Destruction & Creation (D&C)

As much as I hate him, he was right.War did unite us in the end. f**k man! Are these even nightmares anymore? It's 8 am in the morning and I cant even close my eyes. I still hear them, the  sound of gunshots piercing the flesh of children, the screaming women being r***d, being used and tossed away like trash still makes me sick, What does a man have to do to get some sleep? These pills are as useless as I am.  Sometimes I miss the peaceful times when I did not have to see the weaker man being used as a f*****g shooting range, when we could all just get drunk and pass out in fat benny’s bar. I know we could be better if we could just get a chance to start over. Well who am I kidding with all the things I have seen I doubt I can sleep for more than an hour anyway. Maybe if I died instead of her, she probably would have found at least one gate by now ,sighs. Well, the only thing I can do now is drink and stand in this office. Well, it's hardly an office anymore with all the damage this building has taken. I am honestly surprised that it is still standing, the oldest defence building, the only one left standing. Well, I guess it's just trying to live up to its name. You and I are not so different, I guess. Still, it sucks just standing here like some king while my team is out there trying their best to ….. Captain ! Captain ! Captain ! Shouts Jim as he knocks on the door. I rush to the door. Unlocking the door, Jim falls through while clenching his blood-soaked abdomen , his hyperventilating, sweat dripping from his forehead. Jim what happened? Where is the rest of my damn team? Where is Jane ? They took us by surprise. cap, “says Jim as he coughs out blood” we tried to stop them, they were just too many of them, “coughs” . Jim, stop talking, you're injured. One medical pod is still operational. Let me take you there! Wait, they took Jane cap , they took her because she found a gate. I gently place Jim in one of the resuscitation pods.I am setting this to hibernate and heal. It may be some hours before you regain consciousness , Jim nodes as I close the pod. Do not worry Jim, I will find Jane and bring her home. f**k, how did they know we would be there?, yet another reason to put a bullet between his eyes. No, I won't lose this time. We won't lose this time. [call incoming] answer "Click" Martha : Captain, I just received an alert that a Pod has been activated. Is it one of your drunk experiments again? Captain : Its Jim Martha. He's injured. Martha: What about the rest of the team? Captain : Was wiped out. Martha : The entire team? Captain: They took Jane Martha : Of course she survived . Captain : Gather everyone , this is the chance we have been waiting for , destruction is almost upon us. We have never been this close to finding creation!! Martha : She found a gate? Captain: Yes , send the signal Martha: understood. Ends call… Good thing I am sober today. Man, still can't believe dad smiled in this photo. We were happy though. But I won’t lose this time mom, dad , I will find creation. Watch over me one last time. I will save what's left of us and if I fail, at least I will finally be with you and everyone else up there.