Rogue In The Kingdom

4. Confusion

When I woke up it was dark and I felt my head was not resting on the side near the window where I fell asleep.

No my head was rested on what felt to be a warm boney shoulder.

At the realization I jolted up right. Much to my horror I see the warrior staring straight ahead as if ignoring me, I then chance a look at The Alpha.

Sure enough he is staring straight at me with a look of amusement at my starteld state.

"Sorry I don't normally sleep." The words poured out of me. What the hell is wrong with me? The Alpha frowned but said nothing.

I scooted closer to my side and looked out the window.

We are on an interstate now and the driver took the next exit.

We stopped at a fuel station and I fully intended to use the bathroom and get food.

When I made it to the counter to cash out the Alpha stepped in front of me putting his own food and drinks on the counter.

"These too." he is so close to me his voice... so deep and silky.

I had to admit im not sure im processing finding my mate well.

He hasnt even introduced himself. Hell I havent even told him my name yet.

Realizing he is trying to buy my food, I quickly pulled out my wallet threw a onehundred dollar bill on the counter. I pushed the Alpha aside and grabbed my things off the counter.

I didnt look back as i walked out to the car. I passed the others as they headed in.

I assumed the King is hot on my heels behind me because they knoded and averted their eyes, scurring away.

When I got to the car the Alpha held an arm out in front of me stopping me from opening the door.

I looked around and realized it was just him and I. I still didnt look up at him.

"I want you to ride upfront with me." Now I looked up at him questioning. He opened the passenger door and jestured me inside.

I obliged and he got in the driverside. I saw the preivious driver and the Warrior get into the other veihicals.

Again his scent engulfed me suddeny and I was happy I wasn't facing him as I felt my face heat up. I sat frozen as the air got thicker and I felt... was that... arousal? Indeed it was. No one had ever given me this feeling before. I wanted to be smaller. My Wolf started whining in my head. She wanted to flop on her back and go belly up for him.

"Look at me." his voice is thick and I felt my painties soak on their own accord. I shrank into the seat further. Trying to ignore him. Then maybe he would go away.

"I said look at me." this time the air got immpossibly thicker. For the first time ever I had to do what I was told. It was a form of submission and though there were Alphas I respected enough to choose to submit to them, never has anyone been able to force it.

When I looked at him, his eyes were my favorite shade of green. So bright and vibrent. He is huge and i could tell he could snap my neck in a fluid motion if he wanted. By the look in his eyes he wanted to do anything but that.

Lust burned in the back of his eyes.

I finally realize what is happening.

"Please stop." i manage to rasp out and cringed at the sound of my own voice. I have seen mates find eachother. I knew the pull could make everything else disappear.

He seemed to snap out of it a bit and closed his eyes taking a deep breath. The air let up some so i could breath.

"Im sorry. I got us alone because I want to talk to you." Instead of looking back at me he started the car and dove us back to the interstate in silence.

"Don't you have questtions?" He asked breaking the silence.

"You are the Alpha King. You live a life of luxury and make 'big decisions' for this region." Well I hadn't meant to extract the gorgeous laugh that rumbled from him causing a chill to creep up my spine.

"Alot more to that story sweetie, but I get where you are coming from." The air lightened up even more.

"Of course I have questions but they are more for me to scream at the moongoddess later." I rolled my eyes looking back out the windaw.

"And what exactly would that be?" He questioned.

I couldnt come up with a goodenough reason not to tell him.

"Something along the lines of, 'Why would you do this?' and 'Why do you hate me so much?'" I turned back to see his knuckles tighten on the steering wheel. He didnt look angry at me anymore though.

"Well you think this is bad you should know you are lucky I already know how to control the mate pull." He was right. Most mates mett and didnt last all but an hour before raveging eachother of course stronger wolves are better at it and can last longer but still, for him too hold back the suffoccating bond that much. Then i realized something ,

"How do you know how to control it?" i almost didnt want to ask.

"I am part of a poly mateship. There are five of us right now with you six."

My Wolf quickly lept at the thought of him mating with another. I am able to reel her in though. I didn't say anything. Hell I couldn't think if anything to say! Let alone feel.

"I know its alot to take in. That's one of the reasons I wanted to be alone with you." he added.

A poly mateship? Between six people? How the hell does that work?" my voice hitched up in a way that would say... 'this girl is getting all worked up over a small thing'... this isn't small though. It could mean I didn't need to be Luna Queen. My wolf is not as happy about it as I am.

"Well you are my primary. Rose is my secondary. Aiden, Josh, and Amber are also a part of our mateship. I know it's alot but we will help show you. We hardly worry about who is truly mated to who. They tend to gravitate towards the primary mate though." he didn't answer the question I wanted him to.

"What about Luna Queen position?" I saw his jaw tighten as an inner war began.

"Well Rose declined the position and so the next most qualified person is Josh. Amber is a Delta so that wouldn't work either. Aiden is already my Beta." again even after being directly asked he avoided answering.

I took a breath about to decline the position as well, but when I went to speak the words wouldn't come out, stuck in my throat. I dont know what came over me but I blamed the Goddess watching over me. Something else made its way out though.

"You're right to contemplate it so hard. I'm far from being the perfect Luna. Just do us a favor and wait to choose. There is so much I couldn't simply explain to you for many reasons." no way I could tell him everything even down to my rank. He needs to see it though. To see what I am capable of. Maybe he will reject me instead.

"Its nothing personal Katerina. You are a rogue and though I don't like keeping an image, I'm just not sure making a rougue Luna Queen is setting the best example." he said this as though stating facts. He said it in a way that was meant to lessen the blow. He knew of me and my reputation he didn't want to cause me discomfort, lest I buckle and cry about the 'missed opportunity'.

I laugh. The kind of laugh I use when I find something sickly amusing. Most found it uncomfortable how large my smile would get, my kanines showing, my eyes filled with sick amusement. I do this in response to something outlandish most would cringe, cry, or would make them feel lesser about themselves. I held my grin and propped my leg up on the dash putting an elbow to my knee facing The Alpha King. I didn't hunch nore hide. I didn't fuss around to try and make this more comfortable. I took the stabbing pain and used it to my advantage, driving the knife deeper into my gut to pull him closer and deliver a blow.

"Oh I'd be a sight for soar eyes, but it's not just because I'm a rogue. It's true what they say, I couldn't care less about who gets in my way. For example if I wanted to take the Luna Queen position I could. I'd probably be the only one on the throne but I would do it." There was more to it, but I'm not one to give out information so easy. I just broke up barrier to uncomfortable conversation.

He laughed but I'm dead serious.

"Over my dead body." he said as he laughed.

I shrugged my shoulders, leaning back in the seat keeping my leg propped and put my elbow on the door looking out my window now.

"Well I did say I'd have the thrown to myself if I wanted. Its nothing personal, Xaivier. I just want you to know if I wanted it I'd already have it." I'm not sure why I basically said I want the throne but I'd roll with it for now.