Tainted Love

Chapter 5

Samuel

"Thank you Amara for helping me out," I said when we got in the car even though I didn't need any help and I was perfectly fine.

"No issues, I am looking forward for tonight, it'll be a good change to have some fun and relax," she said with a smile on her face.

She don't know, I'd do anything for that perfect smile of hers. It's just magical to see her smile and so much innocence, one can tell she has a kind heart just by having one look.

I know she has been working and exhausting herself for the past few weeks. She comes early before anyone else and then leaves after every one else leaves. I just sit and watch her from my cabin. She can't see me back but I can see her in the cabin whenever her door's open and it mostly is open at all times. I just can't help but get hard just looking at her working, the crease that forms in between her forehead when she is focused and concentrated and on something new and the ways she bites her plump lower lip when she is nervous. I remember this one time when she wore a backless dress to office and I couldn't concentrate on work and everything I'd look at her wanting to touch her, claw her and feel her beneath me.

I know I sound like a pervert thinking like that for a staff but you can't help when it's Amara.

"Yeah, you deserve a break, I'd make sure you have one." I said keeping my hand on her exposed thigh and squeezing it like a reassurance.

"If you need or want anything you can tell me," I said in a sensual and seductive tone I hope she realises what I am intending to say. I can give her a good time and she'd be praising me by the time I'm done with her.

"Uhh.. sure" she said looking at me and than looking outside the car feeling uncomfortable.

I don't know how to take this further, but I do want to express my feelings to her. I want to date her and probably have a relationship with her. I want to love her and I want to feel her.

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Amara

The ride to the party was silent more or less with awkward conversations in between. It so happened that Samuel wanted to talk and I didn't. I don't want to come off as rude or something after all he is my boss. I wanted and tried to have a normal conversation with him but I just couldn't. I have moved on from the past to the world but somewhere deep down the hurt, the pain is still there and it still clenches my heart and breaks it whenever I think about it.

I smiled back at Samuel so that it doesn't get that awkward, I know he is trying to make me comfortable and I am failing at it. Samuel received a call and he was busy discussing something, I wasn't paying much attention but then something he said caught my attention.

"No Liam, you will come to know of when you finally meet her," he said.

"Liam" just the word Liam raised goose bumps on my skin, it prickled me and have the same effect on me which I used to have when I was with him. But it wasn't the tingling and beautiful sensation it used to give, it's hatred and hurt and anger which makes me mad whenever I hear his name.

I have forgiven him, but could not forget what had happened in the past with him if that makes sense. It's still vivid and clear.

I have barred myself from taking his name, the person who destroyed everything for me and made me the way I am. I hate him and wish to never see him again.

I wanted to ask him which Liam is he talking about but I refrained because it would be really odd if I start asking about his personal calls. And there are high chances that he is not talking to Liam Scott. And if he is, then I don't know what I'd do, run away again or hide away or start someplace new. I just wish to never come across him again.

"That was nephew Liam calling, he is 4 years old and always find unusual times to call me," he said smiling at the young boys antics.

"He thinks I am busy because I have a girlfriend and that's what I was explaining if I had one than he'll definitely know about it," he said further explaining.

"Kids can be really smart, what if you had one?" I questioned him continuing the kids antics.

"No.. I don't have one. I am pretty much single and if you'd like we can definitely date," he said shyly and later regretting over the last part after seeing my shocked reaction. I wasn't expecting that.

I coughed at the last part, letting it slide with it. I don't what I think about dating back. I don't know what I think about Samuel. He sure is a good guy, but I'm not sure if I can trust good guys. Nathan was a good guy, I thought Liam to be a good person but what good it do to me.

Nothing... It did nothing good and brought only hurt, so I am not sure about anything. The environment in the car seemed tense and I was happy that we finally reached our destination.

It was a club, a private function held reserved for friends and close family members. Everything around seemed mesmerising and beautiful. All of it seemed elite and classy, where all the rich people were gathered. The dance  space was gigantic with lots of people swinging in and out of it. I was watching everything around as it was very different compared to the parties I've been, it's much more sophisticated and kind of elegant. I loved the atmosphere around, soft music playing in the background with dimmed  lighting, at places colourful and fairy lighting. It all was decorated with orchids and some other beautiful flowers.

"You want a drink or something, if you are tired," asked Samuel.

"Yeah sure," I said and we went to the bar counter.

"What would you like to have, I don't know what you'd prefer" he asked with a sheepish smile.

"Vodka would be fine," I said and he asked the bartender for same and went onto ask wine for himself.

We had a few drinks while sitting having small talks, trying to make idle conversations. I am surprised at how much I know about him in just the past two hours, which I didn't knew when I was working for him for the past two years.

"Let's meet her and then I'd like to have a dance with you.. only if you are comfortable," he said making me smile.

"Yeah, sure I would love that. It's been long since I've danced," I said getting comfortable after having a few drinks.

We went to meet her ex girlfriend and her fiance. He hugged her and she hugged him back. They seem friendly and long moved on.

"It's good to see you happy," Samuel said.

"Yeah I am," she said pointing towards her fiance.

"It's good to see you here Samuel, it means a lot. You seem happy too," she said looking at me.

I don't know much but I've heard it in the office that they both were very much in love, I wonder what happened back then. It's happy to see people move on and live their life as before. You can tell by the look on her face that she is happy, the twinkle in her eyes and the glow on her face is the proof.

Samuel then made our introductions and she seemed to already know me. She hugged me like a friend and smiled back hugging her. With that we left her and returned back.

We went to have a few more drinks and then joined the dance floor. I decided to change for a bit and have some fun, enjoy the night. I was a bit tipsy, due to all the drinks that I had but still was a bit sober.

Samuel held me by my waist and pulled me closer to him, we were moving slowly to the tune of the music, hand in hand, moving to the tunes of the song. He was very close to me, staring me with the same unknown emotions while I stared back. The drinks making me bold and my mind not seeming to catch up to it.

He moved his face closer to mine only inches apart, I could feel his warm breath on my lips and ever so lightly he dipped in and pressed his lips to mine. He stayed for a second longer and pulled back staring me back for further permission.

I closed my eyes and the person I saw brought shivers down my spine, I don't know from where but Liam's face appeared before me and I opened my eyes in shock. Sweat forming on my forehead, while my skin prickled.

I know I shouldn't have thought about him, but I know I couldn't take it further with Samuel. I made an excuse and left for the rest room. I needed to think clearly and the drinks doing otherwise.

I was about to enter the rest room when some one pulled my arm with force and pushed me to the private room beside it and closed the door behind it. It was dark inside but I knew who it was, how could I ever forget the touch...

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