If Only (BxB)

“When I saw you that day, I couldn’t help but think it was fate. Who would’ve thought, you were the cruelest joke the moon goddess played on me”. ***  It was a pleasant morning today; a gentle breeze caressed my face as I rode the bus back home from school. With my air pods on, I was nodding to the rhythm of Ed Sheeran’s “Perfect” when I saw him. “How beautiful” I murmur under my breath as I gazed at the youth who sat in front of me. He had Auburn hair and sea-rover blue eyes. The aquiline nose he sported complimented his well-defined cheekbones. Handsome in an understated way. I was mesmerized by his looks; it wasn’t until he got off that I noticed the bus had already reached my stop. If only the moon goddess would give me a mate like him. I thought wistfully as I made my way back home, it wasn’t until I felt a pillow hit me in the face that I was pulled out of my reverie. I glance at the culprit, a pretty blond making her way towards me, she had a sculpted figure, glistening sun-tanned skin and deep brown eyes. At 5’8’’ my elder sister Ashlyn towered over my short stature of 5’6’’. ‘’Hey Brat, what are you spacing out for?” she punched my shoulder playfully, even though Ashlyn controlled her strength my face still scrunched up in pain. She’s got the brawn of a warrior beta after all. “Ashlyn, if you had the slightest bit of a brain, you’d know how much that hurt.” I hissed. She shrugged nonchalantly and switched the topic. “BTW Irving you’ll be turning 16 next week, mum and dad said they won’t be able to make it. TBH I’d rather they never make it back.” I froze on the spot “What are you gonna do now?”, She asked with concern in her voice. “You know I’d rather you never tell those jerks, it’s not like they’ll care anyway.” It’s nothing new. I thought, ever since my parents found out that I was an omega, they didn’t even bother trying to hide the disappointment and resentment they had towards me. Being the strongest warrior Betas in the Bloodhound pack, they had expected their children to be the same. When Ashlyn was born, they were slightly disheartened with her being a girl, however, they quickly got over it after Ashlyn was revealed to be a Beta. Four years later my mother got pregnant again. Without a second to waste, they placed all their hopes and expectations onto me, their second child and a boy to boot. Imagine their shock when I manifested as an Omega. My parents began to doubt if I was theirs. My father even went as far as to throw a tantrum at the pack hospital and threatened to sue the doctors for playing a nasty trick on him. They simply couldn’t accept that their presumptions were shattered so tragically and their cherished son was actually an Omega, not a Beta, nor a Gamma but a weak, useless Omega. My mother became mentally unstable, she would hit me sometimes to vent her anger, my father on the other hand was unfazed when mother beat me. A warrior Beta’s prowess is nothing to joke about, besides mother never held back either. Because of the bruises on my body, I was bullied by almost everyone at school, and the pack too spared no efforts to humiliate me. Ashlyn would sometimes sneak into my room late at night and tend to my wounds, she even fought with my bullies at school and ended up getting punished by our parents. This continued until it reached the ears of Alpha Zac, he was enraged at his second in commands treating their 12-year-old like s**t. He had them mend their ways by giving up on their positions. This was the final straw that broke the Camel’s back. My mother rushed back with the intention to kill me, she shifted into her wolf form and went on a rampage. It took my father and Ashlyn 5 hours before they could finally subdue her. That was the last I saw of her. They went on trips all year round, they didn’t care about contacting me at all though they would occasionally text Ashlyn to enquire about her well-being. They found solace in pretending that I never existed. “I know Ash but it’s not like I’ll be able to hide it forever. The moment I find my mate everyone will realize I’m gay. Besides… it’ll be unfair to him.” I whisper. I always knew I was gay. But the only person who I was able to come out of the closet to was Ashlyn. I had planned to come out to everyone including my parents on my Birthday, I’m scared but I no longer wish to hide myself. I never received the affection I yearned for so I have no intention to deprive my mate of it. Ashlyn looked into my eyes and saw firm determination in them, she sighed and said “Alright Irvy I got your back”. *** 1 week later. I stare at the mirror in front of me and sigh. Ashlyn did a really great job. She had barged into my room at 7 am to give me a makeover from head to toe which by the way had lasted for twelve hours. My curly ebony-black hair was combed to perfection. My pale skin was free from blemishes and the white suit I donned fit me perfectly. Ashlyn fully buttoned up my plain white shirt to accommodate the elegant emerald green tie which matched the color of my eye. On top of the shirt was a chic vest with a narrow v-line which allows for the top to remain visible even when the suit’s jacket is buttoned up. “Woah, look at that, my lil pup’s all grown up now. I’m afraid your mate