Fated to be together or not [COMPLETED]

Should we leave?

Nicolle:

Mrs. Jones was trying to understand what happened. Even she could not understand why Alex behaved like this.

"Well if Alex left you just because he thinks you are not a virgin, then I think he is the most stupid man I have ever seen. But I think we are missing something here."

"What do you mean?"

"You told me that you had a misunderstanding before, correct?"

"Yes."

"Maybe he thinks it's too soon to move forward with this relationship. Maybe for him, you are still recovering from a traumatic experience. Maybe he doesn't want you to remember all those nasty things. After all this was to be your first physical contact with anyone after that trauma. Maybe he was afraid you will remember everything again. Or maybe he already got too excited and went out to help himself."

"But he didn't even look at me."

"Because he was already hard, and didn't want you to see him like that."

I was getting hopeful, but I was not sure. “Do you think one kiss with me can make him? You know what I mean, right?” I don’t know why I am sharing these thoughts with a grandma, but I guess I don’t have anyone with me right now and I am in need of a love consultation. And she has experience.

“When he knocked on the door, he had the blanket on himself, so I really don’t know. But if he is still a virgin and this was his first kiss, I can bet he was more than that. He might be helping himself as we are talking.” She said with a laugh and I smiled.

"But what if he thinks I am not good enough for him."

"Then my dear, he wouldn't have even touched you. You told me yourself, he is a different man. He never touches a girl and what I saw today, he respects girls a lot." She paused

"In the society we live in, everyone blames a girl. Why did you share such a video with a guy, why did you get pregnant before college. You know, that kind of stuff where a boy gets all the freedom to do whatever s**t he wants but still expects his wife to be a virgin. But Alex is different." She is right about this.

'He didn’t ask the girl why she sent the video to a guy in the first place. But he beat the s**t out of the guy for trying to force a girl. If he thought you were not good for him, then he would not have looked at you, let alone kiss you. From what I can understand, he is in denial. Or maybe he is not comfortable showing his scars to you. That could be one of the reasons. Or maybe he thinks that he almost forced himself on you."

Could this be true? He pulled back because he didn't want to share his pain with me. I think it makes sense. I am a fool, getting worried over nothing.

I finally smiled, but asked Mrs. Jones to sleep with me.

"Don't worry about that, he came to our room and requested me to sleep with you. He said he had a meeting."

"Liar." I complained.

"You two are such a sweet couple. Look at you, blushing like a schoolgirl."

I blushed and covered myself with a blanket.

We left in the morning after breakfast. I hugged and thanked Mrs. Jones. When I was unable to understand my own emotions, she cleared them for me. I am definitely coming back here again.

Alex:

I can't face Nicolle. I came early in the morning when she was sleeping and got ready before she could wake up. I don't know how I will travel with her.

"So, Alex. Leaving?" While Nicolle was talking to Mrs. Jones, her husband, decided to ask me. I am sure he knows by now what a jerk I am.

"Yeah. I need to drop her to Fresno, CA."

"Only drop, you are not staying there?"

"No, I will leave the same day. I ... I have meetings to attend." I lied to him. Truth is I don't know if I will be able to talk to Nicolle. I wiped my forehead, trying to ignore the conversation, but Mr. Jones was not letting me go.

"You really have meetings?" I looked at him and I am sure he knows I am lying. I looked at the ground feeling extremely uncomfortable.

"It doesn't matter if I have meetings or not. I just know she shouldn’t stay near me. I just hope she lets me meet the kid every once in a while."

“Hmm, and she thinks the same? That you should not live together?”

What type of question is this? Of course she doesn’t  want to stay with me. The moment this pregnancy was announced, she decided to go to her parents. She didn’t even try to hide her enthusiasm. She packed 4 big bags. What does that mean?

She wants to leave me forever. And I can’t take advantage of her if she has decided this. Also, I am not comfortable sharing my scars with her.

“Yes. I am 100% sure.” I said while looking at her. She looks so normal as if nothing happened. We KISSED. It was a big deal considering we didn’t even kiss on our wedding day. It’s not that I love her or something. I think I just got in the habit of finding someone in my room after work. I liked the idea of seeing someone after getting mental wounds. Maybe I started dreaming of raising a kid with her. I was hoping that I will have a kid and I will do anything in my power to keep him/her happy. But looking at her, she is not even bothered to see what I am feeling and it’s killing me.

"I am not sure you understand this, Alex. She hugs you when she is afraid. She smiles when she sees you happy. She fainted when she saw blood on you. What do you think this is? Do you think she trusts anyone else to take care of her and her child? I don't know what problems you both have, but I know this, she wants you to be her friend. She wants to be with you. She feels safe with you. You have a very beautiful relationship, don’t spoil it."

"What if I already have?" I whispered looking at Nicolle. She was talking to Mrs. Jones. She felt my stare and turned towards me. I immediately looked at the car.

"Should we leave?" I heard Nicolle, but didn’t turn my face, just nodded and opened the door for her. We bid our goodbye to the beautiful couple and left for CA.