princess arlya

arlyas heart

"it is my baby isnt it" he whispered huskily in my ear.

"i..." i squirmed in his arms.

"i can sense my child" he whispers and pushes into my bedroom with me.

he kisses me like his life depends on being one with me, i push him away.

"you put me in hospital, you f****d her" i said tear sliding down my cheek.

"i am sorry, i did not mean to" he raked his hands through his hair.

"you took my innocence and then left, why" i whispered, hurt to even think of what he will say.

"i love you, i was so angry at myself, i thought it was you f*****g me."

i let out a dry laugh "how can you think some w***e is me, no sorry your baby mama was me" i whispered this next bit "technically i am now but you know"

"i was given something, she injected me with some weird potion, it makes you feel like your mate is there, when she grabbed me at breakfast i was trying not react, i did not expect you sitting there as pale and thin as you were, i hurt you, i did that to you, my dad forced me leave, i spent months thinking of a way, any way to come get my mate, i never once thought you were..." he trailed off.

"i felt you f**k her, i had bruises littering my f*****g body" i yelled him wincing.

"i was tempting do the same but i thought no, i am not you or that w***e" i started pacing when he grabed me and cradled me to his chest while i spent hours crying.

"i am sorry, so very sorry" he kept repeating, tears streaking down his own face.

i eventually managed to calm down and relax after a while.

"look i do not deserve you, at all, and i will spend every day begging you for forgiveness"

i sighed.

we spent time cuddling until i told him go to his room.

i shut the door and slid to the floor crying, i can not do this goddess, why do you hate me so much.

i went to the balcony and sat on my chair pulling my knees up and having a smoke.

i can smell a scent and immediately relax as i know it is kira.

she sat down beside me and robbed a cig and lit it.

"you okay" she asked clearly sensing my emotions.

"it is just so hard because i felt him with her, it is so hard acting in love with zaden"

i sighed before continuing.

"he comes back and before i can have a day to myself he says he knows it is his child, i can not believe i forgot that he can sense his child, i get married tomorrow how am i suppose to just stand there and pretend my heart does not belong to him"

i felt a tear slide down my face as kira put her arms around me and let me just cry all my emotions out, we spent time looking at the stars just sitting.

"happy birthday kira" i smiled and passed her, her present.

"arlya, you oh goddess, thankyou, you did not have to get anything" she laughed tears brimming her eyes threatening to topple over.

i hugged her and told her open it.

it was a golden locket, engraved with her name and mine on one side and our group name "arkira" on the other a combination of arlya and kira.

she hugged me again and begged me put it on.

we spent hours watching tv then went for a hunt after a very tiring hunt me and kira parted ways and i practically skipped upstairs freezing when i saw my beloved kissing carla.

my breathe caught in my throat, what happened between earlier and now, i tried to back away quietly when her giggle stopped me.

"princess, hello. i am so sorry. we are in front of your door" she giggled then moved from my door.

"go wait in our room" he smirked at her and then turned to me with a cold hard expression.