Playing With Destiny

Chapter Twenty-five

[ Keliche Shizamme Sandoval's Point of View ]

I can’t believe what I just saw with my own eyes, I thought that my eyes are just playing with me but no, it’s destiny who I’m playing with. I saw my sister and my mother again, I can’t believe that she just treated me a while ago like I’m precious to her and I must comment that she’s a great pretender and actress. Precious daughter, my butt.

“I’m really sorry --.” I didn’t let him finish what he’s about to say because he isn’t at fault.

“Don’t apologize when it’s not your fault, Walking dimple.” I told him before sitting on his sofa like I own it. He just sat at the sofa in front of me too and smiled. I’m having a bad day and he’s still smiling at me like an i***t.

“Your sister, she looks like you. You’re both beautiful in your own way, can you smile for me too? I bought her an ice cream a while ago and she smiled for me maybe I should do that to you too?” He joked while chuckling, I rolled my eyes before throwing him the throw pillow I caught.

“Nice try but I won’t. I don’t eat ice cream, you know.” I answered before standing and searching for his gym to find the punching bag he’s talking about to lessen the anger deep inside me.

“Are you looking for my gym? This way.” He said so I nodded and followed him, we climb upstairs and I found myself standing in front of a wooden door with an ‘off limits’ signage. Maybe he loves his gym so much, I should wreck it.

When he opened the door, I can’t believe with what I’m seeing. It’s like I traveled in a real gym, it also had its mini boxing ring and there is a lot of gym equipment. He even dragged me towards the sets of punching bag,

“I have three sets, the 25 kg., 50 kg., and 100kg. You can choose what you want to punch. I won’t bother you, I’ll just get some snacks.” He said before he walked out of the room and left me in front of the ‘weird’ punching bags.

I tap the first one and it’s the lightest one so I punched it many times.

“I don’t need you anymore! I don’t want to see you anymore! Go away, go the f**k away from me, just leave me alone!” I shouted while punching endlessly.

My sweat started flowing from my body as well as my tears but I didn’t mind and I just continued what I’m doing.

“I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!” I shouted while thinking of their faces, I punch hard until my knuckles became numb. I stumble on the marble floor while covering my face with my hands.

Few moments later, I felt that someone’s caressing my back, he’s making me calm. I looked at him even though my tears are still flowing like a river. I don’t care.

“Mind telling me what’s inside your heart right now? You can talk to me, you know.” He asked me, maybe I just really need someone to talk to, so I inhale and exhale twice before nodding.

“Zhanelle, she’s my sister. She’s very lovely and everyone loves her because she’s so positive in life and she’s always smiling, unlike me... She’s just smiling yet they already love her while me? I need to read lots of books in able to be on top so that they will love me. I’m nothing to them if I’m not getting high grades. They are always scolding me when I got average scores, I felt helpless. Not until when I was in 7th grade, I saw how my sister faint while I’m celebrating my birthday… They told me that she has a leukemia and that she’s fighting, since then, even I got high scores, they aren’t giving me any attention. Zhanelle, Zhanelle, Zhanelle, though I felt a bit happy since they aren’t looking for my mistakes anymore so I thought that it’s alright if I end up being the second best… On my high school graduation, my parents aren’t happy, that’s the night we’re everybody’s celebrating inside our mansion and my parents threw me out, that’s, that’s the last time I saw them and with all the money I got, I went to Baguio and that’s what happened to my life.” I told him while I’m sobbing because I really can’t take it anymore. I don’t care if I just met him 8th days ago, I tried to cover my sadness but it always comes out, my body just function well when I’m with him, it’s like my body has its own brain when it comes to Khyzrr and I can’t do anything about it. I’ll just go with the flow.

“I felt like I’m looking at my own reflection.” He said before hugging me, not a normal hug but a very tight hug where I can feel that I’m safe and secured with him. What’s this kind of feeling? I really felt something weird.

A few minutes later, he let go of me and dragged me towards the door. He’s dragging me again like I’m a little kid depending on her mother. Seriously?

“This room’s what you need.” He said before opening the door slowly and my eyes widen when I saw the whole room. It’s like I’m sitting on the top of the universe and everything’s felt surreal. The whole room is painted with galaxies and a lot of stars are seen from my spot, there’s a lot of musical instrument too, from guitars, drums and many more.

“It’s not that yet.” He said before opening something and the stars started twinkling, I looked at him as he walked towards the guitar and smiled at me.

“I don’t know about this feeling but I knew that this day onwards, I want to be at your side and I’ll try my very best to make you smile and make you feel that you’re not lonely.” He said before he started strumming a very familiar tune. A very familiar…

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh, it could be so nice, growing old with you

I can’t stop staring at him while he’s playing the guitar like a pro, he really loves music as much as I do but I felt contented just by listening to him. I looked like him when I’m alone back on 7th grade when my mom and dad left me alone in the mansion and they are all at the hospital. I love creating and composing songs that I’ll never make anyone hear about it. It’s just between me and my guitar.

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let you hold the remote control

He finished strumming the guitar but he didn’t stop singing instead he walked towards me and showed his hand so I looked at him with confusion.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink

Oh, I could be the man who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you

“May I have this dance?” He asked but before I can even answer properly, I found myself nodding like an i***t. My body’s not me, it’s like someone’s manipulating my body so I just saw my hands encircled around his neck and his hands encircled around my waist.

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let you hold the remote control

He looks like a prince charming but I’m no princess and I’m obviously not a damsel in distress. His world will never be my world too because we’re a bit far from each other, he’s already on top while me? I became on top a long time ago and right now, I’m already at the bottom.

“You look like a queen.” He said while chuckling, he’s not singing anymore, we may be look like an i***t while dancing with no music but I didn’t mind. I just glared at him while we’re dancing, he just laughed while making me do a turn so I obliged.

“I’m far from being a queen.” I answered before I sat on the wooden chair because I’m already tired with all the dancing and such, he smiled at me before he walked slowly and it came to me that everything felt really familiar like we’re on a movie scene or something.

[ Grow Old With You – Adam Sandler from azlyrics.com]