might not be able to control himself “Ashlyn smirked. “Stop bullshitting me Ash, you look like a Life-size Malibu Barbie yourself.” I retort as I glanced at her killer navy-blue dress which left her shoulders uncovered and flew down to a graceful semi-sweetheart neckline, the dress had a slit near her thigh which gave her the perfect opportunity to show off her long legs. “Oh shut your ass Irving, this ain’t bout me. Now we go outside and slay em.” Ashlyn looks super excited, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t looking forward to this. The moment I step out I’ll be old enough to find a mate, a partner who’ll cherish me. My eyes glimmered with hope and anticipation as I strode forward holding Ashlyn’s hand in mine. The birthday party was being held at the humongous garden behind the pack house. It was secluded enough to not attract attention from unwanted visitors, or unassuming humans. I walk down the wide-bricked lane to the expanse of land covered in a variety of flowers, the most outstanding ones being Rothschild’s slipper orchids which boasted of our pack’s massive wealth that our Alpha accumulated after trying his hands at e-commerce. The orchids were accompanied by different shades of Peonies, our Luna’s favorite flower. After our parents left Ash and me alone, Luna Mia would often visit and take care of us, although people tend to be quickly charmed by her graceful smile and petite figure it was her feisty personality and battle prowess that had Alpha Zac smitten. The garden was decorated beautifully with fairy lights bringing forth a mesmerizing display. I had to praise Ashlyn for making my coming-of-age ceremony as memorable as possible. Everything would’ve been perfect had there not been so many people here, Ugh I’d rather find some cozy corner than be the center of attention myself, my palms started getting sweaty at the aspect of my bullies being there too. Ashlyn patted my back reassuringly as we made our way towards Alpha Zac and Luna Mia, it wasn’t too hard to find them amongst the crowd of people since they were the ones who stood out the most. The couple in their forties were holding each other’s hand as they smiled in our direction. “Goodness, Irving you look amazing!” Alpha Zac complimented me as I blushed, I shyly murmured ‘thank you’. “Alright, let’s get him ready for his first shift, he must be looking forward to it.” Luna Mia kindly interjected and lead the way towards an enclosed space where I was supposed to shift into my wolf for the first time. The last time I saw this place was when Ashlyn had her shift, she had changed into a beautiful dark brown wolf exactly like our father’s. Since then, I pretty much stayed home, partly because of the bullying and partly because of the injuries. “Now go inside and don’t forget to take your clothes off before you try shifting, we don’t want that pretty suit ruined to shreds now do we” I nod at Luna Mia’s remainder while Alpha Zac guided me on what to do next, “Just imagine yourself shifting into a wolf, it might feel difficult right now but it gets easier with practice”. I walk behind the screen and remove my clothes. Taking a deep breath, I do as Alpha Zac told me, I hear my bones cracking and changing, my sight and hearing similarly sharpened. This feels amazing! I walk out from behind the screen and hear collective gasps from the people outside. “Oh Moon goddess Irving you’re beautiful!” I hear Ashlyn gush loudly. Everyone seems to have a shocked expression on their face. “What the f**k! Silver fur?!” “An omega with silver fur?” “I’ve never seen a silver wolf before” Hm? is my fur that unique? I head towards the mirror placed In front of the screen to confirm everyone’s assertion. My fur is a bright shade of silver that glistened under the moonlight, my eyes were the same shade of green that I had in my human form, my wolf seemed to be 2’3” pretty good for an average wolf. Though I have to admit I’ve never seen a silver wolf before, the most common shades in our pack are Grey and Brown. Only our Luna’s wolf, who likely has Asian origins, was a sleek blood red color. Ok but how do I change back now? I try to speak but only a whimper comes out. Before I could panic, I hear Alpha Zac’s voice through the mind link “Hey Irving, calm down. Just imagine your body transforming into a human- wait, hold up! Not here, you’re naked remember?”.  Oops. I almost flashed them. I feel my face burning with embarrassment as I hurry back behind the screen to put my clothes on after shifting back. Seeing me come out, Ashlyn rushed over to give me a bear hug with a proud smile on her face. Alpha Zac was also beaming “Well Irving that’s quite the wolf you’ve got there. I’ve only ever heard about two silver wolves before, the first one being Moonstone pack’s first Luna and the second one being you”. I look down shyly since I’m still not used to our Alpha’s presence, probably noticing my awkwardness Ashlyn changed the topic “Anyway Irving, do you feel your mate’s presence anywhere round here?”