You, Me & Everything in Between

A long night

CHAPTER SEVEN

H

After I saw that Julie’s mood seemed to break while talking to her boyfriend, I wanted to ask immediately why. In real life, I don’t care about women’s feelings or even what’s running through their minds. But when it comes to Julie, I wanted to open up her head to see what she was thinking, I wanted to rip her chest to feel what she was feeling.

When I first saw her at the TKE party, Believe me, I was just being nice to her. She has this beauty that you know she is the only one with that kind of beauty. Don’t get me wrong, I know more women are beautiful than her, Cause what Julie’s has is simple, It’s her presence that makes her even more. I was drawn to her, In any aspect, I know in myself that I am into this Girl, But it’s too early to tell if I’m serious or not, But one thing I know for sure is that I like her.

Mom clears her throat, I even forgot that she was sitting right in front of me.

I pretend to be busy eating, Because she may notice the way I stare at Julie. But I failed because she asked right immediately.

“Do you know her?”

I just nods and shrugs for her to drop whatever topic or question she intends to do.

“Your Girlfriend?”

I look at her annoyed, And she swallowed as if regretting that she ask that question. “Mom, if she’s my girlfriend do you think I’ll just sit down here while I can see her from afar eating and holding other man’s hands?” I asked her sarcastically. Her question is absurd.

She smiled awkwardly. “Sorry, Son. It’s that .. this is the first time I saw you being interested in someone.” I suddenly felt guilty, I didn’t mean to snapped at Mom. But seeing Julie just a mere feet away from me and not even noticing my presence is annoying. But when it comes to her, Even though I haven’t seen her yet, I know right away if she’s in the same vicinity as me. What the hell is she doling to me?

“Sorry, Mom. I didn’t mean to snap at you.” She smiles warmly and holds my hand.

“It is fine, We should go.” I nods. And when were about to leave the restaurant, I look at her one last time, She was now smiling like what happened earlier didn’t happen.

It has been six hours since Mom left and I never had better things to do, But being stuck here again at the fraternity house, Partying.

Sometimes, what happens to me over and over every day is boring. But I thought it’s better this way. Noisy, Chaotic, Crowded. I know I am not alone. But when I was alone, I couldn’t help but when the cycle of my world started to reverse. All my problems come back to my mind. This is better. I wasn’t raised this way by my so called parents. I am happy boy, Smart and dreaming big. But right now, I no longer know myself. Partying and Women kept me occupied, And it is better this way.

But tonight, Even though the mess and the noise is around me, I feel alone. My thought kept circling around that certain someone whose name is Julie Stacey.

I was sitting alone on the couch, I knew it was chaotic and noisy around me but I could feel and hear nothing.

I am consumed by my thoughts.

“H, is there a problem? How many bottles do you have?” Peter gestured to my feet for me to see that the bottle of beer I had drunk had accumulated. I can’t count how many bottles there are but I don’t feel drunk. What the f**k?

Peter’s face looks worried. “Did you talk to your Mom?” he asked. Of all those who know me, only Zach and Peter know the true course of my life.

I nods and took a swig. “Yeah.”

“How was it?” he still looks worried. I know he thinks that my drunkenness now has something to do with my meeting with Mom earlier, But the truth is, Nothing. And I would never tell him that this is because of the woman I saw earlier being happy and that I wanted her to be mine, But I can’t.

“Fine.” I crinkle my nose.

He nods. “You better stop drinking and take a rest, If you don't want to have a headache tomorrow. "

I stood up, I had a wonderful idea to stop this misery, But when I stood up, my eyes were spinning. And I can't even stand up straight. Peter immediately supported me. "What the f**k, H."

I laughed. “I have to be somewhere.”

“Where can you possibly go in that state of yours, Dude.” He asked annoyed. I don’t care, He knows me better than this.

I salute to him and continue walking.

“I’ll be back.”

I find myself standing outside the door of Julie’s dorm.

I was surprised that I was able to drive here, but it’s okay because it’s just a 15 minute drive from our Fraternity house to here.

I was still thinking about what I would say to her after I knocked. Should I kiss her? I think I should just f*****g kissed the life out of her.

I knocked. No one answered. I am contemplating if I should just go up to her room window and tap from there for her to open.

I knocked once again, And someone opened the door.

It was Janina.

Fuck, I forgot that my so called Girlfriend is also living here.

She looks surprised and she was just wearing a panties and a tank top.

She smiled right after she saw me.

“Baby? What are you doing here? It’s late. “ She asked still smiling. Oh, f**k. She thought maybe I went to her, But it’s better to lie in her face.

“I came to see you.” I told her. And gesture to her. Her smile widens and hugs me.

“Oh, H you are so romantic.”

I took the chance to see if Julie was in the dorm, But she wasn't. Jess, open her room door. "Who is that?" She asked.

Janina looked at her, “Oh, Sorry. Did we wake you up? H just visited me just to see me at this time, Isn’t he sweet?” Janina told her so proudly. That makes me want to vomit all the alcohol I consumed tonight.

I can see a scoffed on Jess’ face when Janina told her that, She knows?

“yeah.” She nods. “…he’s kind of sweet, Wait, Julie should see this." I saw a hint of torment in Jess' face and she knocks on Julie's room. Thank god, She's here. She wasn't with her boyfriend overnight. I was just over thinking about the fact. And she was just here, Sleeping safe and sound. A relief floods through me, When Janina said something to Jess.

“Oh, Jess. Julie isn’t there tonight.” She said, Jess look at Janina slowly still wearing that smug smile on her face, What the f**k? I snapped my head in Janina’s.

“Where is she?” Jess and I asked in unison. But Jess tone is like a calm one, Mine is like a f*****g worried boyfriend. f**k. Janina Looked at me confused.

Jess put her arms around her chest, Enjoying the s**t show.

“”Sorry, I didn’t realize my voice got louder, I am a bit drunk.” I told Janina sweetly, f**k this. She smiled and hold my cheeks. “Why did you even come here.” She said.

“Anyway, Julie isn’t there. She’s with her boyfriend for the weekend, just here in Washington.” She said.

“Oh? The medical student?” jess asked.

Janina nods. “Yes. Let them. Julie deserved this weekend alone with him.” She said and I could do nothing but listen while Jess making face mocking me with the information, Janina’s feeding us.

“Why is that?” Jess asked again.

“It has been what?” Janina count on her fingers, Thinking .. “… It’s been three months since they last met. You know, They might be catching up.” Janina told us in puzzle. But I know what she meant. Jess looked satisfied at my reaction and she put her arms on her chest, Nodding and smiling like an evil. f**k this s**t. She can’t be kissing him like she f*****g kissed me. f**k you, Julie for making me like this.

“I better go.” I told them.

Janina pouts. “But you just arrived, You should stay.” She holds my arms seductively. If I hadn’t met Julie a few weeks ago, I would f**k Janina right here, right now. But I am not turned on her, Even whose woman since she came.

I kissed her forehead and left. “I’ll make it up to you.”

This is going to be a f*****g long night. Adrenaline and rage floods my bloodstream.