My Husband Or My Mate

CHAPTER 004

“Leila?” I’m surprised at how soft my voice sounds, trying my best not to scare her. “Look at me.”

I see her swallow hard and then she does. I can finally see her eyes. Big, round, glossy, cute, hazel-colored eyes. And I can see her face clearly now. Stars above! She is breathtakingly beautiful. Her beauty is soft, not glaring or harsh. The kind that makes you afraid of hurting her.

“See, I don’t bite.” I finally say after feasting my eyes. “You can relax.”

“W-why have you called me here, Alpha?” she finally asks the question.

“Do you honestly not know, Leila?” Our gazes locks and there’s a spark. I’ve never felt it with anyone. Like a pull so strong I can barely control it. It’s her scent. A mix of strawberry and vanilla. It makes me want to be closer to her. Makes me want to feel her skin underneath my fingers. I’m almost desperate for it.

“I’m married.” She finally says, looking at me. “I.. I think you should reject me.”

“That’s never going to happen.”

“I’m married to your beta.” She says again, as if I do not realize that already.

“I know. But you belong to me. The goddess has given you to me.”

“I don’t belong to you. I don’t have any plans of leaving Ryan. I love him.”

My heart cracks at her last sentence. I might’ve already known it, but hearing her say it hurts differently. Even my wolf shrinks to a corner.

“Love?” I chuckle, “We both know it doesn’t count in the presence of your fated. The mate bond is stronger than whatever feelings you have for him. I’ll give you some time to make up your mind.”

“I’ve already made up my mind.” She says. “I cannot leave Ryan.”

“Because you love him?”

“Because I cannot bear to hurt him.”

I can’t help the scoff that leaves my lips. “That is not a concrete reason to reject your fated. Like I said, I’ll give you some time to think about it. Once you agree to my claim, you’ll become my Luna. My own.”

“That is not going to happen. Are you not listening to me?” Her soft voice has risen a bit, clearly upset. She does have a feisty side after all.

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LEILA.

I can’t help but feel like he is not listening to me.

I just told him about Ryan and he doesn’t act like that matters at all. He expects me to just leave my husband and go to his side. That is not going to happen, and I don’t know how else to tell him that I have made my decision so I stood.

“Thank you for having me here, Alpha.” I tell him, bowing my head slightly. I barely even touched the loads of food he piled in my plate. “But I’ll take my leave now.”

I don’t wait for his approval. I head for the door even though my wolf is begging to stay a while longer. But I already feel like I am doing something wrong since I am here without Ryan’s knowledge. If Ryan finds out about this, he won’t take it lightly.

But before I can open the door, the Alpha is blocking it. In the blink of an eye, he disappeared from his spot and appeared in front of me using his wolf speed. Before I can do anything, he pushes me to the wall, traps my hands in his to stop me from protesting and claims my lips in his.

I freeze. My eyes go so wide they could’ve popped out of their sockets. I try to fight him off but I can’t help noticing what he tastes like. Honey and mint. I can’t remember how I start to kiss him back. My body responds to him on its own. Heat pulses through my skin and I know I should stop. f**k, what is wrong with me? I’m married to Ryan, and I shouldn’t be doing this yet my body is burning under his touch. There is this primal hunger that comes with the way he is ravaging my lips, the way he is kissing me deeply, possessively. My wolf purrs, my head spins, and my knees weaken. We’re both breathing heavily when he finally pulls away.

And I feel shame instantly. Shame because I want more. Shame because I do not want this to stop.

“You see, this is what the mate bond does. Even if you don’t want it, you cannot resist it.” He whispers in my ear, and I shiver but I’m also angry. Angry at the complete lack of control of my body. I’ve never experienced something like this.

I don’t remember how I raised my hands to the Alpha’s face. I only remember running out of that room, with tears in my eyes. I remember trying to find the exit of the pack house, desperately, with blurred vision and heading home hurriedly, hating myself, hating that I even agreed to come here in the first place.

And hating that I’d kissed another man that wasn’t Ryan. That I’d wanted him so bad in a way I’d never felt for Ryan.