Love after loss

Chapter 16 - The talk

“So what is it you wanted to talk to me about” I asked, no longer able to suppress my curiosity as we finished eating dinner and were sat on the couch with a glass of wine

Tom looked at me with humour in his eyes “You’re very impatient. You couldn’t even wait for me to bring it up naturally” he chuckled slightly but then looked at me a little uncertain “We’ve been dating a few month now Elle, I’m just wondering where this relationship is going”

Oh god! It was THAT talk. I didn’t know where to look. I panicked and took a big gulp of my wine. I mean it had been nice dating again and I had been having a lot of fun with Tom. But was I ready for a relationship? And did I even want one with Tom?

He was just staring at me waiting for me to respond but when I didn’t he sighed “At the risk of sounding like a teenager, I really like you Elle. And I pretty sure you like me, else we wouldn’t be here together. But I’d like to know if this is serious or just a bit of fun for you”

“What do you want it to be” I asked carefully

“I would like something more than fun. I am willing to wait if you aren’t ready to label it yet but I’m only willing to wait if I know it will eventually lead to something more”

I nodded “I need some time to think about it, if that’s okay”

“That’s fine, you can take all the time you need to think it over” he put down his empty glass on the table and started putting his shoes on.

“You aren’t staying?” I asked shocked. He usually always stayed.

“I would love to stay but I think it’s probably best if I went home” he answered

“Are you mad?”

“Of course I’m not mad. Trust me I want nothing more than to spend the night with you but that’s the problem. I want more than one night with you” his voice was sugary sweet and I felt a little pang of guilt that I couldn’t tell him what he wanted to hear.

I straddled his lap on the couch and his arms instinctively went around my waist.

I started kissing him passionately. Kissing along his jawline and nibbling slightly on his ear.

I heard the groan of pleasure escape his lips. I leaned down and whispered into his ear “Are you sure you won’t stay”

“You don’t know what you do to me Elle”

He stood up and with my legs wrapped firmly around his waist, he carried me up to the bedroom.