In love with my Stepson

Chapter Four

Sweetheart!!! I could feel a light tap on my shoulder as I opened my eyes to see my husband hovering over me, he kissed me on my forehead and sat beside me on the bed. The boys and I are going to play golf. Would you like to join us? He asked. I wasn’t comfortable with the sudden change in his attitude since yesterday even though I ought to be happy and I decided to steal the opportunity to ask.

Lucas, yes dear he answered looking at his phone. Why are you suddenly acting nice to me? I asked with a worried look on my face. Oh, Valerie, what's with the look, as your husband, am I not supposed to act nice to you he responded with a smile that didn’t look sincere to me. Cut the pretense Lucas I said trying not to shout, you know damn well what I’m talking about and you only started putting up this show when your sons were about to arrive so tell me the truth because I deserve to know that.

He grabbed my wrist roughly, his nails digging into my skin as he moved closer to me and whispered to my ears, you don’t know your place you b***h. I’ve been trying to make you happy based on the Doctors order and I wanted you to enjoy our time together since my boys are around but I see you don’t deserve it, you worthless piece of s**t. Now listen to me, I’ll do anything I want and at the time I want it because this is my house and you’re mine, he said finally releasing his grip on me and walking out of the room angrily slamming the door shut behind him.

I sat on the bed and let the tears I’d been holding fall freely as I looked down at my red wrist. If only I hadn’t listened to my parents, if only I hadn’t put up with the good daughter attitude I wouldn’t be in this mess. I should have run away when I had the chance, I shouldn’t have attended the wedding, and I should have killed him on the night he raped me, I cried bitterly as I scold myself for the foolish decisions I'd made.

I switched on the TV and tuned into the news. I lay down and let the voices of the reporter become background noise to prevent me from overthinking as I cried myself to sleep.

I woke up to the sound of the car entering the compound and I realized that It was past noon already. I’ve slept for a long time, if only I could sleep away all my worries I said as I climbed out of bed and walked to the bathroom to have a cold shower. The cold water splattering on my body felt so refreshing that I didn’t want to leave the shower and I just stood still and allowed the water to run over me.

After my shower, I sat on the couch in the room thinking of the previous night and how to face Tate. I decided to dress sexily to meet them downstairs and prepare for dinner to know if Tate still had feelings for me and to provoke Lucas for how he treated me earlier. I’m still pissed with Lucas for what he did and I made up my mind not to speak to him till he realizes his mistake and apologizes to me

After ransacking through my closet, I finally settled for a black sleeveless low-back dinner gown with silver accessories and I applied a little makeup that blended with my skin color and wore black matching heels to give me an exquisite look. After I was done dressing, I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled at the image looking back at me. You are beautiful Valerie I said loudly to myself and left the room ready to carry out my plan.

Walking down the stairs, I could feel my straight hair flying behind me. Welcome, dear, hello Josh, Brian, and Chris I greeted with a smile as I walked up to them in the sitting room and sat opposite Lucas. Lucas stared at me in disbelief and asked what’s the occasion dear trying to sound loving and calm. Celebrating the arrival of my stepsons I said happy I was making him feel uncomfortable. When the food was ready, the chef called out to us and we all stood up and proceeded to the dining table.

All through dinner I prevented having eye contact with my husband and didn’t speak with him while I was chatting casually with Josh and Brian. After my meal,l bid the guys goodnight and retired to my room. Lucas came into my room shortly after and sat on the bed while I changed into my nightie. What was the meaning of that Valerie, he asked. Meaning of what I replied. I could see anger in his eyes but I pretended not to see it and sat in front of the mirror backing him to remove my makeup.

He stood up and placed his hands on my shoulder but I shrugged it away and he asked in a very low voice did I do something to offend you? Wow! Of course, the almighty Lucas doesn’t know what he did wrong. You treat me like trash and speak to me as if I amount to nothing. I sniffled as I tried to prevent the tears that were beginning to build up in my eyes from falling and here you are asking me that silly question.

Lucas, ever since the day you married me I’ve never been happy and you never did anything about it. Instead, you only make things worse by reminding me of how I was a sacrificial lamb for my family. I said, the tears finally rolling off my eyes.

Valerie, he called out in a whisper and I could feel the pain in his voice. I’m sorry he said as he turned my chair to face him.

You raped me Lucas I said hitting him on his chest I’m so sorry Valerie I don’t know what came over me that night. Please leave, I said, getting up from my chair. Don’t do this Valerie he said. Leave! I repeated this time in a louder voice okay, he replied. He walked to the door and turned to face me just before shutting the door pain visible in his eyes. I'm sorry Valerie, I really am.