MY SECRET CONFESSION

New Home

(Few days later)

****After admission got done in College***

It's morning.For the first time in my life, we four are spending time together in week days and it is going to last for 2 more days.

My father left his job with dropping a resignation letter and come back to us forever while my mother has started running her own beauty salon.She started working outside as well, with some product selling business.My father took leisure because his health wasn't good enough by that time and side by I was the other reason. As I am going to leave for Chandannagar( a city in West Bengal,first french colony in 1673,India ),for my higher study and my mother was busy with her working domain so someone is need to present at home to  take care of anny as she is still very younger to take care of herself. 

I  love & really very thankful to  both of them as, they were sacrificing  for me so that I can live my dream.Suddenly mom asked me "Babi(nick name) have you done with listing all the essentials that you need there?"

 "Not yet mamma.I am just packing my bag now. You also come and help me out.." -I said with a pleading tone.

She became furious and replied " you kno..w.. I am busy with packing your foods,so ask your father to help you out and finish your list fast. We are going for shopping in the evening."

"Wow..shopping..."-looking happily into mamma's eyes I said,"  I love you mamma. you are great.See papa, you told me you will give me a new pencil box...and I want a new bed cover ,one bag,few new dresses and...." 

papa cut me off,raising his eyes and said "Are you still a kid? you are going for college and you want a pencil box ! I mean why? who carries even pencil box in college!! and why you need new bag and  dresses?  how far I can remember you already have those still best in condition!"

"Papa..aaa, see..e a new place, new journey right..so everything I need completely new...it's my dream after all. You can't back off now okay.see mamma what papa is saying....And pencil box is mandatory okay...now you come here, first help me out with finishing my packing" I uttered.

In the evening we went for the market.We took all the essentials as per my list and we took our dinner from  one of very famous restaurant at our place and then we returned back to home.

**After two days**

Papa was carrying all my luggage and I took my gannu ji with me(Lord Ganesha, One of the form of hindu idol) and seated inside our car along with mamma.Yes although we belong from a ordinary middle class family but we had a car(taken in loan).I was so happy I am going for a new place with them & it's been long we didn't even went for any vacation  or  small trip to anywhere,so this journey seems like a kind of trip for me.

Papa drove us personally and I settled down in my new pg room with five sharing which was chosen by one of my uncle & I wasn't even any slightest idea about it. I came to know after reaching there.Its felt actually ridiculous to think for me to live in a single room with four more completely unknown girls  whereas I had always been used to live in my personal room but with left no other choice for me I have to manage for now and it's okay  to accept  as this is also going to part of a new experience to me.

Papa raised his voice towards me,"Babi .." then I came out of my thoughts finally it was time for their leaving, mamma was crying while we stepped towards down stair .I felt so bad by that time but with heavy heart of tears I see them off . Both of them sounded little off, spoke slowly keeping their hands on my head"take good care of yourself. Have food on time. Be safe".

and I burst into tears after loosing my control over my emotions and wished them "you both  too" and they left.

Now its all me and my new world with no common friend instead some new faces.After my parent's disappearance, I realized  noticing for the first time, all my roommates are staring at me constantly with full of exclamation gesture. At first I thought "Is anything wrong with me or them! why they are looking at me this way..its not comfortable to be stared like this" but I wasn't ready to ask them about it, as this is one of my problem that  I can't mix with people around me at first place. it takes time for me to start a conversation. But if the attempt is taken from the other side then I really appreciate it and feel very comfortable to talk nonstop until the opposite person get tired off my words, as I am very talkative in general. Here at last they took the initiative and asked me, about my whereabouts?

My name is  Amrita, I said to them.In the middle of our conversation, we heard a sound of ringing bell it seems like a door bell and all ran towards kitchen with a plate in their hand. I was seating on my bed and watching their movement. One of my roommate named Anu asked me "you are not coming? hurry up otherwise only traces of food will be left?" 

I was sitting with no worries and when I opened my mouth to speak, she cut me off and said,"Well I got it from your facial expression. Enjoy your last day of  homemade food". 

She was right. I was't feeling hungry by that time although I took my plate in one hand, carrying my container in other hand and seat with them . When I opened my box they were gazing  into it.So, I put some portion of food into their plates rest I ate.They all gave me  joyful smile and thankful expression seemed like they were craving for this food so long. After dinner I went on the rooftop (my all time favorite place) to have a night walk actually to spend some alone time(part of my habits).Then I called mamma to confirm they have been reached yet or not. After talking I came back to our room, took my dairy out of my bag and wrote my today's experience.(another regular habit).

"Tomorrow is going to be a remarkable start of my journey hoping so and overall I am very excited to experience this...." while I was about to close my dairy got stuck by signature section ( I have a section in my dairy where I have collection of signatures given by my close ones, my favorite teachers and those whom I admire as my inspiration) . Seeing those signatures, I imposed upon the pages, smiled then closed it and I went straight to my bed.

Tomorrow is really going to a big day for Amrita and first entry of a male friend in her life.