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I was devastated. I don’t know what I feel anymore except the heaviness of my heart and the feeling of being suffocated in my own breath and body. My body does not function well anymore and all I can do is tiringly lay down in my bed all day without any means of leaving it. Even resting is not enough anymore.
Hearing what happened to Lola… I wasn’t sure how I should take it. All I can remember is when Mom told me about it, I cried so hard that I even fell down on the floor. I don’t know what is happening around me anymore because all I have in mind is Lola and what exactly happened that made her gone.
The touches, supposed to be warm hugs from Mom and Gen during that time, were not enough to comfort me anymore. Rather, it feels like there is a thick coat covering my body that prevent
