Unnoticed

Entry 002

Who am I fooling?

The first entry was a fallacy. It's a complete mockery of who I am.

I sighed as I look at myself in the mirror. And for the nth time, I asked God why am I like this. Why couldn't I just be any other normal girl who normally studies, make friends, falls in love and be loved in return? Why do I have to mope around, sulk and feel so empty?

Why do I have to live a life of a below-normal girl, in the sense that I couldn't experience the things the normal girls like me were experiencing. Why do I have to feel pity for myself?

Ignored, disregarded, set aside, what else? Oh yeah, I forgot one thing, I was unnoticed.

I am a socially awkward individual who blends in the background like I never existed. I only have one friend and I'm still unsure if I could call her a friend. Her name's Asha but I think she doesn't treat me like one. She just tolerates my existence.

I still have my parents. They're physically present but emotionally? I don't think that they still exist. They don't even care about me. Or should I say, no one even bothered to care about me?

My name wasn't even Stacey, I am Hush and this is my silent story.