Helpless

I laid my depressed body on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I've watched hundreds of movies and never in my life did I ever think I'd be like those people from the movies, wake up in the middle of the night stare at the ceiling. I thought they find answers but believe me they don't. I didn't. I sighed softly and wondered what I was going to do with my depressed life. I don't know when but somehow I fell asleep because when I woke up it was morning I sighed and made my bed rushed to the bathroom took a shower and got ready for work which was as boring as hell because "Nadine table six is still waiting can you for once do something quickly?" Mr Adams my boss shouted at me, just great, I faked a smile and rushed to attend table six and to my surprise it was Harry my cousin and Christine my best friend. This creatures really knew how to make me feel special I ran to them with a megawatt smile and hugged them "hey you ,guys what are you doing here? I'm so happy to see you why didn't you tell you were coming? have you been okay? I have not" I started sniffing "we thought you wouldn't shut up, what's with the 21 questions" Chris said and we all giggled sat down and started catching up. I heard all sorts of stories then it became my turn I had to start telling them about how my life has been I looked at them and smiled then I sighed heavily "Well yesterday the hospital called Felix's condition is getting worse I have to find money to do that surgery in two weeks or else I lose him wanna know how much is that damn surgery sixty thousand dollars" I laughed bitterly "wanna know how much I have in my bank account?" I paused "Nothing God is so perfect right" I again laughed bitterly trying to hold back the tears in my eyes and soothing the lump I felt in my throat but I failed miserably I burst into tears "I just can't handle it anymore I feel like I'm suffocating in the middle of the streets and no one can see me" I said sobbing