You, Me & Everything in Between

The different type of Kiss

CHAPTER SIX

JULIE

Assuming Eric's visit would be perfect, I didn't expect what was to come. Since I picked him up at the Train station, He did nothing to me but shower me with his Love. So, I thought, Maybe our distance with each other is perfect for both of us. You see, Eric is OC. He wants everything perfect and in order. I didn't know it when we were just starting out. But in time, I saw for myself that sometimes he was so over controlling, even me.

Then every time we go out to eat some fancy dinner, He was the one who will choose what I will wear, What shoes to match, What to do with my hair and make up.

At first, I find it cute.

That my boyfriend is hands on when it comes to me, But as we last longer he becomes even more strict. To the point that sometimes, I didn’t want what I am doing. And I just do that, To please him. But I love him, With the amount of things he felt and gave me in our relationship, This is a trait of his that is not a reason for me to leave him.

“Love …” He holds out my hands and squeezed it. I looked at him to see that I knew he had something to say.

“Hmmm..” I asked him while sipping the cup of my coffee.

He sighed. “I know it’s too much to ask ..” he continued hesitating.

“Too much to ask what?” I pressed.

He looks at me in my eyes and the smile is gone. “I want you to stay away from Joel.” Speaking of too much to asked. If you know too much why would you ask me to do it. Right? That is noth what it is supposed to be this way. Joel is like a brother to me. Just how much I love Eric, I love Joel too. And he was a big part of me.

My smile falters, And I looked down I don’t know what to say to my boyfriend. And at the same time I feel bad for him because he put me in this position. That I must be stuck between him and my bestfriend.

“Hey, Love. I’m sorry, It’s just that…”

“Your mom?” I looked at him not even faking a smile just one bit because I can’t. Nothing in our situation today is amusing. This is between him and his mom. “This is because your Mom told you that I am with Joel like I didn’t have a boyfriend, Right?”

He looked down and took a deep breathe.

“Yeah. Mom thinks only of you. You know, she doesn’t want other people to tell you anything.“ This time he can’t look at me, because I know he knows that’s not the real reason why his Mom does that. His Mom doesn’t like me. From the beginning. Because Who else in a rich family would accept a girl like me, a daughter of a Prisoner and an alcoholic? His Mom never a day made me feel that way. She made sure that I felt it deep inside of my bones of my being. If only I didn’t love Eric. I can’t tolerate what his parents do to me. But I love him, He’s the only thing in my life that somehow makes me feel that my Life matters. Him and Joel.

But I needed to end this, This is just the day Eric and I met for so many months now. And I don’t want to ruin it just because of his Mom.

“Love … Before we dated before, I had Joel. He is my bestfriend since I can’t remember when. And you are right, What you are asking me is too much.” I plead him with my eyes. “Whatever Joel and I have is nothing but a true friendship, And I know he feels the same way about me, So you don’t have to worry about.”

He looks at me as if disappointed. I know he expects that I will say yes to his request right away, But this is Joel we are talking about. And I won’t do that to Joel, Even if it risks my relationship with Eric. I hate this situation that I have to choose between the two of them But if needed, I will always choose my Bestfriend.

“You see, Julie ..” He scoffed and scratched his forehead. “..how will my parents like you if you are like that?” That’s it. It also came out of his mouth that he was doing it just for his parents to like me. And I don’t f*****g need his parents. I just f*****g need him. Just him.

I smiled sadly. And sighed. “Let’s talk about this later, okay?” I cupped his face and he calms down with my touch, I saw in his eyes that he was also guilty. “… we just met today after so long so we can discuss this earlier. Okay?” I pleads.

He nods and he holds my hands and kissed it. “I love you..” he smiled.

“Love you too.” Maybe the day is still perfect if we choose to make it perfect. I needed to make this perfect for him.

After we ate, we headed straight to the Welsch Vacation house in Washington. Eric insisted on his parents to let me stay here when he first found out that I was going to college at WSU, but when I saw his parents who were not pleased with Eric’s request, I myself refused. And I saw just how relieved they are.

The house was a simple classic and very Mrs. Welsch all white style Elegant and Classy, The fact that she is not here but I can feel her presence anywhere is something. I feel like I can’t breathe and there’s a heavy lump in my chest. Good thing, I refused this house. Because I didn’t feel like I was home when I entered the door.

Eric gave me a tour and refused to let go of my hands as he walks me all over the house. He was so excited for me to see where he spent his summer since he was just a little kid. And I can’t do anything just to admire my Man talking about it.

When we reach the bedroom where we will stay during his visit here in Washington, He confronted me with him, Held my waist and arranged my hair and tucked it in my ears, All I can see from his eyes is Peace and Love. He smiled at me “Someday, When we finish our studies, There is no going home anymore ..”

I love it when Eric talks about our future. It makes me feel that there is a good future waiting for me with him, I feel that everything is planned in my future with him, And nothing else will go wrong when I am with him. I just have to live everyday for him and he will take care of me.

He kissed me. This kiss is nothing compared to the kiss that H and I did during the midnight tradition. But as soon as I compare H kiss with Eric’s kiss makes me still. Why? There is Nothing to compare? H’s kisses is Rough, messy and consuming, Eric’s kisses is sweet and neat. Yeah, Neat. Really?

I kissed him more, Just like how I kissed H that night. And he seems to be taken aback, But for me I want to find something in me during these kisses. I’m looking for what I felt that Night in my kiss with H. I’m sure I’ll feel the same with Eric, But I stopped.

Eric smirk, I can see that he was turned on. “That was great, Love.”

I tucked my hair and smiled at him awkwardly and continued to fix his clothes on his luggage. “Yeah?”

He hugs me by my back and kissed me on the back of my head. Guilt course inside of me, Because I didn’t feel it in him.