Love always here

Went back to that day I was an active child with very affectionate parents who doted on me. I was named Charlotte because my mother came from a city called Charlotte, and I have a sister named Chloe. I was always happy and didn't know what frustration and sadness were until that summer vacation. I was sixteen years old and had an opportunity to New York City ,a prosperous city. My father had gone to New York to attend a conference and to take our family on a tour of the city. When I arrived in New York, the towering city buildings and bustling streets were an eye-opening experience for me. On the last day of my father's conference, the organizers held a dinner party. That night, my sister had a fever, so my mother stayed behind to take care of her, and my father took me with him. It was my first time to attend such an event, which made me feel nervous, So I left the venue and stood on the balcony to watch the night view of New York. I went back the way I came, but I didn't see my father. When I sent a message asking where he was, my father said he was meeting an important guest in room 3106 on the third floor. So I took the elevator to the third floor. Along the corridor, I am looking for 3106, after I walked past a few rooms, I saw 3106, I gently knocked on the door of the room, and found that the door was not locked . I open the door and walked in. I was greeted by a large living room with simple furnishings. But under the shadow of the dim light, it looked ancient. There is no one inside, just when I want to turn around and leave. I heard the sound of a door slamming shut. A handsome young man in a black dress, his eyes half-open and his hand rubbing his head, was walking towards me step by step. I smell a strong odor of alcohol. Realizing the danger, I walked quickly to the door when he jerked my arm. Without force, I stumbled and my whole body fell on the white carpet. And he, in turn, pressed his entire body against mine. For what happened after that, I don't remember very clearly, vaguely remember the whole process, I just keep struggling and screaming. With the passage of time, the struggle gradually stopped, but has been constantly screaming, will all the panic, sadness, anger are cathartic in the screams. And I could hear was a single name ringing in my ears, mixed with drunkenness, "Eleanor,.... Eleanor." When the door was opened again, my entire body curled up against the wall. Looking up, I saw my father rushing in, followed by several people . I crouched in my father's arms with a tear-stained face, unable to read the expression on his face, and opened my mouth, but my throat was hoarse and I could no longer make a sound.... Then what happened later, I do not remember very clearly. I only remember that my father sent the wrong room number and kept saying sorry, sorry! It seems that I came home and hid in my room all day, didn't talk much and didn't eat much. Whenever my mother saw me, she had red eyes. School started already and I didn't go to class. My father got drunk every day, anesthetizing himself with alcohol, until one day he fell to the floor drunk and cried loudly, and I burst into tears, but after I cried, I started school. I stepped into the familiar campus, met my long-lost classmates and teachers, and began to resume my old life. Just as the sadness was fading from my mother's face, things took a drastic turn. On a cold winter afternoon three months after I started school regularly, the sky was cloudy and it was drizzling. We were indoors in gym class, and as I ran step by step after the students in front of me, I suddenly lost consciousness and fainted. When I woke up, I was already in the hospital. A while later, my parents came back. My mother walked in front of me with red eyes, she must have just cried. My father followed behind. Mother sat on the edge of my bed, not saying a word. "What's wrong?" I asked, sitting up. "No, nothing." Mother didn't even finish her sentence before she started wiping her tears. My father looked at my mother and said, "Don't look like that, okay?" After that, we went through a long conversation, in fact, the whole conversation could be summarized in just a few sentences. The general idea was that I was already five months pregnant, my body was weak.The only way now was to give birth to him. So I began to sit in my room all day again, not talking much or eating much. The house was also surprisingly quiet, except for the occasional sound of my parents arguing. And then there was my poor sister, who would come running to my room every day after class to do her homework, keeping watch over me. Late one night after I was eight months pregnant, I suddenly had a terrible cramping pain in my abdomen. Upon arriving at the hospital, I realized that there was a lot of bright red blood coming out of the cervix. I clutched my mother's hand tightly and screamed repeatedly under my breath, "Mommy, Mommy..." . I was taken to the operating room, and after that I had no recollection. When I woke up again, it was a bright afternoon. I wasn't quite sure how long I'd been out, in fact, I had no concept of the passage of time since the moment I heard about the pregnancy. "You're awake?" My mother asked in surprise as she pushed her way in, holding a bouquet of flowers, and watched my eyes open. "Uh-huh." I turned my head and looked out the window at the blue sky. My father had also rushed to the hospital after receiving a call from my mother. They told me the baby was not born, because it was difficult to deliver. I was lucky to get my life back. I forget if I shed any tears or how I spent that time in the hospital. In fact, I lost a large part of my memory of that time and I don't know why. Later on, I looked up a medical book and realized that I was probably suffering from selective amnesia, in which an individual, when subjected to external stimuli or when he or she has suffered a great deal of psychological damage, selectively remembers some of the events of a certain period of time and forgets certain ones. After 2 months,, our family moved to the seaside city where we live now and started a brand new life.