The Alpha's Goddess

Mira POV Looking down on my feet, I am still trying my best not to move as I know that moving a bit will cause my body to hit the floor. A sigh escaped my mouth, knowing my hope in life is at its edge. Being here standing and pretending to be a statue for almost two hours with my arm lifted in the air, both holding a now small ice-blocks while facing head down, I can't anymore feel my body. All I wish now is for me to vanish in the air to end all my misery. But no, the final blow is yet to come. I can hear now the shuffling of keys trying to get in the doorknob. The little me should be prepared for the pain that is bound to happen. The creek of the door signals the two person's entry who supposed to show love and affection to me like what they did before. This house was once full of love and laughter. Everything changed after the accident happened to me four years ago. All they give to me from that day is pain, misery, and torture. I tried to look around the house once more, trying to find another happy memory that will help me still cling to the hope that everything will go back where it used to be, but I guess I already used it all. A bitter smile escaped my mouth, four years have gone, but here I am, still dreaming. "They are here!" my wolf said. "You st**id kid!! Why you still chose to live!" My father, the previous beta, shouted at me and not long enough, as in 2 seconds, I already felt his palm in my face. This still caught me off guard, making my fly against the wall of our dining area. I can taste the fresh blood in my mouth after the blow. I also winced when I felt pain in my head and shoulder for hitting the wall. Hoping that tomorrow the pain will be gone and I can still move my body for school. This is my usual mantra every day after receiving punches, s****s, slaps, kicks, etc. Hopefully, tomorrow the pain will be gone, and I can go to school. In school, I can forget momentarily all the pain they gave and my miserable situation. "I told you, you should have killed her. Letting her still breathing will bring bad luck in our life!" my mom said. She grabbed my hair to lift me and make me stand again and look at her face. I can see her eyes in pitch black, indicating that her wolf is also in control. "You listen to me b**ch, be a good girl a get the knife I gave you a while ago and stub yourself to end this drama. I'm so fed up with your hope to have a happy life!" She threw me near the table where she put the silver knife before they left. I heard a small laugh from my father, seeing me helpless on the floor. "but sweetheart, don't do it in front of us. Wait till we are already sleeping so no one can suspect us of your sudden death. Okie?" He pointed out. "Killing your self will immediately end all your suffering. Don't you want to stop the pain? You want right? Be a good girl and listen to us." I remain looking on the floor. I don't want to see him saying those words. If I did, I know my wolf will come out, and everything will be more complicated. "Let's take a rest now John, seeing her ruined my day! Let's go shopping again tomorrow?" My mom gave me a one last dagger look and clanged to my dad's arm. Pushing him towards the stair and up the room. I heard the door close, but it creak open again. "We don't want to see you tomorrow alive ok?" my father shouted from the second floor before closing the door again. I tried to stand, but my body isn't responding. I can't feel my body, and my brain isn't working. All I can recognize is pain. If there is really a moon goddess who created us and is our loving mother, why did she let me still be alive and experience this? If I don't deserve to live, she should have taken my life when I drowned in the waterfalls back then. Surviving that day started my pain and suffering every day. I was able to manage to stand despite being limp. I need to get out of this misery. I had enough! Taking the silver knife covered with grey cloth, I started to walk towards the door. No, I will not give them the satisfaction to see me dead. Mom told me that they couldn't kill me because "someone" will know if I was killed, and it will backfire on them. That is why they want me to commit suicide. "Let's leave them Mira; there's no hope after years of suffering, "my wolf said. Therese, my wolf, is the only one who makes me still alive and hoping for a change. I got her after that accident in the waterfalls, and no one knows yet that I already have her that early. Usually, our wolf appears once you turned 15 years old, but I was only 13 at that time. Maybe the accident triggered her to reach out, or perhaps the moon goddess knows I'll be miserable after then. So she gave me someone to lean on. Therese helped me recover after the series of abuse from my parents and the other pack members. My parents are foolish not to notice it and thought that I should be thankful instead to their beta's blood running in my body, making it healthy and fit. I slowly open the door, not letting any noise be heard. I think the smell of my blood after hitting the wall and the floor is enough to cover me up to escape. I gave one last look at the place where I felt hell before running down the patio towards the forest. It's just me, Therese, and this silver knife now. We are still risking our life running away, but we know we can do it. Deciding to leave this place is the best choice. I masked my scent before leaving our house, trusting that this ability of Therese can make our plan succeed. I run in my wolf form to the forest for; I think two hours. Good thing, it is already dark though it is only five o'clock in the afternoon. Following the trail I once tried to take, I found myself in an open clearing with a small lake. I know this is the boundary of our pack. Hiding behind the bushes, I waited for the patrol guard to pass by. I am not sure what time it will happen, but what I am sure of is that they will not go back once they passed. The last thing she wants to happen is being caught by the guard and face their alpha, who happens to be his cousin because he is scarier than my parents. Gathering all the courage, I went fast to the boundary, reaching our neighboring pack's forest after seeing the patrol guard passed. If my calculation is right, considering my speed, I'll be able to cross three-pack territories in 4 hours, given that the neighboring packs have a smaller domain than ours. "Don't worry, and everything will be ok now. Take a rest for a while and let me be in control." Therese said to me. After she said that, that's the only time I recognized how tensed and exhausted my body is. "Therese, thank you. We are now free" I felt my tears roll on my cheeks before I blackout.