CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
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Four days have passed when Julie was in the hospital but I could do nothing but look at her hospital window from outside. For four days I have nothing else going on my mind but to be with her, but I am dying to see her in so much pain because of me.
I am having a child with someone too good for me, Like Janina.
I should be happy, because after all I have made a right decision in choosing someone to be as good as Janina as a mother to my child.
But I am not.
The fact is, I'm not ready yet because I'm too broken to handle my own life, what else can I add a little life to mine again.
How can I promise him a good or a best life if I am living in my worst?
How can I love his mother if I am in love with someone else?
The word scared is underrated, I am terrified.
