THE ROLE PLAY WORLD

ROLE PLAY WORLD ?? Akie? RPW or Role Play World. A world where all are lies. Role Play World is our escape from reality. You can fake your name, your address, your lifestyle and etc. You can make averyone believe you since you are just typing what you are saying. No one will know if you are saying the truth or not. You can even fake your personality. And the worst thing about in RPW is The Worst Place to Fall In Love.  Well for me this is the world where i can express my random feelings, Emotions and my thoughts. The world where you can find real friends and a family that will show you real love... But that was before.  RPW become my home when I feel rejected in my own house-- In the reality. I have fun here, talking with strangers who see my worth and cried a bucket of tears while holding my phone.   I met a man who make me feel like a queen, he fixed my broken pieces that I hide in reality, he fill the love that I craved because my parents can't give it to me.  Everyday, he ask me how's my day going, If I eat already and drink my water regularly.  Every night passes by I fall in love with how he handle me, how he took good care of me in the middle of the night-- When the arena of my evil and thoughts open. He become my knight and I become his strength, he fight with all my what ifs, and feed me a sugar coated lies.  Phone was never my addiction, since i started chatting with him.  Late night talks were not my kinda things, since i started chatting with him. Checking you if you're online was never my habit, since i started chatting with him. I'm not the same person anymore, since i met him. Yes, I believe him, I fall deeply in love with him even though people around me keep on telling me that falling in love in this world is a suicide, and he will be my death.  But somehow he send me a poem that can lighten me up and can broke my "what if's" thoughts.  Him: Dark clouds have blocked the starry night Covering anything that gives light The stars and moon are out of sight Nothing could be seen but darkness' light Rain comes upon this silent eve Blurry days are here, the sky will grieve Hide your comforts, the season will thieve Prepare for the worst, I tell you, believe Storm! Hold up, 'tis just the beginning The winds only get angrier, raging Drizzles of water turns to flood overflowing Until what's left are tears that's crying But listen, to all alive. Alive means hope Look. See for yourself under a microscope Up above, warm lights will soon envelope Just keep tight on the life line rope Dark clouds break apart, rays will shine At the horizon, a rainbow gives a sign All chaos will be silenced, it will be fine Mayhem and peace are simply life's design @Drius I love him so much and I couldn't live a day without him. He changed me, from a trouble maker to his caring lover. He's my life, And I don't wanna forget him... And as I remember the happy memories we had together, I remembered the first day we chatted. And while remembering those days it made me love him more.  Dec. 25 2017 is my birthday and he promised to me that we'll celebrate my birthday together. So, I'm really excited to see him and I'm also excited to know what he wanted to tell me. And guess what this is our first meet up.  I know that there's no such thing as forever in this world but there's a lifetime and in this case, he is my lifetime. He asked me to meet him at the park. And for tonight that's the place where I will tell him that now there's no doubt that I love him. ***  I can already see him from here as I'm getting closer, I felt uneasy,but I just didn't mind it. Now he's infront of me. . . "Driuss. . ." I said to call his attention, He, then faced me and said, "I'm sorry, Xishe, but can you please let go?" he asked with a voice full of sadness and regrets. And here I am, confused. "What do you mean?" I asked, I looked at his eyes and I can see sadness through it, before he answer he heaved a sigh "I meant was. . .can we. . .break up?" He is asking like he's just asking for a simple thing. That made my heart broke. "w-why? " it's me still on shocked while looking in his eyes.  " I cheated on you. I d-don't love u anymore.. " he said and can't even look back into my eyes.  The moment he said he didn't loved me anymore is the moment I walk out.  I give my all to him and forgot that I breath to live in the reality of torment and chaos. I forgot to love my self because I promise that, when I fall in love I will give my best.  My phone become my bestfriend, my charger become my lover.  Yet, he cheated on me.I cried my self in bed without his words of assurance that he won't leave.  I cried, he sleep. I'm sad and broken, his inlove. I wonder if he really love me.  Maybe he love the idea that he own a loyal and faithful woman who give everything to him... Months and days passed by. I'm slowly dying. I thought I can still save myself but...  No... It broke me even more, the memories we once shared flashes back. I--cried myself a bucket of tears again, I lost myself in the reality because I fall in love in the depth of RPW.  Slowly drowning, dying and it's terrifying.  And in this situation I realized that  no one will stay except the love of God... Whether we live in Reality or in fake world, remember that nothing is permanent... Eternity does... what ever happens put your faith into Him, everything will be ok.... Remember also that rpw isn't that literally true, they say it is a fake world. Yes it is. But forgetting about the reality isn't that good... In living, we could put reality and at the same time rpw... We can combine them and face those challenges... And Everything will be okay.