Beyond Her Promises (editing)(Complete)

Part 19

Samny's P.O.V:

                            Oh God! my head hurt. I tried to open my eyes but it was so difficult. I tried harder and finally opened them. Everything was paining. I opened my eyes and saw grey sky. What is happening? Am I dreaming. I try moving but the pain is so much. I saw the floor. So I am in someone's room. Wait. Where am I? and why on earth can I not move?. I try so hard and finally be able to rotate my head to the other side. That's when my eyes meet hers.

"Amber.. What's going on? where are we?" I asked.

She is silent. She starts looking at something I try to read her eyes and try to move in the direction she's looking. That's when I notice that I'm naked. My back, s**t, she'll see the scars. I try my best to move and remember what the heck is going on and that when it hits me. All the memories of last three days come rushing into my mind like a tsunami. I start to panic. My breathing changes.

"Amber... No.. You can't see. No.." I started screaming on the top of my lung. Amber rushed towards me

"Sammy.. Hey, it's okay.. Relax. You're fine"

"No! You can't see me. No. No." I scream and scream. "Get out. Just get out" I see two ladies enter the room and before I could move any further I'm falling asleep again.

"Amber...."

Amber's P.O.V:

                             Sammy woke up. I was sitting right next to her. She looked at me and then she started screaming. The nurses sedated her again to keep her calm and she's asleep again. Anna heard the screaming and came rushing in. I quickly hugged her.

"Anna.... "

"It's okay.. She'll be fine... give her some time..."

We called Dr. Jessica to examine her again and told her about the whole situation.

"Amber. What happened? What caused her to panic ?" She asked me but I couldn't answer her. "Amber I can't help her if I don't know. What caused her to panic like that?"

"The scars...." I told her and she sighed.

"I knew it." I looked at her. "When I saw her last night, I knew that some of the damage was older. Since when has it been going on?"

"She was in high school when this happened. She told me she wasn't ready to show me her scars, she thought they made her ugly. She wanted time to open up. I could tell it was hard for her. I have seen her having panic attacks before Jessica... this wasn't the same. She is broken worse than she was before."

"You're right. She is. Have you helped her through any of panic attacks or did she just lock herself in?"

"No.. She stayed. She would just lay down and cry but she'd let me help her. She never left."

"Okay listen Amber. Sammy needs to understand that her scars change nothing for you. She's probably afraid that you'd hate her after you see her like that. Her panic attack was worse because she has been through alot. You have to be strong and patient. Just be there for her. I'm afraid she can not wear any clothes until the burn wounds heal. I've given her medicine to lessen her pain. The sedative might work for another two hours but sooner or later she has to wake up. Just be there for her."

"Thanks Jessica..."

"I have seen you before Amber. She has changed you and from where I see she loves you too. When I was cleaning her wounds she kept calling out your name and in such state we only call for those whom we really love. I'm happy for you. If you need me just give me a call." she stood up but I quickly hugged her.

"Thanks Jess..."

"Anytime."

I walked Jessica to the lift and she left. I have to be strong for Sammy. I have to show her that her scars don't matter. I have to talk to her.

After few hours I heard some sounds coming from the room. Sammy was awake.

"Sammy? Are you okay?" I asked from behind the door and didn't go in. She didn't answer.

"I won't come in unless you want me to. Just please tell me how you are.." my voice cracking...

"I-I'm fine Amber... I just don't want you to see me like this..."

"But I want to see you... It doesn't matter to me Sammy. Please let me in. I'm dying to see you. I love you Sammy... Just let me in.. please."

I broke into tears and knelt down by the door. She didn't answer. I kept waiting for her to speak but she didn't. I saw the nurses go in and give her medicine. They told me they helped her sit up and applied the medicine again. She wasn't ready to see me or for me to see her.

It has been four days since the incident and three since Sammy and I talked. I knew she needed space so I gave her. Jessica came by everyday and told me she was getting better. They helped her walk today. Lana and Josh visited daily and even Eric came by. He was particularly fond of my place. I see nurses come and go from her room every three hours and time to time I stand outside her door and talk to her but she never answers. They have stopped giving her sedatives but they say she's still in alot of pain. I just want her to be fine. I need her with me.

It's 2am and everyone is asleep. Anna gave me dinner but I wasn't hungry so I just left it. I am sitting outside her door. This is the closest I can be to her her right now. I heard some movement inside the room. She's awake. I wanted to go in but I know she isn't ready for that. I was thrown out of my thoughts by a loud noise. I think she has fallen down. I quickly got up and slid the door open and see her lying on the floor. She was trying to get up but was failing badly. I ran to her..

"Sammy, what are you doing? Why are you up?"

"You shouldn't be here. Leave, please."

"Let me help you Sammy."

"I said leave" she screamed. I froze where I was sitting.

