My Lost Wolf

Chapter 19: The Heart Want What It Wants

Odessa

I wasn't sure how I was going to feel today. Being mated with Holden had helped a little just not as much as I had hoped it would have. As I slowly sat up, I realized that the cramps in my abdomen were barely noticeable this morning. I vaguely remembered Holden bring me an herbal tea, it had had been a little bitter but sweet as well.

Feeling my forehead, I realized I didn't feel as flushed. My heats were coming to an end, and for that I was grateful. It was then I realized, I wasn't alone in the bed Holden was laying next to me. He looked so young and carefree when he was asleep. His five o'clock shadow was much more the a shadow and his raven hair was a tousled mess on his head. How long had I been in bed for? My heats had been rough on him to, especially with the two emergencies he had to go see to.

Suddenly, I placed a hand on my abdomen. It would be several weeks before we knew whether I was pregnant or not. Looking back at Holden, I gently brushed a few strands of hair from his face and smiled. All of a sudden, his hazel eyes were looking at us. There were flecks of gold in them as well, telling me Holden's wolf, Derek was there too.

"Good morning, beautiful, how are you feeling this morning?" They both asked me together, which made me smile.

"I'm much better this morning. My heats are almost over, there is barely any cramping this morning." I said to them answering their question.

I did my best not to blush as they reached out to feel my forehead. They sighed, before Derek pulled back and let Derek have complete control again.

"Both of us are glad you are feeling better today. You might be able to move around more today and work on a few things today." Holden said before kissing my forehead before moving to sit on his side of the bed.

I crawled across the bed till I was kneeling behind him. I then put my arms gently around his neck, and I felt him flinch a little.

"Holden, how long have my heats been?" I asked cautiously. Something was wrong, but I didn't know what it was.

"It's been about five days, I think." He answered me softly.

We had been locked in my closed Studio for a little over a week. It was just about time for us to move to the pack house. I didn't want to live there, but it was the way things were.

"I suppose I should start packing things up to move into the pack house." I said out loud not expecting him to say anything about.

"I'm going to take a quick shower and then we'll talk about the move to the pack house."Holden said before stand up abruptly and heading into my bathroom.

I sat on my bed in disbelief, before deciding to get up and go after him. Even though he had just turned on the water, with his Alpha hearing I knew he'd hear me.

"Holden, did I do something wrong. Is that why you flinched when I touched you earlier?" I questioned him

He turned to face me as I stepped under the water stream with him.

"You didn't do anything wrong, Odessa. I'm trying to keep myself under control you need rest to." Holden said as he stroked my left cheek.

I then realized his shaft was swollen in arousal? "Is that because of me?" I asked softly.

"Always, my Love. I didn't want you to have to sleep in bed all day. If you're feeling well enough to move we have some things to discuss." He explained.

Holden then leaned down to capture my lips with his as the water washed over our bodies. As our kiss deepened, my hands found his long thick member, and started to stroke it gently.

He moaned against my lips as I continued to move my hands on him. Holden hissed out a pleasurable moan as I moved my hands faster against his member. After a few minutes Holden braced himself against the shower wall as he reached the climax of his orgasm.

"Oh Goddess, who knew you were so talented with your hands." He said as he looked down at me with lust filled eyes.

"See, I was able to help you with out you tiring me out." I said as I began to wash his hair first and then washing the rest of him with a soapy loofah. The water from the shower head rinsed the soap away.

Before I knew it he was washing me up from head to toe. Our lips crashed into one another, as water continued to cascade over our bodies. I pulled out of the kiss to look up into Holden's eyes to find his hazel eyes staring down at me.

"What is it Odessa?" Holden asked in a curious tone.

"This is a first?" I managed to whisper.

"What is, taking a shower with someone or kissing someone in the shower?" Holden questioned.

"Both actually, I've never done any of this with anyone." I confessed to him.

"Can I let you in on a secret? All of this is a first for me too." He said as he captured my lips once more. Holden took me in his arms and turned me till my back was pressed against the tile wall of the shower.

