The Wretched Redemption

As I was trying on wedding dresses. I called out for my Mom “Mom! Can you try reaching out Gavin again? I think he’s running a little late?” as I try to put on the 3rd dress I liked. “Yeah wait let me call him again, just focus on trying on those dresses and make sure to set aside the things you liked and try it again after he arrives okay? Maybe he’s just busy with work” my Mom yelled back at me. I didn’t think much from it because I know Gavin anfmd his reason is work. And I'm fine with it because I know how workaholic he is. But after I tried almost 20 dresses and I walk out from the dressing room and went to check up on my parents, but I was taken aback by the look on their faces. My dad is pacing the lobby of the wedding store walking back and forth shaking his head and clenching his fist. My Mom trying to calm him down while my dad is mumbling curses . “Wha-ts wrong Da-d?” My voice is cracking because I knew something was wrong. “Isla I think you need to look at your phone, Gavin that f**cker sent you something. I can’t I feel like I might kill Him if I see him right now.” My Dad is shaking with anger but I don’t understand why. “Isla we love you honey, me and your Dad is always here for you. So whatever you see on your phone right now. Please get ahold of yourself. I will bring home your dad to calm him down honey. Okay?” My Mom is shaking and I can feel she’s about to cry. Then my Mom gave me my phone in the screen is a photo of Gavin half naked with HER. I stumbled and fell on the ground. My dreams and hope where suddenly came crashing down. My dad cursing, my mom crying trying to calm him down. But I can’t hear anything I’m aware that they are there but all I could hear is my own heartbeat ringing in my ears. Its so loud I feel like It will make me go deaf. My Mom dragged my Dad out of the store and locked him inside the car and came back hugging me. She was comforting me but I was so lost I didn’t even cry. I lost. I’m at lost. My poor parents who knew how I feel about this wedding I know their hearts are broken. And my mom left me there and called my friend Ruby to come and pick me up. As I saw my mom leaving the store. Something ticked in me. I stand up bolted out of the store to my car drove like a mad woman and i know my life depends on it. I reached to where Gavin’s company is and called him. He picked up the call on the first ring. He never answered his phone this fast before. “Get your ass down here Gav!!? I’m at your company’s lobby. GET THE f**k DOWN OR I WILL MAKE A F*CK**** SCENE” he didn’t say anything but I heard his co-workers asking where he's going. Then after a few seconds his in front of me. “Gav! What the hell was that?” I ask him. Tears started to form clouding my vision. My ears keeps on ringing because of my anger at him. He looks like he was expecting this to happen and just waiting. The look in his face is telling me he knew what I will say next. Like the moment he sent that picture. He was prepared. He had his poker faced on. He looked even bored. “After all the years I have been with you! I spent my 12 years with you! What did I do to deserve seeing you with HER IN BED? Who am I to you? Was I just used for the both of you to be happy? Why Gav? How could you do this to me!? I’m your fiancé for f**k sake. You should have told me sooner that you don’t love me anymore! Why the hell did you even proposed? my parents… my poor parents Gav you broke their heart!!!! They saw the picture first! You could’ve just just told me sooner! You’re a trash!.” I screamed at him letting the pain, the betrayal, the anguish I’m feeling took over. I almost lost my voice in the process. The people in the lobby looked our way but I didn’t even care anymore. “I’m sorry Isla. It was not my intention for your parents to see it. If I didn’t sent that picture you wont let go and will try to fix us. And I’m tired of that! As you said its already 12 years! I got tired of you. I know all the help you did for my family when my Dad was still alive and had cancer! I was thankful! For the care you gave my dad when he was alive. The money you kept pushing to help with hospital bills. I will pay it back no matter what. I.. when I look at you all I could think of is guilt. Guilt of making you suffer from all those things just because of me. I know you where just tried helping but. I did not want your help. It made me feel insecure. And got tired of feeling the guilt. Everytime I see you it reminded me of thame guilt. And I have HER now! Can’t you see she makes me happier now than you did! I’m at my happiest now. Please, I proposed because of the pressure I felt from your parents. I loved you but one day I just found myself attracted to her and it wasn’t my fault falling out of love. Have you seen yourself lately? You don’t look like the person I fell in love with. And SHE is what I want NOW. I’m warning you don’t ever comeback at my workplace causing this ruckus. Your embarrassing the both of us. You really did go low Isla. I’m ashamed of you. I thought