Fated to be together or not [COMPLETED]

Wedding Vows

I sat down and placed my chin on my knees. Curled up in a ball, and thought about past few months. I was at least trying to come out of Jack's betrayal and then this. I was unable to stop my tears. I could hear Emma and all others knocking.

"Please I need few minutes, and don't worry I will not end my life." I responded with a heavy throat.

I moved to my bed and wondering when will my tears stop. It was getting so hard. The pain was killing me every second and there was nothing I could do. Emma told me to think about the child and I asked Sia about how a child looks when I am 2 months pregnant. She showed me my own sonography. I could see a head, it was so small and then she made me hear a heart beat. How could I kill it.

Even if it was s reminder of what happened with me, it is alive and was not at fault. I will love this child with all my heart. But how will I answer all the questions once he/she grows up. I will not be even able to give a father name let alone tell about how we broke about or how her/his Dad was. And then I heard Alex, and I knew I had to do it. I will sacrifice myself, me feelings, my disgust to give this child a name. A legal name.

"Can I come in Nicolle?" I heard Alex.

"Yes."

He came inside and sat on the chair which was kept aside my study table. Study table, it reminded me of my dreams. I don't even know myself now.

"I don't want you to think it as a favor or something. Think of it as a deal. I know you can't marry anyone at this point because marriage comes with certain responsibilities which I doubt you are ready for. And I have few secrets which I can't share with even my family let alone a stranger. Aunty is trying her best to get me married and I don't want to. But if we marry, I will be able to keep my things safe and you will never have to bother about any kind of marital responsibility. You know what I mean, right?"

I nodded. I knew exactly what he was saying about. He was saying about f*****f s*x.

"This really sounds selfish, but I need your help with that. Once we are married, I will announce that it's my baby. And you can live really far from this neighborhood where these memories constantly haunt you. You can decide and I will accept your decision, and we can write it all down on a prenup, if you want."

"And Thanks for thinking about this. We will seek out therapies in Seattle. Best doctors, rest assured."

"Alex, I heard what you said in front of my Dad and Mom. I just have 2 conditions before marriage."

"Whatever you say." And I told him my conditions.

He left with a smile on his face, which looked like as if he was trying to help me but I know what I saw. And soon I will reveal to him that I know it was him. The look on his face, I am waiting for it.

Alex:

I left her in the room, and sighed once I was out in my car. I made it sound like I needed her to keep my secrets safe. I do have secrets, but even if I married anyone else, I would have kept them separate. My library is a place where no one in allowed, and I never planned to let my wife in. But I needed her to think that she is helping me because I don't want her to feel that I am doing this out of pity. Because I am not marrying her for her or me. I am doing this for the new life growing inside her.

The news came as a buzz in all the media. Alex marrying the girl he was carrying bridal style a few months back. But I don't care. The only thing that matters is Nicolle agreed. She said she agrees to the marriage, and to show the world, she will live with me in my bedroom but she will never have a physical relation with me. I agreed to it immediately. I don't want to pressurize her. Even I am not ready to have s*x with some one I don't love. I care about her, but I don't think I love her.

Her second condition was she would like to join the office, and I was more than happy to accept that. In fact I was thinking about offering her the job once she feels normal.

And now here she is, in front of me, on the alter.

"I vow to take care of the promise I made on the day I asked for your hand in marriage. I will always keep you happy, and will help you to fulfil all your dreams. I will protect you from this world, and never ever let anything happen to you. I promise that I will pull you out of your loneliness and fill your life with colors. I promise I will not let this smile escape your lips till I breathe." I said my vows.

"I vow I will keep my promises which I made on the day I said yes to you. I will never let you feel alone and will be with you till death makes us apart."

"And I will make you pay for what you did." I made a vow to myself.

"You may now kiss the bride."

Kiss the bride, f**k. I never kissed anyone as I wanted to save it for the woman I love. But now, I won't love anyone since I am a married man. So I guess I will never know what a true love kiss is or even how a kiss feels. I looked at her. She had closed her eyes. She wasn't ready for the kiss as well. And I realized, even she will never feel what a true love kiss feels like.

I slowly moved towards her and leaned in close enough for our lips to brush against each other. I was never this close to a girl in my life. I could feel her warm breath on my lips. It was getting difficult to control myself. My lips were still brushing against hers as I didn't bent more. I wanted to lean in and kiss her, wanted to feel a kiss but I knew what she went through, so I swallowed hard, closed my lips and whispered "Don't worry, I remember my promise to you. This is just a show for everyone so you can open your eyes. I will not kiss you." With those words, and using all my strength, I pulled back and smiled. Everyone thought we kissed. After some time I went towards Nicolle and asked her.

"Would you like to dance with me?"

Nicolle:

"Would you like to dance with me?"

"Yes, sure." I started dancing with him and the events started flooding before my eyes. He was so close, he could have kissed me. Last time it was different because I was not awake but this time. This time I was completely awake and all he had to do was just bend a little extra. He just had to move his head. He leaned in too close to me and stood there for a second. I was feeling his lips over mine, just hovering not even touching properly. And then he spoke

"Don't worry, I remember my promise to you. This is just a show for everyone so you can open your eyes. I will not kiss you." I swear I heard his heart beating loud, then why? Why he didn't kiss me then?

May be he just wanted to use me, and since he has already used my body he is no more interested. He said he has few secrets. May be he is a mental criminal and rapes a girl when she is sleeping, or drugged. I am adding one more thing to my wedding vows. I will not sleep in front of him.