The moment the water finally started to go cold. Holden turned the water off and swept me up into his arms. He had some how managed to dry himself off without letting go of me. Wrapping me in a towel, Holden preceded to carried me to the bed that was now our bed.

Holden skimmed nose and mouth down my chest making me shiver. He planted a kiss on top of each of my breast. I tensed in anticipation as I had thought he was going to move lower down my body. I was surprised when his lips moved back to mine. Holden then released my lips, as he slowly ran the tip of his tongue down my neck until he reached my mate mark. Suddenly, Holden was nipping and sucking on my mate mark I moaned as a strong orgasm over took my body. Leaving me udderly spent on top of the bed.

When my senses had at last started to come back to me. I realized that we were under the covers once more. Holden had me pulled me against his chest and had his nose buried in the crook of my neck.

"What was that about?"I asked him as as I rubbed my thumb over the top of his hand.

He kissed my neck and then my shoulder as he answered me. "I was just returning the favor. You gave me pleasure in the shower. It is only right that I give you the same in return. After all the heart wants what it wants."

I was just about to ask him about moving into the pack house, when my stomach growled loudly to remind us we hadn't eaten breakfast yet today." My cheeks flushed with embarrassment.

Holden chuckled gently.

'We'll talk about moving into the pack house as soon as I get some food into you. I hope you will like some of my ideas I have.'

'Sorry, I keep forgetting I can mink-link you now. With my wolf missing in action only my family has been able to mind link me.' I said in return.

'Sorry, I've already told you about only being able to mink-link my family.' Why was I so flustered this morning?

Holden just smiled at me.

"Don't worry about it, I think its cute. I'll make us some brunch, take your time getting dressed." Holden slipped out of bed and slid on his jean, before grabbing a blue v neck shirt and pulled it over his head. Before leaning over the bed to kiss my forehead.

Getting out of bed myself, I grabbed a red and green tie dyed shirt, and a red and white flannel shirt along with my favorite pair of stone washed blue jean. After throwing everything on, I grabbed a pair of socks on my way out the bedroom door.

I was half way down the stairs when I realized I smelled strawberries and creme crepes. Holden was really pulling out all the stops. When I entered the kitchen I expected to see Holden standing in front of the stove making crepes. I was surprised to find River Beckham, one of the MoonStone Packs female warriors standing there instead. Holden however, was watching her movements very intently as River poured more batter in the pan she was using.

Holden noticed me in the entrance to the kitchen.

"Oh Odessa, I asked River to come by and show me how to make crepes. Ethan told me strawberries and cream crepes are one of your favorites as well." Holden said as he explained River's reason for being in my kitchen.

I couldn't help but smile at how cute he was being. Ethan however only told him a half truth while I did like strawberry crepes. He had already fixed my favorite when he made waffles for me. I however, was going to tell him anything different since he had gone to all the trouble to ask River to come here and show him how to make them.

"That was very sweet of both of you. Thank you too River, for taking the time out of your morning to help out." I said to Holden and River with a smile.

River Beckham was one of our tallest female warriors at almost six feet tall. Her long dark chestnut hair was braid down her back. River's eyes were ice blue in color. She was stunning to look at and almost made me envious. She was still unmated. River was such a skilled warrior, I don't ever remember her ever getting hurt.

"It wasn't a problem Luna, as I was already here this morning." River replied as she bowed to me slightly and showed me her neck.

I was shocked to hear her words at first. Holden felt it as well when he came up beside me and put a gentle hand on the center of my back.

"River came to relieve, Beta Buffy last night so she could go home to Giles and get some rest. She is one of your potential body guards. We will discuss other potential guards as well." Holden said as if he was afraid that I wouldn't have a choice in the matter.

Once River had layered all of the crepes with fresh warm strawberry syrup with strawberries and whipped cream, on to plates for the two of us. She excused herself from the room. I smiled at Holden as we dug into our own crepes.

As I was eating I notice three stacks of files on the table. Each stack was a different color, tan, purple, and yellow. I looked at the stack of purple files and saw the packs crest, which was the Moon rising over a mountain stamped into the front of the file. The other stack of files didn't bare the packs crest.