you knew better”. He was so loud that the people around us could hear it. That was the first time I heard those harsh words from him, he looked at me so coldly like I have never been a part of his life. A cold tone I never had heard before and never imagined he could be that cold. I thought all I need to do was give him my all. All I did was to give him all I could. Was I never enough from the start? Was he right? Was I the only one excited and looking forward for our future together? All I did until now is for the both of us. I prepared the wedding, from invitations, to cake tasting, venue and so on. I was so excited that I never thought of him falling out in our relationship. I thought he was busy on work so I never questioned him. I trusted the 12 years we had. I was so busy that I haven’t had the time to fix myself. I took care of his Dad when he was alive and my parents. I was the only one running around meeting friends and relatives informing them that we are getting married. I was so busy that I never even took the time to look myself in the mirror. My thoughts came rushing in that I felt like I will drown at any moment. And if I don’t walk out now I will end up on my knees begging him to stay. Pathetic. Even the thought of begging crossed my mind. I wiped my tears away not letting them see more of how broken I was. I then get ahold myself turned my back and started walking away out from the lobby of his workplace. I then saw people started to swarm at us. They are like watching a live drama. As I walked out I saw HER smiling triumphantly. “I told you didn’t I? He’s mine Isla. I told you before I get what I want and when I get it. It will always be mine. Pathetic girl.” The smug look on her face as much as u want to rip that face of hers I just ignored her as I don't want feeding her ego on how pathetic i look right now. And i don’t have the energy to deal with her. She was dumbfounded because she didn’t comprehend my reaction. I was always ready to berate with her but i just realized it was my attention that the her ego is feasting on. And she feel so big right now. If fell again with her taunts she will regain her control over me. She then grab my left arm because she didn't got out what she wants from me. I slap her hand of off me. and I walked away to my car and drive like a crazy lady. I drive wherever the road is taking me then suddenly my gas is already so low my engine stopped. I looked out my window and realize I’m at edge of a road where theres a beach at a distance. It gotten dark but I got out and walk to the beach. There was no one there because it was nearing winter and it is already 11 pm. I walked and reached where the waves end. I didn’t want to get wet because its cold. I stare at the waves and as it helps to calm my nerves. “What do we do now Isla? We are 30. My fuc**king fiancé F**KED up and I resigned from my company of 8 years. We are broke huh. I paid for a all the expenses for the wedding and also the paid for the down-payment for the house. F**k I did gave my all huh?” Tears streaming down my face, my eyeliner and makeup is a mess, my snot is falling down then I realized my whispers came out as scream. Then I heard a rustle behind me. I looked back and there is a guy standing there looking at me like I’m a madwoman he was standing there with a bottle of wine and seemed to be enjoying what he just witnessed. “Who the hell are you!?” I shouted at Him. “This is my private beach, now WHO ARE YOU?” he asks me back with a low voice almost husky. I flinched I realize I trespassed. “I will get out now. Sorry” I said without any energy to deal with Him. As I walk pass him he spoke again “Did he cheat on you?” I didn’t realize I f*****g nod then again I’m not in my right mind am I? F*ck it. “Yes so what? Do you have medicine for heartache?” I ask sarcastically. “I can’t call it a medicine but it can help you forget?” He said with a smirk and a mischievous smile. I then grabbed the bottle of wine he was holding and drank it whole. Then he smiled and said “You can join me if you want to?” he said walking to a villa not far from where we are and the villa with bright lights and a calming atmosphere and I think the wine got the best of me and I ended up following him. Then he shows me his mini bar and we drank until I got drowsy and end up blacking out. I woke up with the light blinding me and to the sound of waves. I didn’t remember much from the night before but I know I’m inside of the villa of that strange guy from last night. I stand up causing me to fall back again realizing I’m in a room but I was alone and that I’m dressed and there’s no sign that we did IT. I walked in the bathroom and saw my face. My make up is a mess. Messier than I could imagine. My eyeliner was all over my face. Eyebooger and even dried up drool. My eyes are so puffy so I splashed my face with cold water to lessen the puffiness. I found a new toothbrush stocked at one of the cabinets and I also a new toothpaste. I then brush my teeth. I tried to fix my brown wavy hair in a messy