Tainted Heart

   17 years ago. "You're nothing but a disgrace to this family! Look at you Mateo you're f*****g pathetic! You can't do anything right you're just a f*****g f**k up!" He spits in my face. My body trembles, those words cuts me like knives. I blink multiple times, my eyes fill up with tears, they fall down my cheek, but I quickly wipe them away. Crying showed that you were a weak b***h. It wasn't manly to cry. He chuckles at the sight of me. I'm nothing but a failure in my father's eyes just because I'm different from my brothers. Violence isn't my thing I'm only 14 years old. I shouldn't have to learn how to hurt people at this age. I should be a teenager s**t, not being a monster. Not like him. A burning feeling creeps onto my arm. I snap out of my thoughts and realize he's burning me with his lit cigar. Over and over again I feel the hot sensation going deep into my skin, hurting more and more. I hiss and pull away my arm and hold onto it. "Shut up! Shut up! You little piece of s**t! You deserve everything I do to you! You will never be anything but a failure in life! You aren't my son! You're nothing to me." He yells then spits on me once again. The next second I feel sharp knuckles going across my face, knocking me onto the ground. He grabs me by my collar dragging me across the room to the basement door. I try to hold onto anything as I'm getting pulled by the legs. But my hands keep slipping, I'm f*****g scared for my life. My father is insane in the head. Dad's right I'm nothing but a failure. I give up and let him drag me. The door opens and next thing I know is that I'm tumbling down the stairs. As I fall down the stairs I don't pay attention ofthe pain. I can only think about how evil he has to be, to do something like this to your own child. When I hit the hard cold floor, I see him blurry but clearly standing at the top of the stairs looking down on me with a wicked smile on his face. I get one last look at the bastard and close my eyes losing my strength to stay awake. Present time I tap my fingers across the desk top looking at Enzo. He gulps and looks down to the floor. He wipes his forehead. Sweat continues to fall down his face. He's such a p***y ass boy. I pound my fist on the table and stand up, he jumps to the noise. Slowly I make my way in his direction and he slowly backs away from me keeping his distance. Enzo knows better. "This is your third time disobeying my orders Enzo. I mean I don't get it...do you think you run s**t around here? I mean because last time I f*****g checked, I'm the top dog around here. I tell you what to do and you follow those directions. If you have a f*****g problem with it fucka' you can get the f**k out of here and never show your face around here ever again. Do you f*****g understand me?" I ask him calmly. He nods his head then quickly respond,"Yes I understand Mateo." I chuckle and grab him by his neck unexpectedly slamming up to the wall, I chock him with all the raging anger inside me. Enzo gasps for air but he not once he tries to fight back. He know his f*****g limits. I reach for my pocket knife and fling it open. His eyes follows the knife, he flinches as I put it up to his neck and hold it there deep into his neck. The look on his face showed me he was f*****g petrified of me. "Okay good Enzo. Good. Good.... because if you try me one last time, I promise you there won't be an Enzo walking on this damn earth anymore. You'll be f*****g dead with your brains painted on that wall. So please, please test me again." I smile crazy while letting the knife cut into his neck slowly. Blood becomes visible and the sight of it makes me ecstatic. "Please stop! I swear I won't do anymore s**t behind your back! I have a famil-" "I don't give a f**k about your family. You don't have family. You made it f*****g clear that you can't be trusted. I mean why am I even being generous with you!?" I laugh and cut further into his neck. "You don't deserve my loyalty." I let him go and he falls to the ground, he puts pressure his neck to stop the bleeding. Just seeing this backstabbing fucka' in front, made me want to beat him badly. "Ricardo! Yo come get this f*****g fool and throw his stupid ass in the basement or something." I yell looking down at him in disgust. I pull my silky out, and wipe the blade off. Ricardo comes in and see Enzo on the floor. He laughs and points his finger at him. Enzo just looks down at the floor. "I told you not to f**k around with him. He doesn't play around." He shakes his head 'no' then grabs him by his collar. "Oh, so you wanted to see if I was weak? Huh little b***h? What, you were trying take my place? Trying to be the boss around here? No no, no, no you can't be serious Enzo you really thought you could take over my throne?" I ask while laughing hysterically.  Since I'm such a joke to him I'm going to give him a little bit of his own medicine. I take my gun out from the back of my pants and aim for his shoulder. I shoot him then I judt another two caps in his knees. Enzo yells out in pain. Music to my ears. Ricardo calls Nico in to help him out. I sit back in my chair and watch as they carry him away. I bet he gets the message now. Do not f**k with me if you know what I'm cable of doing. I guess I was joke to the dumb ass to Enzo. But the jokes on him when he finds out I f****d his w***e ass wife.