Playing With Fire

Chapter 20

Positive.

I sat on the toilet and stared at the pregnancy test in my hands for an hour before taking another just for them to all read the same. I'm pregnant. A pup, Tate's pup. I got up and slipped into the tub hoping it'll relax my nerves.

Even though Hakans been giving me the cold shoulder I still feel like I betrayed him in a way by getting knocked up without him. 

I knew this would happen, this is what I was meant for, to be the goddesses breading dog, but I always thought it'd happen with both my mates, us not knowing who was the father but each of them being happy regardless. But now.. now I feel worse than before. I feel like I failed one of my mates.

I can feel our bond growing weaker by the day, his presence becoming strange instead of comforting and it's eating me inside not to run into his arms. I miss him, I miss them.

Deciding I soaked long enough I emerged from the bath and wrapped myself in a towel. I smelled my mates as I enter my room, not ours that we share. I moved after we moved back to Hakans pack to distance myself from the mate pull weakening, I didn't want Tate to see the pain it was causing.

I followed their scent to where they both sat at the edge of my bed, heads down like they were ashamed to be here, it hurt to know neither one of them want to be around me, especially now that I carried one of their pups. 

"Leave." My voice remained strong but the words made me break inside, I didn't want them to be here now or ever if they felt ashamed to be. I wish the moon goddess would've let me die instead of feeling this pain from your own mates.

"Skai wait" Tate was the first to speak as he reached his arms towards me which I managed to avoid. "Just listen to him okay?" 

"Listen? You want ME to LISTEN?! No, no I tried to listen, to talk, to hold, to love you but you did this to me, this pain,  this emptiness you both did. I noticed Tate started avoiding me last week but you've been cozy with each other while I lay here, pregnant and alone. I know you smelled it, I also know you felt our bond weaken, soon it'll break completely and I don't think with being pregnant I can survive that." I glared at Hakan before the sobs took over my body. His eyes reflected mine of pain and regret. It didn't matter now though, my body wasn't strong enough for a bond break and they knew it.

"No, you felt it weaken and you still punished her for YOUR families mistakes?!" Tate rose to his feet and looked like he wanted to punch Hakan. 

"I won't let her be taken from us, I won't lose her or our pup. Tell her Hakan or I will." Tate stood shaking, his wolf on the verge of loosing it.

Instinct took over as I started rubbing circles into Tate's back, his warmth filling my body. Hakan kept his eyes glued to the floor before he finally look up with tear filled eyes and spilled it all.

I fell to my knees in Tate's arms as Hakan told me about his brother murdering my parents, how our parents were mates and how he killed my Aunt and how he's known since her body was thrown into Tate's territory.

I chocked back my sobs and cursed to goddess for her sick cruel game of mating me to the man whose family killed mine, why was I being punished. 

"Where is he?" I finally spoke after the long silence.

"Just outside the territory, hiding, waiting. He wants the Alpha position because he is first born but he blames your mom, our fathers true mate for the reason he didn't inherit the element of fire. He says his destiny was ripped from him because of your family. He wants you dead because without an heir he will get the Alpha title its our traditions after finding our mates." 

"If he's first born why didn't he get it?" I asked rubbing my wet face on the back of my hand.

"Father believed me to be mated to his rejected mates offspring, he said he saw it in a dream you and me." He smiled at me before looking over to Tate " Guess he missed this trio though"  he chuckled lowly. "So he said because I hold the element of fire I was to be the true Alpha, I was stronger than my brother, faster and the fire helped make the decision with the counsel as well." He sighed and put his head in his hands. "My brother didn't handle it well and left right after our father died. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner, I meant too but I couldn't face the possibility that I had a hand in what happened."

I nodded my head, processing the information. Tate was rubbing my back soothingly and his other hand came down to my stomach, placing it gently down and looking happy despite the circumstances. I couldn't help but wonder what Hakans thoughts on it were. I looked up to see him looking at my belly with the same expression Tate was. Love and adoration shown in their eyes for our unborn pup.

"You hear it too?" Tate asked Hakan bringing me out of my thoughts.

"Hear what?" I asked, placing my hands over Tate's while the other reaches out for Hakan. He got on the floor with us and put his hand beside Tates.

"Two pups, we're having twins." Hakan explained as he started rubbing my stomach.

Hakan grabbed me up and placed me on his lap and his arms hugged me gently but with so much need.

"I'm sorry Skai, really I am. I love you so much." He looked to Tate and back to me. "All four of you." His mouth came down on mine and I felt our bond restore. The hurt I felt was replaced with the feeling of being whole. 

"We won't let anything hurt you, little mate." Tate's arms wrapped around me from behind as we settled into this cozy position just basking in each other warmth while feeling the love we have for one another. 

Twin pups and a man who blames me for something beyond my control. Moon Goddess what game are we playing here..