Love not Lost

Chapter two

I do not know were has gone wrong with Bridgett not all of her allegations am guilty of.

We were high school sweethearts. Bridgett was one of the finest girls in school she was dating an older senior boy in school before me, Steven. He graduated from the school before us and moved out of the town which made Bridgett and him separated.

A nerd like me mostly doesn’t say hi to anyone, not until one day Bridgett forgot her book in the library. I was sitting just behind her and have seen her read the book in class so I knew she was the owner. The next day when I saw her and gave it to her on her way to the class she thanked me and smiled at me while we walked together into the class chatting. On other days we meet during lunch break while some days we work together at home but most days we meet in the library. We’ve grown fond of each other that when I asked her to be my girlfriend she gladly said yes, as if she was waiting for me to ask her out. We started dating when we were in our final year.

We had our first s*x together when we were in college she had come to visit me in school. I got admission into Baylor University while she got accepted into Texas Tech University.

We didn’t allow distance to cut our relationship short like her previous one. I go visit sometime when she comes to visit also. But on the day that she came none of my roommates were around, I shared the dorm with two people whose lifestyle was way different from mine. I’d served her some snacks and juice while we talked about our day-to-day activities in school, on my bed, we sat opposite each other. Until there was nothing to talk about again and we started staring at each other, I got close to her and kissed her it was my first time but not hers, she looked at me with bewilderment in her eyes. If it was before I would have shied away from kissing her but on that day I just want to take off her mini-skirt and crop top.

She was in a daze with her eyes wide open, then I kissed her again, and now she kissed me back. I deepened the kiss while she moaned amidst it, I laid her back on the bed our lips never left each other, and my hands were traveling from one part of her body to another.

When I stood up to remove my shirt she held me back thinking I wanted to stop but nah I was just getting started. We helped each other undress and I watched her beautiful body I used my tongue to tease her navel, breasts, and thighs, and she moaned softly I took my lips back to hers and then penetrated her. It was a beautiful experience for both of us.

Although, She wouldn’t allow me to touch her now. We usually have great lovemaking but now Her mind isn’t made up for it. She would push me aside anytime I tried to come closer.

We share a great bond that has not been shaken until now. I love and respect her which she knows. She is the love of my life, my support system, and my advisor, before I make any major decision she is the first to know and she will give me her take on it.

Recently a lot has changed she has been moody she would prepare our meal and we would eat in silence,

her glowing face has become dry lately and her beautiful set of teeth would not greet me anymore when I come back from work. We used to have a gist about our daily activities with a lot of laughter.

I missed how she whispered sweet words into my ear with her tongue doing the rest of the wording, I miss when we made love and she said my name while moaning

I never want to experience it with another woman.

A lot of ups and downs have happened within a couple of months and home isn’t home anymore.

I had persuaded and pleaded with her to allow us to come for a couple of therapists, which she had sluggishly accepted. The way she was behaving lately I don’t just want her to come to use the D word for me, we have to make this marriage work anything that is bothering her I have to know today

Have tried doing everything to pacifier her but she wouldn’t budge. Have bought her an expensive gift, took her to our favorite restaurant, and ordered her favorite meal but there was no delight in her.

Every other day she would not even say a word to me unless I say good morning to her and she would reply with a grumbly “Morning sweetie” until when I was in the bathroom when I was trying to please myself by ejaculating on my own, I was about too c*m when I heard my name

“Micheal what are you doing”

I turned to look at her in shock there was disdain in her eyes and she walked away. I had to finish what I was doing, I had started it anyway. I had no idea how long she was behind me I thought she was asleep.

I went into the room to apologize for what she saw, she was already asleep I know she must have feigned it. Anytime I tried to raise the matter she wouldn’t allow me to talk about it.

I peeked at the therapist when she asked the question. “But it wasn’t my fault, we haven’t had s*x for more than six months, I couldn’t help it, although I didn’t mean for her to see me in the act and have tried to apologize for what happened but she wouldn’t listen to me. Disagreement happening with the neighbors is not what I like but it just happens that's why I try to settle with them as soon as possible, I didn’t mean to make you look bad

and I mean no harm by telling my sister or my friend about our situation but Nicholas is our friend we both have him as a friend.

The therapist turned from me to Bridget and asked

“Why is it that you and your husband have not been having s*x lately”

“My body and my soul are not just aligning with it, just want to be alone without any physical and emotional attachment. Can’t a woman say no when she doesn’t want something” she said with a grimace on her face

restaurant and ordered her favorite meal but there was no delight in her.

Every other day she would not even say a word to me unless I say a good morning to her and she would reply with a grumbly “Morning sweetie” until when I was in the bathroom,when i was trying to please myself by ejaculating on my own, I was about too c*m when I heard my name

“Micheal what are you doing”

I turned to look at her in shock there was disdain in her eyes and she walked away. I had to finish what I was doing,I had started it anyway. I had know idea how long she was behind me i thought she was asleep.

I went into the room to apologize for what she saw,she was already asleep i know she must have feign it. Anytime I tried to raise the matter she wouldn’t allow me talk about it.

I looked at the therapist when she asked a question. “But it wasn’t my fault,we haven’t have s*x for more than six month,I couldn’t help it, although i didn’t mean for her to see me in the act and have tried to apologize for what happened but she wouldn’t listen to me. Disagreement happening with the neighbors is not what I like but it just happens that why I try to settle with them as soon as possible,i didn’t mean to make you look bad

and i mean no harm by telling my sister or my friend about our situation but Nicholas he is our friend we both have him as a friend.

The therapist turned from me to Bridget and asked

“Why is it that you and your husband have not been having s*x lately”

“My body and my soul is not just aligning with it,just want too be alone without no physical and emotional attachment. Can’t a woman say no when she doesn’t want something” she said raising her brows