Chapter 11
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It was the next day. I called off work, I told Jenelle what happened with Jesse. She was worried about him to.
I had to know if he was doing better. When I got to the hospital then he had went home already. So, I rushed off to the Tanner's house. I had to know if he was doing okay.
I get there and I feel nervous. Should I have brought flowers? I notice Becky's car was parked outside. Of course. I groan. Should I leave? He did not need me around if she was around.
My heart sinks. I did not care of she was here. I had to know how he was. Then I would leave. He had Becky. He did not need me. Tears water in my eyes.
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"I am so stupid" I complain to myself. "what are you doing Skyler?" I mutter.
Someone knocks on the car window. I roll the window down when I see Michelle there.
"Hi" she waves at me. She smiles.
"Hi kiddo. Can I see uncle J?" I ask her.
She nods. "He just got home" she says. "we are all glad he is back"
"Me to" I agree.
She opens my car door to get me out. I had a get-well card for Jess. I lock my car and follow Michelle in the house.
Nervousness floods in me. I could do this. Say hi and head on out. No need for me to be in the way of Becky and Jesse. The greatest love ever. Tears wanted to fall. I push them aside. Joey and Danny were sitting on the couch when I come in. Steph and DJ were in there to.
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"Hi there Skyler" greets Joey.
"Hi guys" I say. "can I see Jess?"
"He is upstairs with Becky" Danny tells me. "he just got home"
"Oh, maybe I should come back another time then" I stammer.
"Stay" pleads DJ. "uncle Jesse was saying he hoped that you would stop by"
"Alright" I softly say.
"Jesse we are really done this time. I am taking a job out in Chicago, and I came to get my stuff back from you. Good luck in life" I hear Becky saying.
"Becky come on!" argues Jesse.
I see them at the top of the stairs.
"I don't understand you Jesse! We never were good for each other! Let me go! Let us go!" she demands. "It is over" she orders. She had a bag of her stuff in her hands.
"Becky, I did not mean to. I was upset over us" Jesse pleads. "I was selfish"
"I know you were. You always are only thinking of yourself Jesse" she points out.
"You know what you are the one only thinking of you!" he declares. "all the time. What you want. Dating others. Seeing where this lead or doesn't. Putting my life on hold all the time for you and your job opportunities. Fine it is over with. No coming back this time. No changing your mind either. I am done with you Becky" he snaps. "I have had it with you and your many rules"
Becky fumes as Jesse lays down the law. I was proud of him.
"Fine!" she snaps at him. "Have a nice life. Goodbye kids. Danny and Joey"
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Becky storms out of there. Jesse comes down the stairs. She heads out. Slamming the door behind her.
"Ouch!" Joey says softly. He winced.
"I am so sorry Jess" I tell him.
"I am glad you are here Skyler" Jesse greets me. I hand him a get-well card.
"You are?" I ask.
He nods. "I am glad you were there for me last night. Thank you. I did a lot of thinking of what you said. It is over with Becky and I" I hear him say.
"Good for you" I tell him.
He nods then smiles. "Thanks. One more thing. I think I should put dating on hold. That means for us to. I need to focus on me" he tells me. "I hope you will understand that"
My heart sinks. That was not what I was hoping to hear him say at all.
"Sure, I understand. I get it" I lie. I hand him the card. "Good luck to you"
"Skyler!" he softly says. "I am sorry"
"No worries" I lie.
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I head out of there. No more. I could not keep doing this. He was never going to want me. Or pick me. I was not the girl for him. It was time to give him up for good. Tears come to me. What was I going to do now? I get home and I have a good cry. I grab my phone and make a call.
"Hi Skyler" I hear Mark answer.
"I could really use a friend right now" I tell him.
Mark was a dependable decent guy. Just what I really needed right now.
"I will be right over" he tells me.
We hang up. Maybe Jenelle was right. Jesse and I were not a good fit. How was I going to make my heart to stop loving him? Maybe I could teach my heart to love Mark.
Mark was a good guy. Any girl would love to be with him. Just he was not Jesse. Soon Mark was there. He knocks on the door. I let him in. He had Maggie with him. They had baked me cookies.
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"What is wrong? Sorry I had Maggie tonight" he says as we sit on the couch enjoying milk and cookies.
"Jesse tried to od" I softly say. "then he decided not to date at all. I am hurt. I have always been there for him. It is time to cut him out of my life. I loved the Tanners" I say.
"I am sorry. It always hurts when the one you love does not love you back. Did you really love Jesse or love his family?" asks Mark.
I blink. I never thought about that. "I love them both. I never had a big family. They were all good to me" I sigh. "they became a part of my life fast"
"I sure am sorry. But I am glad you are giving me a real chance to be there for you" Mark tells me. "I am glad you called me tonight"
"Me to" I say as I smile back at him. He hugs me. I return his hug.
I close my eyes thinking of Jesse. His smile and his warmth when he hugged me this way. I wince as I pull back from Mark. Would I ever get over Jesse? Fully over him once and for all? Would my heart be willing to let him go?
"How are the cookies?" Maggie asks me.
They were no bakes. They were yummy.
"These are fantastic" I tell her. She beams a happy smile.
"Dad think the honeybees will give me the cooking badge?" she asks him.
"I am sure they will dear" he says.
"No bakes are the bomb" I giggle.
I take another cookie.
"Can I ask you something?" Mark wonders.
"Sure" I say.
"Can I ask you for another date sometime?" he wants to know.
We smile at one another.
"You know what sure? I would love that" I agree.
"Can I come to?" Maggie begs. "you guys are fun"
We laugh.
"Sweetie sometimes adults like to have a fun night alone" Mark explains.
"Oh" she says.
"Maybe another time we all can do something fun like bowling?" I ask.
"Oh, I love to bowl" says Maggie.
"Me to" Mark says. "I even have my own ball"
We make plans together. I feel a little better. Though deep down my heart was still missing Jesse. Wishing he loved me in return. Knowing he let me go. He did not want me.
My heart was broken.
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