I SAT NERVOUSLY IN THE passenger seat while playing with my fingers, thinking it might calm me down. My heart has been constantly beating faster than its normal speed since last night after what Marcus told me. I couldn’t stay still, and I even ended up sleeping only for a few hours because I kept overthinking.
I have been with his family quite a few times now. I am close to all of his siblings, and am in contact with his parents. But this will be the first time that I will be going on an actual trip and spending days with them alone. Just imagine their family day being suddenly joined by someone who is not even sure if there will be an actual future anyway—though there is a possibility of a future, but it is too early to say.
Throughout the entire morning, I was panicking as I packed my
