The Chosen Mate

CHAPTER 9 |

My head hurts. My arms and legs are numb. My breathing and some “bips” are the only sounds I can hear. Where am I? I open my eyes and realize I am in our medical center, in a patient’s bed.

I let out a raspy groan trying to sit up but I still don’t have enough energy to do anything than lying here.

Wait, what happened ? Why am I not in my room ? Why does everything hurts ? What time is it ?

I suck in a deep breath when I try to turn my head toward to clock and see that it’s ten in the morning and still the thirteenth of August, which means it’s still my birthday.

Well, happy horrible birthday Mavis. Wow, wouldn't think that I’d spend the first hours of adulthood in here, alone with my whole body in pain.

“Serena are you alright ?” I call softly.

“Mavis I’m fine, I’ve been keeping an eye on you. The doctor just got out, Dad is outside talking to him.”

“Okay, you can rest now, I’m not sleeping anytime soon.”

I feel her retreating and don’t ask her anything.

Still, what happened here ? I didn’t want to ask Serena, she sounded too tired, plus I don’t want to call for anyone for the moment.

I breathe slowly and let the memories flow back in my mind…

Oh my Goddess…

I understand now… I’m like this because I shifted last night.

People always told that it would hurt but wow, I didn’t think it would almost suck out the life of me to shift… But the real thing that almost killed me, was the rejection I faced.

Ugh, would you believe in my luck.

Of all the things that could happened, my mate was Cole.

The feeling is bittersweet. My happiness didn’t last long, so what am I now ?

A mediocre, plain and now mate-less shewolf.

The look in his eyes… Even when I was hurting to the point of dying, he didn’t flinch. He still didn’t want me… I loved him, but I cannot forget, I won’t forgive this pain and humiliation.

I wish my heart would just disappear, or that I could throw it in the lake.

Let it sink deep down with the other rocks and broken hearts left to die in there.

"I, Cole Matthew Walker, officially and immediatly, reject you Mavis."

It keeps resonating in my head, again and again.

Well, it only proved his love for Isabella. Now I know nobody will ever love me like that, my chance just passed.

How peculiar it is still. I thought him and Isabella were mates, that’s very strange… or maybe it’s all a mistake and the Moon Goddess has other plans for me ?

NO.

I don’t want to feel hope, towards him, towards any potential imaginary mate that could love or cherish or appreciate me. My family is enough for me, and their love will be enough to make my heart beat.

“Mavis, that’s very cruel of you. Why would you think like that …” Serena asked in a whimper.

“Because I can’t Serena ! I can’t !” My reply echoing in my head.

Again, tears running the side of my head …. I’m tired of crying.

“Mavis if we don’t have…” I cut the link, not letting her finish her sentence.

“Please Serena, not now… I can’t please…”

The tears don’t stop and I am now fully crying, very soundly. I turn around in pain, trying to cover my mouth. I don’t want anyone to enter, to see or even hear me like this. What a disappointment I would be…

I stay like this, for what it seems to be hours. I am exhausted and slowly try to fall back asleep, where no one can hurt me…