Playing With Destiny

Chapter Five

[Keliche Shizamme Sandoval's Point of View]

While we are on our way to my apartment, we have a conversation which made me more comfortable with him. I mean, we are getting to know each other and I think it’s good, I’m not a cold type person, I just, I just don’t want to smile again since I don’t want to be plastic to the people around me. I just wanted to be honest that this is me, this is what I am and I don’t want to change this.

“So, you love coffee, huh? Did you know that too much caffeine can kill you?” He asked while driving but I just shrugged, and looked at the window.

“I’m not stupid to kill myself because of my caffeine intake and I believe that when it’s your time, it’s your time so stop talking nonsense.” I told him but he just laughed at me since he’s that kind of guy, he laughs a lot and I think that it’s a sign that he’s okay. I’m not a psychology major to read his f*****g emotions and such, so just be it.

Few minutes later we arrived to my apartment, I looked at him who’s also looking at me intently so I rolled my eyes, he smiled.

“Thanks for the ride, walking dimple.” I thanked him, he smiled again causing his dimple to popped out of his handsome face.

“You really love my dimples, huh?” He asked, so being an honest human being, I nodded before going out of his car holding the flowers he gave me. He honked before driving away from my apartment, well, he made my day happy but not enough to make me smile.

When I opened the apartment, I looked around and guessed that Alana isn’t here, maybe she’s working overtime again, ah, she’s a hard working girl and I salute her for being the bread winner of her family.

I walked towards my room and placed the flowers on my flower vase since it’s too beautiful to throw in the trash bin. I also put rose petals in my photo album since it’s my first time to receive flowers from a man because my dad doesn’t want to allow me to have suitors so I didn’t enjoy my life at all.

I cooked an early dinner since Ms. Leticia didn’t text me that I’ll tutor her son today, maybe their busy or what but it’s been a while since I last saw that kid and I kind of miss him because he’s so talkative and jolly. I wish I was like that when I was a kid but too bad I wasn’t.

I cooked our rice in the rice cooker and cooked buttered chicken since there is a chicken breast in the refrigerator and there are the ingredients used to cook a buttered chicken, I know Alana would love this since she loves chicken so much.

Minutes later, I heard my phone beep so I checked the message because I thought that it was from Alana but I was wrong, it was from an unregistered number.

[Hey, how are you? It’s Walking Dimple.]

I shook my head when he proclaimed himself as the nickname I gave him. I checked the buttered chicken before replying to him.

[I’m fine, how about you?]

Seconds, minutes have passed and he doesn’t reply to me anymore so I guess that’s it. Maybe he’s busy with something so just be it. I just waited for the buttered chicken and prepared the table.

“Kels! I’m home, where are you?” Ugh, as usual my friend’s really has an irritating voice.

“I’m here at the kitchen!” I shouted before going back to what I’m doing, suddenly, a warm hug enclosed me and I looked at Alana who’s been hugging me for a few seconds now.

“You really love me, huh? You even cooked chicken for me.” She told me before pulling out from the hug, I just rolled my eyes and looked at her with disbelief.

“That’s the only stock left, don’t feel so special.” I answered before sitting in my chair and started eating my food in peace.

“Bla, bla, bla. You can’t deny it, you just love me, really.” She insisted before digging into the food I prepared to her. She’s right, I love making her smile since she’s the only one I treated as a real friend.

“What happened to you the whole day?” She asked me so I immediately shifted into my seat, I felt really hot. Maybe because I haven’t take a shower yet, yes maybe that’s the reason.

“It’s fine, just another day at work. I called you a while ago, right? Ranting about the unidentified human being? Gosh, he’s so harsh at me. I mean, who the heck would let a chemist graduate student clean the comfort room? Really? I didn’t even --.” I stopped talking when I saw Alana’s smile.

“What? Just go on, I love listening to you when you’re being talkative. Like some demon possess you or something.” She told me so I sighed before eating a spoonful of food savoring the food I made and I just shrugged making her to heave a heavy sigh.

“You’re slowly opening up now, Kels. Don’t let your fear overcome you again.” She told me, that’s my cue to stand up and left her at the kitchen. Call me rude, but I just don’t want someone saying me things that I don’t want to do, making me realize that I’m at fault because I’m tired being the Keliche who is always forcing herself to be someone else, to be on top always, I’m tired trying to be perfect to the eyes of other people to impress them, I’m tired being someone I’m not.

I just enter my room and took a shower because I felt really sticky. Before going inside my bathroom, I already prepared my undies and pajamas. While I’m taking a shower, I can’t stop my tears from flowing again, this is it. The memories are hunting me again, no, I don’t want to be like that anymore.

“Shiz, you can do this. You don’t need them anymore, you can make it without their help. Stop thinking about the people who abandoned you, Shiz you can do this.” I whispered to myself while looking at the mirror in front of me. While looking at my reflection, I want to pity myself for seeing my face so gloomy and devastated which is always my face before going to sleep at 3 in the morning. Thanks to the inventor of face powder and concealer for helping me to cover the sadness and ugliness of my face.

Once I finish taking a shower, I immediately get dressed with my pajamas and went to bed. I stared at the ceiling, this is me again, overthinking and can’t sleep. Never in my life I imagined cleaning the comfort room like some kind of janitress, because all my life they are all serving me, I’m the boss of me before they throw me away like a trash in the middle of the rain. This is me again, thinking how is their life without me, without their lovely daughter, I think they are happy without me since they stopped pestering me with those f*****g investigators that end up with broken bones because I always beat them up. I felt sorry for them and I don’t know why. I looked at my guitar, I used to be so happy while playing my guitar a long time ago but now, it’s getting old and they are even cob webs in it.

“I never thought that I would suffer this hard just because, --“I stopped because the tears are already pooling in my eyes and then my phone rang and saw that it’s walking dimple so I just ignored it until it stops.

But Khyzrr, being him he doesn’t stop until he gets what he wants so on the tenth time that my phone rang, I picked it up because he just can’t stop pestering me.

“What do you want?” I asked him and while waiting for his answer, I’m looking at the ceiling above me and the fact that he calls me tonight made me distracted, well, he pulled me out from my thoughts and he kind of help me.

“Well, how are you doing? I’ve been calling you for a while now but you just picked it up, what kind of friend are you, Ice?” He asked me so I just shrugged before answering him.

“You’re not my friend, dream on.” I told him sarcastically, I just heard him laugh because of what I said to him so I heaved a sigh.

“If you have nothing nice to say, just drop the call off.” I told him.

“N-no! Wait, are you okay? Your voice seemed so sad even if you tried enough to speak sarcastically, you can’t hide it from me.”

I was definitely shocked. How can he know that? Is he some kind of voodoo something or did he learn witchcraft and magic? What the hell am I thinking, well, J.K. Rowling this is your entire fault because you created a great book series.

“I’m not sad.”

“Yeah, deny it. What are you doing?” He asked me.

Lord, sorry for lying too much. I just needed to cover and hide myself from the people who wants to come into my life. I just don’t want to be in pain again, please, understand.

“I’m busy with something until you distracted me.” I told him even though I’m just staring at the ceiling like an i***t.

“Said it happened last night, about ten to eleven when I first laid my eyes on you…” He started singing while strumming a guitar, gosh, he has a great voice.

“Do you even know the meaning of what you’re singing for me?” I scoffed at him before I heard him laughing.

“I don’t care, but I just want to sing something for you.” He told me before he started singing again.

[Ehu Girl by Kalohe Kai from az lyrics.com]