfaction.

She laughed sarcastically. Monica's brow was very arch. "You deserve that! And it's not enough!" he hold my hair and made me look at her, her eyes were shining with rage. She grip my jaw, I know, it will leave a mark. I just look at her, even I'm in pain. She pointed her finger to me. "You f*****g w***e! Slit! You snake him from me! Bullet loves me, and I don't know what kind of potion you gave to him why he's hanging around you! He love me! He's just playing with you!" My world turn 360 degree when she smack my face with her slap. I tasted the blood.

I know I looked like s**t, but I'm not the kind of person who fight back even when UK know I did nothing. I'll just leave it like that. And I know, even if I clear myself, they will never believe me, that's how close their mind is, they'll never listen to me because I'm just a nobody. I'm just nothing.

She withdraw my her, I looked down, my head is spinning because of what she did.

"Give me all your works! This slutwill do all of that! Right, Milda? You're not aloud to eat lunch and go home when you're not done." she commanded.

I bit my lips. Were fifteen in this department, will I be able to finish it?

God, help me. Give strength please...

Before she leaves me, she grip my jaw again and lower her head down to my ears. "He's just playing with you. He loves me. Remember that. He. Loves. Me." then she leaves.

I didn't say anything when they began to go to my place and drop their works on my. As long as I want to cry, there's no tears that coming out. I felt so lonely...

This is the sign that I'm really alone in this world. There's a few that treat me good and accept me, but I'm still lonely. I'm still on my own.

Bullet, I need you. Please wake me up to this nightmare and whisper to my ears that all she said was just a lie.

I'm begging…