. I shake my head dejectedly “N-No I don’t smell anything different”, even though I am a little disappointed I don’t let it show. Besides, some people find their mates a little later in life, even Ashlyn hasn’t found her mate yet despite being twenty already. “Aww that’s alright Irving, your Alpha and I met each other when we were twenty-three, I had almost given up on finding a mate”. Luna Mia said as she tried her best to cheer me up, I smiled gratefully while we head back towards the garden to begin the celebrations. As I’m mulling over my ‘coming out of the closet’ speech, I smell the most intoxicating scent I’ve ever chanced upon. It smelled like Waffles and Apple cider, a weird combo yet I couldn’t like it more. My eyes trained on the boy heading towards us, the owner of this scent. He was the same boy I spotted on the bus! “Mate” I let out a joyous whisper which earned me shocked gazes from everyone around including my mate. “He’s Alpha Gayle’s mate? Did the Moon Goddess make a mistake?” “But he’s a male! How could he be our future Luna?! Could it be that Alpha Gayle’s gay-” “Nonsense! How could Alpha Gayle be gay! It’s definitely that shitty omega who’s a freak. I tell you he’s always been a pathetic-” “SILENCE!” Alpha Zac roared loudly “I will not tolerate anyone being disrespectful towards my son or his mate!”. Everyone bowed their heads respectfully at Alpha Zac’s words, while Luna Mia continued solemnly “Although it is true that homosexuality is more commonly witnessed amidst humans, we are not primitive enough to abhor or discourage such a form of love. My son Gayle Roberts and his mate Irving Blue, have both mine and you’re Alpha’s blessing, does anyone of you dare go against our word?”. Though dissatisfied, none of the pack members raised objections. What? He’s their son? That’s news to me. When I look at him again I do see Gayle’s resemblance to his parents, especially his striking Auburn hair which were exactly like Luna’s. Never in my wildest dreams had I expected my mate to be our next Alpha. Even though I Knew Alpha Zac and Luna Mia had a son, I never met him before since I rarely went out. I also attend a school different from the one my pack attends, ever since Ashlyn became the pack’s Warrior Beta at 16 and stepped into our parent’s position, she gained special permission from our Alpha to let me go to a different school. Sympathetic towards my past experiences with bullying Alpha Zac immediately consented to it, given that I strictly conceal my identity as a werewolf. Despite all the effort Ashlyn put into giving me a normal life, my timid personality and gloomy disposition never let me make any friends. It’s not like that bothers me anyway, who needs friends when you’ve got books. So his name’s Gayle. I think sheepishly as I sneak a glance at my mate, he looked distracted. His copper complexion now had a sick pallor to it while his eyes seemed to have lost their brilliance. Noticing my stare, he looked towards me with a gaze full of undisguised hostility. I freeze, not understanding why he was looking at me with such contempt in his eyes, it was the same gaze my parents used to look at me with. I started feeling anxious, did I do something wrong? Did I make him unhappy somehow? While I was lost in thought Alpha Zac made his way towards me with Gayle in tow, “Irving my boy! to think you’d be my son’s mate, I’m beyond surprised. This is probably the first time you guys meet each other. How do you feel Gayle?” Alpha Zac questioned his son who had a stoic expression on his face “Like I’d feel meeting any other guy. Nothing” he answered coldly “Besides, I’m not even gay”. Alpha Zac scratched his neck awkwardly “Don’t mind him Irving, he’s probably grumpy cuz he can’t feel the mate bond yet. You see his 16th birthday is two days later, he hasn’t even shifted yet”.  While Alpha Zac tried to ease up the situation, I had already come up with over a thousand conjectures to justify my mate’s abnormal behavior. Ah that’s why, he’s not even 16 yet, he doesn’t feel the same level of attraction that I do. He’ll love me once he starts feeling the mate bond too- “That is no way to treat your mate Gayle” Luna Mia interrupted my thoughts “You will respect Irving like a true mate does, regardless of gender he is a blessing from the Moon goddess so cherish him like one”. Listening to Luna’s words I realized just how lucky I am to have a leader like her, she accepted me as her only son’s mate with zero hesitation. Whilst rare, there are some homosexuals in werewolf communities, it’s just that Gayle and I will be the first ones in our pack. Moreover, there's never been a male Alpha and Luna pair before. I thank the moon goddess for such an understanding Luna and handsome mate. Ashlyn who was speechless until now finally exploded “OMG Irving you’re Alpha Gayle’s mate! this is awesome I’m so happy for you! Ugh I feel like I’m dreaming.” I laugh at Ashlyn’s constant ramblings, even I find it hard to believe. “Irving” Luna Mia calls out to me “would you like to move in with Gayle? If you feel like it’s too early you can always turn it down, It's just that I think it would be nice if you guys get to know each other better before the marking ceremony ”. “I w-would love to” I quickly agree to it before she could change her mind, she pauses for a second before laughing heartily at my swift response “Then we’ll make the necessary preparations”. Blushing with embarrassment I look forward to my new life with Gayle.