CHANGED

You just can't say no.

OMEGA'S POV

Alpha-Queen. 

Omega.

You are required to attend the blood-moon festival that will celebrate the year's first moon. It starts at five pm tomorrow, and in case you thought I was asking, you are wrong. There will be no negotiations on the matter.

- Yours forever, Asher

"He cant be serious, why would she ever say yes to this?" Luna was eating a packet of chips, sitting in front of me while I tried to blocker her out and finish my yoga. "No this isn't a question." She said in a sarcastic tone. "You must obey or I'll cry like a little b***h till I get my way! " I can't help but laugh at her. 

"If you read the first part you'll understand why she has no choice." Grammy replied, pulling the invitation from her hand's.

"Oh, I read it Gramz. He thinks he owns her, I also heard that bull sh."

"Excuse me, but I'm trying to find my inner peace here. And you two ain't it." It seemed even when the kid's slept I was still watching two other's bickering.

"Omega you know what happens if you don't attend tomorrow, this is on you now! You are a grown up now and a mother dammit! Start acting like it!" I watched Gram walk inside, wondering how in the actual f**k I'd managed to get here. Why in the f**k I was supposed to be his mate, there was at least a hundred pack member's. Who'd made the choice that I was supposed to lead them all, some day's I had trouble looking after my own kid's.

"Whatever you are think about right now stop!" Luna's face was filled with worry, a worry only a real friend kmew. One she'd had a lot.

"I'm thinking of nothing, I'm fine." I sounded like broken record.

"Mhmmm. And that night work on everyone else but I know you! " Luna replied. "Nothing means a lot. So stop it! Forget what everyone else wants you to do, do what you want to do for once!" But that right there was the problem wasn't it, it didn't matter what I wanted anymore. So many lives relied on me, but who was I supposed to fall back on? Luna? The girl who'd never be excepted into my pack, or myself? The girl who didn't even want a pack. Who didn't want a hundred or more being's wanting her to lead them. They were right to shut me out,  to make me feel unwanted. They'd known all along I wasn't cut out for this, they'd know when I didn't. Now I agreed, they didn't care. What the f**k was that about?!

Gram said I'd been close to death, what if I had of died? Who'd of love my babies as much as their mum? 

Who'd keep them safe like me? Asher didn't even know they existed, and he was willing to die along with me, just to have me back!

 Everything had changed, I'd changed. 

For better or worse? I had no idea!

The rain started to pour, the skies mirroring how I felt.

The rain got heavier almost soothing my aching soul.

The thunder screaming like my pounding heart.

I had to leave, to get as faraway from here as I could!

I shifted, there on the back porch,  Luna frantically jumped

away from me, her eye's filled with so much pain.

I ran from her crys for me to stop,  I ran from the never ending thoughts.

Until finally all I heard was silence, the wood's beckoning me to go deeper, to never stop.

It was a freedom I'd never allowed myself to feel, I howled letting everything out.

I kept going, letting my wolf become one with myself.

"OMEGA STOP!" The voice screamed inside my head, I stopped almost hitting a tree.

"DID HE TELLYOU TO FOLLOW ME!?" Cas looked hurt.

"No! I wanted to see if my little sister was o." He shifted in to human form.

"Wait. You have kid's?! Did you even plan on telling me before you left!?" Oh god, he was going to tell him! What had I done.

"You weren't, I can't believe you! You planned on leaving and not saying anything!" He looked at me in pure disgust, before shifting again and running back! f**k! f**k! NO! Truth was I always planned on telling him everything, until I seen how close they'd become! f**k IT OMEGA WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!

"PLEASE I NEVER MEANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN!  I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU! BUT YOU HURT ME FIRST! YOU DON'T  THINK I DON'T KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH ASHER! YOU DON'T  THINK I FELT THAT THE SECOND I SEEN YOU! HOW COULD I TRUST YOU WHEN THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS WORLD WHO IS SUPPOSED TO HAVE MY BACK ALWAY'S, PICKED THE MAN WHO BROKE ME!" Cas stopped, never turning to face me. 

"It's  true isn't it!?  You can't even hide now in wolf form! That's why you've turned already! Because in your heart you think he is your soul mate! Prove me wrong! Tell me right now you don't love him!" Cas turned around tears filling his eyes. 

"YOU LOOK ME IN THE EYES RIGHT NOW AND TELL ME!"

"O, I never meant to. I never meant to hurt you! I never wanted to fall in love with him! You think I wanted this?! To be in love with someone who is destined only to love my little sister!? Do you know how sick that sounds even thinking it!"

"But it never let it stop you did it? Even after everything you choose him over me! You always will! Now I have something,  I have two something's that I love more than my own life and you want to rip that away from me? Haven't you got enough!  Haven't you hurt me enough!"

"I know you never wanted this O,  to be the Queen. To have him break you like he did. But I wanted it the whole time! I wanted to be you everyday! Through the heart ache! Through all the pain and tears all I wished was that he'd love me like he loves you! And even after you left I never felt it! He looked at me different, he looked at me like a brother! Not as the person he could love,  because it's always been you! It'll always be you!" I shifted back in-to human form, crumbling in-to the wet ground. 

"I'm begging you! As your sister! Please don't do this! Please don't tell him!"