She tried to get up again but her pain was more than she could bear and was about to fall and hit her face when I quickly put my hand when her face was gonna hit. It hurt causing me to hiss in pain but I was happy that it was my hand and not her face. When she felt my hand she stopped moving. I felt her grabbing my hand. Her tears warming my hand. She was crying.

"Sammy...."

"Why did they do that to me Amby? What did I ever do to them?" she started crying badly. I moved closer and placed her head on my lap carefully, not hurting her.

"Ssshhh.... It's okay Sammy... I'm here..."

"They ruined me Amby.... They ruined me forever. My own parents ruined me. I can't even let you look at me. I've been dying to see you and because of what they did I pushed you away.. They were my parents.. they were supposed to protect me. They were supposed to love me. They were supposed to accept me."

"I love you Sammy. I accept you and I'll protect you. I'll never let you down I promise." She wrapped her arms around me and cried for so long. I just stayed there and let her cry her heart out. She needed this. We both did.

"Let me help you get up okay?"

"Okay."

I carefully helped her up and lead her to the bed. When she had laid down I thought of leaving but she held my hand

"Stay... please."

"Sammy if you need time I'm---"

"No. I need you." I smiled. I smiled for the first time in so many days.

"Okay." I walked to the other side of bed and laid beside her.

"Thanks"

"Where were you going ?" I asked.

"I wanted to see you. I thought you might have slept so I can just go and see you. I was dying to see you."

"Me too."

"How did you know?" she asked after a minute

"I couldn't sleep. I was sitting outside your door. I was waiting for you to let me in."

"I'm sorry."

"It doesn't matter to me Sammy. I love you and with you comes your scars too. I'll love you no matter what. I love each and every part of you."

"I love you too... I'm sorry for not letting you in."

"Just promise me Sammy. No matter what, you won't push me away ever again." I felt tears falling from my eyes. "Because I can't live without you Sammy... I-I was so scared... I thought I lost you---"

"Amby... I'll never do it again. I promise. I love you so much... You are my everything. I'd never let you go..." I saw her trying to move so I stopped her and wiped my tears.

"It's okay..." I said. "It's all fine now. You're here and I'm here. Everything will be alright."

"I'm here. I won't go Amby. I promise." I held her hand and kissed it. She held mine and kissed it back. We laid there in silence.

"How did they know about you?" I asked Sammy.

"Well... when they called I knew something wasn't right but still I thought I could give them another chance. When I got home the dinner was fine but next day there was some sort of gathering in our house and several people were there. My father told me to get properly fixed and come downstairs. When I came down they made me sit with this man. They were trying to engage me with him forcefully. I stood up when I figured what was going on. I told them all loud and clear that I am not gonna engage. My dad got up and slapped me infront of everyone. Then he asked why and all I could think of was.... You... I told them all that I was gay and I love a girl and she loves me. Then I recieved another slap. Then people started to leave and I went upstairs and called you. My father came from behind me and he dragged me from my hair and took me to the same Hell he had been throwing me in. Next thing I remember they were branding me and hurting me. Then I lost consciousness. I kept on calling your name in my mind. I just wanted to see you. I heard two very loud bangs and when I tried to open my eyes I couldn't. Then I smelled your fragrance and in that very moment I felt safe. I was home."

"I'm sorry Sammy..."

"You saved me Amby. Not just me you saved all other girls. They were all there because they thought they fixed me. I was so wrong to hide what I was and because of my silence God knows how many girls had suffered. If only I'd spoken up---"

"It's okay now. Don't think about it."

"You know Amby, even when I was with my parents I wasn't truly happy. It was during that moment that I realized that I was missing my home... I was missing you. You are my home Amber Claire. You are everything to me. I don't think I can ever survive without you."

"And you're mine Sammy...."

"Just yours..." she smiled.

"Sammy... I saw your mom... and your dad too."

"What? When? Why? Did he hurt you---"

"No.. I'm fine stupid. Relax. But it's your mom."

"I know."

"How long has she been like that?"

"Since I can remember. My brother's death took a toll on her. I wonder if she were stable would she have saved me or not.."

"She did Sammy... She saved you.."

"What do you--"

"When your call was cancelled I went to your house. Your dad greeted me with a double barrel gun but she was nice. She told me where you were Sammy....."

"I wish she'd have saved me from my own dad too...."

"I wish that too..."

"Although now I'll have to kick my dad's ass for pointing a gun at my girl"

"Don't worry. Josh took care of it." I smiled.

"Amby... thanks for saving me..."

"Thanks for kidnapping me" I winked at her and she started laughing.

"Ouch ! Ouch!... Oh God.. It hurts to laugh too" She said while laughing.

"Then don't stupid." I told her.

"Is it okay if I take you in my arms? I won't hurt." I asked.

"I'd love that.. and you can never hurt me.."

I carefully placed her head on my chest and wrapped my arms around her head.

"Mmmm... this feels good. I can sleep now" she said "Goodnight Amby..."

"Goodnight Sammy..."