You runs in my Blood

Chapter 10: It is what it is

Felicity Pov

I reached home and opened the door, I saw one of our staffs coming downstairs as I looked up and that explained my fiancé was home, I don’t often need the servants, my mum thought me how not to be dependent. They only are here for when mum was tired and can’t make food for us or do other house chores perhaps when she was late from work. I told her one day to send them back since they literally do nothing and she said no that she’s helping them earn some money and pay some bill. She said she’s helping them not to depend on anybody to sort out their bills so she created the employment for them and if need be she would have created more before she died. She referred them as staffs and I like it because it sounded professional just as mum had planned so they are my staffs and not my maids or servants. I don’t need them for anything, my father and brother does need them for anything and now another person that used them like they were made for her was my fiancé. She called them literally for everything except to bath or rub cream on her body. I bet she would have asked them for that as well if allowed. So seeing my staff coming downstairs means my fiancé was home. “My fiancé home?” I asked to make a conversation, “yes ma’am, I just served her some wine…good evening” she said and I walked to my left to check my father in his office but his door was still locked so I made it upstairs to my private sitting room she wasn’t there, I went to my room and she was right on the single couch there with her phone, “Hey!” I said removing my shirt, “hey you too” she replied taking a sip of her glass of wine and I placed my shirt back to my closet. “How are you?” I asked approaching her, “good…never been bad…you?” she asked not looking my way. “Just need to run a shower down my body and calm my nerve” I adjusted myself beside her on the hand of the couch, “are you in trouble?” she asked finishing the almost wine. “No…did you…what time did you come home last night?” “I didn’t come here last night” she mulled still wasn’t looking my way and I fixed my eyes on her, “I figured you won’t be home last night and a friend invited me over for a party so I stayed over her placed and we partied all night” “Did you see my text message and calls this morning, ‘cause I kept calling?” I grimaced and she finished her wine “Sorry…I only did noticed the calls and messages when I got home. We kinda over slept after partying and getting drunk” she stated and I signed “Baby, what’s happening…why do you ignore me why do I feel like I’m losing you?” I complained stand to hold her knees as I squat in front of her. “Nothing is happening and you’re not losing me because I am the one losing you” she said quiet squiffy and I looked where I squatted, two bottles of wine are down already. Okay she’s a bit drunk “What do you mean you’re losing me…you’re not losing me” I shook her knees “I am not going anywhere…I’m here” I cupped her face and she pushed my hands down stood to walk to the bed, “it’s night time, I need to sleep…goodnight” she said walking passed me and I followed her, “Baby I’m here and you’re not losing me, you know that” I said joining her in bed. “How can you be here when you are not here…huh? You no longer lives here because you permanent resident now is at the hospital beside Blair” she said teary and I hated that she’s hurting by my action. “I’m sorry” I said trying to hold her since she was sitting down but she avoided my hands, “do you know how I’ve been feeling and you just shoot me out completely because of her” she said between sob, “so I figured instead of sitting down and mulling over you, I’d rather keep myself busy and not think about me being a loser” God where is all these coming from?, I thought “Babe, you’re not a loser me and whosever said that is the f*****g loser. I’m really sorry that my action got you this way and hurtful but I’m really and truly sorry, believe me” I apologized “you are not sorry…you’re not sorry because you’re going back to her, you’re going back to the hospital and do you know the worst? You did not just abandoned me…you also abandoned your education, your company, and yourself. Your making me believe that that girl is your life and certainly, that’s how it is, she lives you live she dies everything about you dies.” she said sounding hurt and worried and I hated how right she was yet I can't do all those when a life is lying on the hospital bed. Why I personally made that life my personal problem was one thing I don’t know. From the way Blanca put it, it seemed that I can’t move with myself until she move on with hers and all these things made it sound like she was my life and if you looked at it the way Blanca put it, that’s your problem. “I admitted that I abandoned my company but on some level, my education, yeah but you and I know that I was really not the type to sit and fool around books when…” I purse not knowing if I’m making sense, “I am sorry” I pleaded reaching for her hand and she howled, “why do I have to compete with a cripple?...why do I have to compete with her…huh?...why do you choose the disable…do I have to condense so low to beat her… why did you choose to disgrace me this way…God what did I ever do to you Felicity?” she threw a pillow at me as she sobbed. God I hated my life this day, I never knew I was capable of hurting the woman I loved. God I’m just so awful. I went to her and tried to hug her but she struggled against my hold, I watched her tears rolled down and I was hurt because she was hurting and I am the cause of it. I hugged her again and she let me in, “hey… I am sorry” I said as she sobbed on my shoulder and I was speechless being guilty of all the accusations she leveled on me, the more I tried to explain myself to her the more shiter I became. I just wanted to pull her over for a kiss hoping that my kiss will say the words I lack to say to her. I pulled her face so that I could look at her, “I leaned in and connected our libs, she was reluctant at first, I sucked her lower lib and she parted her libs and I thrusted my tongue in between her libs and deepened the kiss. The need for air came and I pulled away and she gasped for air, “I am really sorry, I never knew you were hurting by my action” I apologized again and she pulled me in for another kiss. I deepened it once more if my action could hurt her this much without my concept then let my passion for her tell her how much she still means to me and I hoped she gets the message I was trying to pass to her through my kisses. I traced kisses down her body and I kissed her neck and sucked deeply there and she released an intense moan, I moved down to her chest and breast. I squeezed the both clothed breasts which had already hardened waiting for me to plug them. I removed her pajamas, pulled off my cloth for more intimacy. I stood to remove my short and she removed what’s remaining of her and positioned herself for me. I landed my naked body on her and continued my ministration. With all the pain and hurt that I’ve caused her, I intended to washed them away right now, I’m f*****g the living out of her to show how much I loved her an needed her right now. She should understand now that being kind and nice to Blair is not the same thing as loving her my Blanca, my fiancé. I sucked he left breast so hard and give other pair the same attention. I love breast so much and yeah, I am a sucker. I went down to her navel, I managed to make sure that I left traces of my kisses all over her body but I still left my one hand on her pair of breast. I met her wet, played with the libs of her c**t and she was rocking her waist against me. I thrusted my finger inside her, moving slowly as I watched her grinding her hip against the bed. I picked up the pace and reached her g-spot and she jerked her hip up and down and then her breathing changed. She was moaning louder and harder and she screamed harder as she jerked up and c*m while my fingers were still inside her. I slowly pulled out my fingers and moved up and connected our libs then I moved down to my favorite spot and squeezed a pair of her breast. I didn’t give her time to collect herself as I thrusted my fingers inside her again and began riding her. When she began breathing hard again, I switched my fingers with my mouth. I sucked her as she c*m inside my mouth and I licked every of her juice and connected our libs again making her taste herself in my mouth. I pulled up and brought out a dildo she bought and strapped on, I picked her up bent her down in doggy style and thrusted my weapon inside her. I pushed back and front, f*****g her like I went for s*x training in the dog kingdom and she was just releasing orgasm like broken tank and by now she was just screaming my name with passion. She shifted her waist to put me off balance and I adjusted her, repositioned my gun inside her and picked up my pace, I shoot her like a hunter holding her waist, my own bullet was flowing like a river. I f****d her so hard that she lost her voice and I don’t know how much she c*m because our juices were flowing endlessly and I was losing my strength. My machine gun pulled out again and I put it back inside her, I pushed back and front counting my movement now, she c*m again and I pulled out and connected our libs and she deepened it before she collapse and I was as tired as her so I fell on top of her, rolled down beside her and smiled "Well, that was just it. It is what it is" I said to myself and then slept off too with my strap on.