Unnoticed

Entry 017

I thought, the idea of Dino shouting at me was the worst part of my life. But no, I was very wrong. Standing in front of him without our usual hellos and bickering was the worst of all. It felt so unnerving and depressing at the same time.

The rain was too heavy this morning. I was almost shaking when I walked out of my room. I was about to go to school when I saw him sitting on the bamboo chair allotted for the visitors of the boarders. He was wearing a gray jacket and under that jacket was a black shirt. He was holding a mug of hot chocolate and was staring blankly at the space.

I almost drag my feet towards him and do the usual things we do when we’re together, but I can’t. I’m still hurt and I don’t want to let this mean mouth of mine talk like a deep s**t again. I don’t want to mess everything again.

His words were enough for me to wake me up and make me return back to my senses. I heaved a deep sigh and headed to the bathroom and take a bath. But only a few steps away from the bathroom door, I heard him sigh too.

Did he miss me too? Did he hate this feeling too? Did he despise this situation too?

I took all my courage to look at him but I was disappointed when I found him tapping something on his phone with a huge smile plastered on his face.

He wasn’t sad, he wasn’t depressed. In fact, he was happy. He was so happy with this. It was only me who was feeling like deep trash.

I entered the bathroom with a heavy heart and misty eyes. When I came to school, I tried doing my own little scheme of ‘blending in’ again. Others were still looking at me but it’s much better than the last day. Others were busy because midterms was about to come.

Yes, this will work out. Everything will be fine, Hush. Everything will be just as before.