life and hell again

men or a mouse

2009 we was text each other in was single and at-home. My mum was on a date and my brother.I was alone so I got taxi to his house had drink hang out and found or self kiss and touch and end up in bed stay over have laugh next moring .he drove me home . then we got on with our life again, move on .we keep in touch. I finally told him I had a crush on him . he knew it, then life got in the ways. we never had that thing like relationships as we were friends .but the banter was on fire. then I met Danny wolf meet him off online and then meet up with him he cook me dinner then shopping meet his family start to move in with him then things change I met up with a friend of mine Jen for a night out need a few so we went to New Brighton and had a laugh few drinks and game of pool .I checked my phone and had 10 minutes. called and texted a message tell me to get home and that I was locked out of the house . Jen told me to turn it off because she knew Mum would have had her door open .and then two guys said dump him should not be like that . I finally got home. Danny pinned me against wall hand wrap around my thoart,

lifted me up . I knew he was drunk and stoned off his head. I went to bed and slept and then went back to Mum's house . and I had an appointment for a smear test for a biopsy .mum came with me .something I'm I'm gut told to check online and there he was chatting to women tell me he got headache bullshite . . I turn my laptop off and then got to the hospital and I was next waiting and felt nevers too the nurse called me and open me leg and did the biopsy told me to cough I did then she cut me inside my v****a it hurt . she stopped the bleeding and told me rest at home and take painkiller not to move too much i was feel afraid about the result. Danny turned up the hospital. he walks away .and I had the courage to tell me mum what happened to me another night . I told her, and Mum saw red she told him he was a shite house and low life to do that to me . I went home with mum told him it was over and my mum said come on where getting your stuff I said I couldn't because of the bisopy she said I could rest after and my mum belittle him in front of his so called mate call him low life and cheater that he not a man he a mouse. I was laughing inside but hurt INSIDE . I move back home . and found my friend waiting for me and helping and supporting me.Then it started his brother to start to call me. i told him what happened to the calls stop . then I started to be agin because my mum and friend and family helped me . got the result of my bisopy, and it was HPVirse, and then he went away .I went back on my laptop and spoke to the guy called Ben

again on my online date on my laptop, and I just moved into my first house on harrowby Road, and I was so happy .new house and had a date to

he picked me up in his red car, took me out , dropped me off home, and then it was at my house again. Picking me up took me for drive . then stay over the night had s*x I was good month of Feb 2011 . then meet his mum and sister and family, and then he met my mum . He loves to go fishing and drive . then I found out in May 2011 I was pregnant but I went into shock and lost it I didn't know at all until my doctor told me I told Ben he wasn't happy at first then I went tell me mum . then I lost the pregnancy over three nights as it was bak hoilday and the world was watching Prince William and kate getting married on television. I was in bed, so unwell then I found out my mum was unwell to she started as rash and then she got diagnosed that very complicated name but it did damage to her kidneys and lost 25 per cent of kidney function and had to start treatment medication kind then round on chemotherapy. she was ill been sick and she wasn't allowed heart people that was ill . I was looking after my mum as she became ill .Ben got jealous said why am I spending time with my mum . I said she ill . I got out and slammed the car . I though f**k you it my mum she come first . and she did. I start to stay at my mums with here and she was become poorly. One day she was in bed not eat or drink and she wasn't with it and I knew it wasn't right. I called the doctor she said come out 5.30 .I told her she could not get out of bed . she said to ring the specialist up as my mum has his number to call at anytime she need him and I did. he said that either wait for the Dr or ring ambulance. I said I ring the ambulance and I had to tell who she was under so he could make my mum better . ambulance turned up, rushed her in, and then I told the Dr's all the information she then passed through so many hoops the specialists found her . and tooknher straight to the ward and told us there was a blood cloth and water on heart and leg .she was out of it for days as the medication worked .when she finally come to the specialist said your daughter save your life . I was shocked but glad she came too . she was in hospital for months and I got hold of her sister the oldest one auntie Shirley and her husband Dave .I message her told her everything and then she message ask what ward she was on then I told her ward 17 . next minute she turn up mum was shocked I said supervise mum . she was so happy her face light up like magic. they chat away and like they never been apart . and then my mum had her sister back in her life . she love it . auntie Shirley visit and it was nice to see them talk again. I was able to meet up with Ben and spend time with him . it got harder then it was May 9 2012 I stay over at mum flat and I got her ready and on the chair . she said kim need my inhale can't breath . she said like have tree round of Mike Dyson on her chest . I run around look for one and I hear Kim Help .I run back with inhaler put in my mum month and she stop breathing. I call 999 told them I was doing cpr on her and shouting and by brother came in helping cpr and I was outside shout need help please . then I took over and paramedics came in took over told us to leave