Chapter 11
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Leon is 4 years older than me and Collin is a year older. I was closer with my cousins than my own siblings. I wanted to leave before they saw me. I don't want them to see what I've become.
" Is that really you Salem "
Salem. I haven't been called that in so long.
He takes a few steps towards me. " Salem. "
" No! " I turn away. " That's not my name anymore. "
" What? "
I quickly walk into the hotel and ask the receptionist what rooms we have. She refused to give them to me, till I gave her ID. Luckily those siblings weren't that smart and I still have my wallet. I go to my room and jump in the shower. It feels so nice to get clean.
I get out of the shower and look for my bags. I find them and quickly get dressed and sit on one of the beds. s**t. We need to leave. I don't want to see them right now. I sit in the room waiting for everyone to get back.
I turn on the TV in the room and watch it. I stretch and lay down. Sylvie gets back and I sit up. " Finally. What took you guys so long, I want to head out. "
" Oh sorry. The soon to be alpha of that pack was talking to us. "
" What'd he want. "
" He wants us to help get his cousin to come to his pack. Her father sent her away when she was 12, and he hasn't seen her since, but his brother saw her earlier and reported it to him. "
Shit.
" Really. "
" Yea, but we told him it's up to our team leader and he wants to talk to you. "
I stare at her and she tilts her head and looks at me confused. " What. "
I sigh and look down and rub my face with my hands. " I should've just left when I could. "
" What do you mean. "
I sigh again. " I'm his cousin. "
" What?! " She shouts.
" Can you not yell. "
" Sorry. Are you gonna see him. "
I stand up. " No. "
" Why not. "
" Reasons. "
" Really. So you're just gonna make them suffer. They want to see you Lilith, he is offering everything for us to find you. "
" Don't take it. Lets just leave, I don't want to see them. "
" Why. They want to see you. "
" I know they do. "
" Then go see them. "
" No. "
She scoffs. " Seriously. If my family wanted to see me I would go see them. "
" What are they like. "
" My family? "
" Yes. Do they love you, care for you, would do anything for you. Would they love you no matter what. "
" Of course. "
" Good for you. I don't want to see them now, but I do in the future. "
" So you're just gonna make them suffer till you feel like seeing them. "
" I do want to see them. " I snap. " Just not right now. "
My wolf is to out of control. I don't know what i'll do if she loses control, I don't want her to hurt them. I also don't want them to be disappointed in me. I used to be completely different, I don't want them to reject me.
" You sound selfish. "
She leaves the room slamming the door. That went well. I sit down on the bed and put my head in my hands and sigh. Images of the faces of my aunt, uncle and cousins with disgusted looks on their faces invade my mind.
" Stop! " I say in my head to Ethu.
" Doesn't matter what you do, there will always be a chance of disappointment. "
" Just stop. This is another reason why I'm scared to see them. Every time I think of them or want to see them, you put those images in my head. Can you just stop. "
" You make those images yourself, I just force you to see them. "
" Stop. "
" No. "
She disappears to the back of my mind. The fear of them hating me is stronger than the fear of hurting them. I really am selfish huh. I stand up and go to the bathroom. I turn on the tap and splash my face. I hear a knock at the door.
" You come back to yell at me Sylvie. "
The door opens and I turn off the tap and walk out of the bathroom. " It doesn't mat-. " I stop in my tracks at stare at the person in front of me. " Leon. "
He looks at me sad. " Why didn't you want to see me. "
" I-I Don't. " I look down and take a step back.
He runs to me and hugs me tight. I go to hug him back but the fear comes back, and I push him away. I back up into the bathroom and close the door and lock it. I start to get a sharp pain in my chest and I slide down the door.
My body starts to shake and I can't breath. No. I can't be having an attack, I haven't had one in years. I can hear Leon trying to get in the bathroom. I crawl away from the door and my vision starts to get fuzzy, then it goes black.
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