bun. This will do. The hell did I show my ugly monster with that guy. Now i'm thinking no one will have be interested in me ever again. My headache is also blarring. I then walked out of the room and as I soon I smell fresh coffee and some bacon? Eggs? Then I continued walking down and saw this guy I never realize how good looking he was from the night before because I was so lost that I did not even care. He’s tall, He’s big, and his body even his wearing a hoodie his muscle’s are hugging it. uhhh my god! What did I just do? What the hell? Did I just check him out? As I was lost in my own thoughts, I didn’t realize he was already looking at me he has this jet black hair, hazel eyes that I think if I stare at it longer I might get lost, a perfect lips plump but perfectly shape and a very handsome smile??? Now its smirking?? Ah What?? Wake up Isla! I told to myself. “Uhh Good Morning Mister?” I said while fiddling the end of my shirt. I didn’t even realize I was just wearing my loose shirt and my high waist wide jeans. I didn’t realize I was so cold because I was practically went out like a crazy lady. I left my long coat at the wedding dress store and I purposely put this on for me to be easier to put it back on and off to choose my wedding dress. Dammit that crossed my mind again. To hell to that Gavin and HER. I suddenly came back to my senses when I hear him clear his troath. “Good morning Miss” he said with again that smile. Damn boy. “Are you hungry? I prepared breakfast. Don’t worry I’m not a criminal attacking stranger while they are drunk you see? I’m a gentleman. I saw your snot and everything nasty yesterday already. I'm good. ” he said laughingly but also reassuring me and flashing his gentle smile. And that calmed me down. “I didn’t! I was just ashamed about how I acted yesterday. I didn’t vomit too did i?” I said while covering my face because of what he said. He then came closer to me and sat me down in front of him. “Except that miss. But even if you do. I couldn’t care less you know? What else happens when we someone get drunk yeah?” He said it like it was not even a big deal. “Thanks I guess? Mr. gentleman?” I said smiling. “Yes that’s it so don’t be like that we all go through something and I also was not in my right mind yesterday either, thanks for keeping my company” flashing yet again his blindingly handsome smile. Then I just nodded and started eating. I didn’t ask anything anymore about why he was not in his right mind either. Maybe he was drunk already yesterday??. As I was lost in my thoughts again. He filled up my cup with freshly brewed coffee. It was so fragrant that the smell help my throbbing head. Arrgh damn hangover. “So do you want revenge?” he suddenly asks while I’m drinking my coffee and it went in my windpipe and I coughed. “Ah what mister?” I asks him dumbfounded. “Revenge? You talked on and on yesterday about how Gowvin? I think. Cheated on you and all the things he told you and that you kept saying “HER” cursing in the air on how you helped the both of them with their own problems but end up getting hurt by the both of them. You even told me that you where the one who paid for everything to wedding, down-payment of your future house?” he said with all seriousness. “First of all its GA-VIN and Yes I would want that but I can’t, did you not hear me yesterday? I’m broke mister, I resigned preparing to be a full-time wife for that stupid pest and I’m practically drowni-ng in deb-t.” I said and my voice end up shaking remembering what happened to me yesterday. “I will help you, and you help me too let’s make a contract” he said with the same seriousness. “How? Are you a genie?” I laugh wishing he would laugh too taking it was a joke but he didn’t. “I’m someone like that.” He said suddenly with a change of attitude it was like domineering. I felt power and conviction with what he just said. “Okay? ” I said and felt sudden chills. “BE MY WIFE THEN” he said while flashing me his most handsome smile, its very innocent and alluring. His dangerous. I can tell by how he can suddenly change his facial expressions and tone like that. “O-kay” I said without much thought of it because I suddenly felt chills again and I suddenly realize what the f**k sh** did I just agreed on??????? "Lets go for a walk then, shall we? my future WIFE." He said without even wincing. He smirk at me. Like he knew there was no way that I will say no. "What the hell mister?" I bolted out of my sit and glared at him but he seemed unfazed with my sudden glare. "Why? you just said okay? Am i wrong my future WIFE???" He said smirking and leaning as if he is studying my face. "Okay just a walk, I need that too my head is pounding ya know? from all those booze?" I said while gesturing for him to get his ass moving. I didn’t ask why he need this contract because I’m afraid he will tell me the reason and I might end up regretting agreeing later. I think i will focus on myself and with uncertainty of this guy will bring in my oh so messy life. For now I will let my mind else where.