CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN JULIE H texted me wishing that I am there with him. I have been staring at his message on I don’t know how long. When they left, I thought I was ready if he ever claimed me. But not yet. Maybe I was just carried away by my emotions, That I am carried away by lust so I was sure that time. But now, that I was getting closer and closer to Eric I realized that I didn’t know the answer for myself. I messed up. My heart shattered. My mind is twisted. I have to consider all the things I sacrificed for me to be able to reached this phase of my life. I have to make sure that I am always doing the right thing. I know you think I'm messy, I'm having a hard time choosing, greedy, Flirty, Traitorous, Worthless friend. Trust me, I judged myself every day before I was judge

