10:05pm Something in my brain always changes the moment I do the first line of the night, because I join the guys in the middle and we play five of our favorite Italian rap songs back to back - until Aurora eventually gets annoyed and takes over. Ariana is clingier than usual and it annoys me to the point where I’m trying to telepathically summon Vinnie - or anyone really. My gaze unsurprisingly goes around the room with the hopes of finding Valentina. They always do, but Aleksi is with her again. They’re in a corner, his back to me in a way that is nearly covering her entirely, but I can still see her face. I can’t focus on what Ariana’s saying. I try to look like I care, but my attention is focused solely on the two of them. She’s watching at me with those doe eyes she sometimes do