"What do you have there?" I asked Holden indicating the stacks of files on the table.

Finishing up his plate just as I took my last two bites, he stood and took our plates to the sink. Before coming back to the table to sit. He picked up the tan files first and sat them in front of me.

"These are candidates that can help out your studio when you can't be here. They can open up and close at night and run the cashier, even do a little cleaning." Holden said as he picked up the top file and handed it to me.

I opened the file to see a young woman, who resembled Kayley looking back at me. She had dark hair like Holden and deep green eyes. I looked up at Holden for a moment.

"That is my cousin, Michelle Archer. She has a degree in art and is looking for work closer to the pack. She's not mated yet much to my father's disappointment. But if your willing she has offered to start here and look out for things." Holden explained as he watched me look down at the file. She had a very distinguished resume, Michelle had been to Rome to study as well as Paris where she actually worked at the Louvre Museum.

Setting Michelle's file down I looked at a few more, before Stopping at Brandy Heartwood. She was a level one Omega, with chocolate eyes and curly auburn colored hair. She was nineteen and was studying to be an art teacher. Some packs used levels to rank Omegas 1 being the highest and 3 being the lowest. I was proud to be a part of a pack that didn't rank our Omegas and treat them like dirt. I was well aware of what it could feel like to be treated like I was dirt. All because I didn't shift at sixteen with everyone else. There were a few higher ranked wolves that thought that I should be a level 3 Omega. My parents and Alpha Ripley wouldn't hear of it.

I jumped when a hand touched me.

'Odessa, are you ok? Where did you go just now?' Holden asked me through our mind-link.

'It's nothing. Let's get back to the work at hand.' I said to him trying to change the subject.

'Odessa.' he said a little firmer.

'I'll tell you about it later, I promise.' I tell him to reassure him

I close the file in my hand and pick the file about his cousin and hand the two to him.

"These two to look after things. But what about my photography, what am I going to do about that?"

"Well, we will make sure you are free from your Luna duties to let you do a few photo shoots during the week. When you can't that's what these are for." Holden said to me as he picked up the yellow files.

They were photographers, that were looking for work and extremely talented. I nodded as I flipped through a few of them.

"I have some time to make a decide on a photographer, right?" I questioned him.

"That's right. You can take your time, that way you know you have someone you like and trust to do the work you would." Holden agreed.

I motioned toward the the purple files.

"Female pack warriors." I said to him.

"Correct." He said gently.

"Do you have something against me having a male guard?" I asked him slowly.

"No, not at all. I just thought you would be more comfortable with the female warriors. But it you want to look through the male warriors as well, that's fine too." Holden said as he leaned over and pulled a stack of grey folders from his soft leather briefcase.

"Do you have a male warrior in mind?" I asked curiously.

"Yes, I did have a warrior in mind. Nate Baird, he's..." Holden started to say but I didn't let him finish.

"Autumn Bane's mate. I'm aware. Wren NorthStar is now my Beta and I can make Beta Buffy Cummings my second?"

" You can Love." Holden replied.

"Wren, will be due soon, I will need someone to fill in the second Beta position, while Buffy fills in for Wren. I was thinking Autumn would be prefect if she would be interested. River and Asia for my female body guards along with Nate." I said with confidence.

"We'll be staying here for a few more days. I want you to have a chance to redecorate our bedroom, your office and the living room too, if you want. My mother, has said you could redo the kitchen as well if you want." Holden said in a matter of fact tone.

I gave Holden a confused looked at the last part of his statement.

"Why would your mother say I could redecorate the kitchen? When it was her favorite room in the pack house."

"She isn't the Luna anymore, she has her own kitchen to redo. If you decide to redo the kitchen she wants whatever you decide you don't want in the kitchen." Holden said never looking away from me.

"Odessa, has no one told you what is going on with your mother?" Holden asked me.

"No, why what's going with my mother." I asked still confused.

"She's in the hospital, she's pregnant with twin boys. One of them has a weak heart." Holden said softly.

"Just like Ethan's twin." I found myself whispering.