More Words To Say Sorry

to much love can't go back from what it was

the time we are going to be fine. she was going back her work. then here come again. him my best friend that I hope will be never to repeat my past back.

it's a smiley morning. I wife was not here with me. she was back for work. it's morning I was outside cleaning our store. I owned a*****e and sell products and items. the store for is helpful and nice. when he approached me and greet me. " good thing you owned a*****e". I reply "yes, it's for and my wife. we use our little saving for our store". he said " may be someday I like to buy from your store ". first expression I was stop for moment, why I should talk to you... I am not naive. then finally a words came out of mine. I said "thank you how kind of you to drop to my store and buy for what you like". I smile, then " he said but one thing I like to buy in your store is "you". I never noticed he said that. but I have to focus on my wife trusting me here our store. I smile and replying that I said " I am not available, I love so much my wife " "he can buy anything what I am selling in the store" instead me and my wife because we're not for sale. he smile walking. I am hurt as been hurt standing. but I called his attention that I am ready for him to be his friend again. then he smiled out of rich for me...I smile also returning my feeling to him "that there is no more left for us but what is now for now. I smile having tears in my eyes and even him didn't recognize for it. so days goes bye bye and every day seem the same as it if we're going to try to get back the ways it use be. hoping I last my pride that I am not anymore a gay but a man been married with loving sweet honestly wife. days goes bye emptying my feeling to him are been helpful for me and my wife. my wife love me accepted me and even filled up what my heart and mind needed and left my past forgotten and bring me to life with a new me. this was my true history of life in San Pedro Laguna Philippines.

thank you for reading and sharing me my story of my past from her to his. stay safe and prayers and God bless.

written by: Eric Czar M Regis

San Pedro Laguna, Philippines