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Funerals are crap

Omegas's POV

"Mummy said  you can't shift in the car anymore Kai!" I turned the car mirror to see the twin's giving each other filthy looks. I was a month off the terrible two's stage, two twin's who shifted into their wolf form on the night of their first Birthday. The thought sends cold shivers down my spine. I'd woken up in the night to hear them screaming, my little babies. When I got to the room I found my two little wolf's, big dark eyes staring into mine. I held them until finally their wolf let then go, and my babies were fast asleep in my arm's. 

"Mummy!?" Kai squealed. 

"Yes, my little wolf?" I focused my attention back on the road, pushing the thoughts away. 

"Will we get to see him!?" I hesitated, I searched my son's face but got nothing but curiosity. 

"Uncle Cas?" Kai sounded confused. 

"Oh yeah, I don't know honey." I let out a sign of relief. 

"Remember mummy said she had something really important to-do. I don't know if we'll have time." I felt guilt wash over me, I hated not telling them the truth. But facts are simple, I've been all the family they've have for their whole existence. Besides for my best friend, Luna who offered me a room when she seen me sleeping in my car one night. I refused for week's, until she talked me in to having a sleep over for one night and I found out she to had a secret. Luna's mate had died a year ago, she was living with the idea that she'd never be wolf. Now she had three living with her. 

 Since the house had two room's, the day we found out I was pregnant with twin's. We both knew the apartment wouldn't do anymore. Especially for four people. While I still wasn't showing to much Luna helped me find a job in a local morning TV show as a personal assistant, now almost two year's I'm the producer of the show. This was my first time off besides for the month I had the kid's, it toke me a good while to heal, mainly because I'd turned afterwards. It was the most excruciating pain I'd ever felt, every part of me fought it. That only made it worse. 

"Crap. Why didn't you wake me,  where already here!?" I smiled at Luna. 

"Aunt LooLoo said a word." Kallanii looked at Kai, her eyes going wide. 

"Nope she didn't. Aunt LooLoo said, ops." Luna tried to hide her smile. 

"We're one and a half, not stupid aunt LooLoo." I raised an eyebrow at Luna, she looked shock. 

"Kai." I had no word's, these kids.

"His right, they aren't stupid mumma bear." I bite my lip, trying to hide the worry that washed over me from the kids. I straightened myself. "You really think he wouldn't want to know about them?" Her voice in a whisper as she looks out her window, the kid's thankfully hadn't development the ability to transfer their wolf scencse when they weren't shifted, she new they couldn't hear. I wish I couldnt, because honestly? I knew the self centred asshole, probably had a thousand kid's by  now. I wasn't sharing mine..

I phoned Grammy before I decided I'd go, I told her everything. To my surprise she said she'd known all along, that the night before I'd left she'd noticed at family dinner. 

I knocked on the door, Kai on my hip and Lanii holding on to my leg standing behind me. 

"Awh! My beautiful granddaughter!" she hugged me around the waste, Kai pulled himself backwards. She looked the same,  her white hair short down to her shoulders, and beautiful olive skin that I missed out on. I was as pale as snow. 

"Grammy I'm your only granddaughter!" She laughed.

"Not anymore! Hello sweetie, do you know who I am? OK Grammy Lynn" I looked down at Lanii who was peering around my leg. 

"Grammy Lynn. That's my other name! Kallanii Lynn Dawson." Grammy stood straight, tears in her eyes.

"You named her after me? You gave them my last name." Something changed in her face. "That's why no one could find you."

"Mummy?" Kai turned my face toward's him. 

"Can I please have juice?" Kai whispered. 

"How about some hot coco, I just made some brownies." He throw himself down, making my arm jerk in away that probably would of broken it if I hadn't turned. They both left me,  following her into the kitchen.  "You too aunt LooLoo!" Lanii calls from around the wall. 

I grab the bags out of her hands and take them up stairs to our rooms, I told nan that while we were here all of us would share. The thought of me not being close to them, drove me insane. I was only okay with the idea of leaving them for the funeral. Because I knew as alpha, he'd have no choice but to show up to the funeral this afternoon. 

I stood in the archway to the kitchen, watching my wolf's talking and laughing with Grammy and Luna. Grammy looks over and smile's at me, grabbing the cup of coffee she'd made for me. 

"They are so beautiful." I smile at Grammy, but my eyes fill with tears. 

"They both look like him." I said it for her, I knew it's what she must of thought. I know I did everyday. 

"He spends every day looking for you, you know." Grammy passes me the drink. 

"Who, Cas?"

"Asher." I turn to face her, this was new's to me. 

"I'm sure he tried really hard!" The words tasted like acid as they left my mouth, god I hated how much he still effected me.

"He did. The pack nearly lost him. Cas saved him." I searched her eyes for any sign that she'd made it up. 

"Are you telling me that after I was told to leave town, Cas decided to what? Be his best friend?"

"I'm telling you that the only reason the pack still exists, is because Cas is apart of you, use are twin's! I'm saying that every day they go searching for you and every night Asher returns home without you he tears apart towns."

"And what? You want him to be apart of our lives like that? I'm sorry but I'm pretty sure he bought this all on himself."

"Omega enough! It doesn't matter what happened when you were both young and stupid, he is the father of your children! He is your soul mate and our alpha!  I don't know how much more he can take before the pack doesn't exist. We need an Alpha, we need his soul mate!  Without you both the pack is doomed!" Her word's cut me like a knife.

"THEIR MY KID'S!"

"Okay Grammy,  I think she's got the message." Luna says, raising her eyebrow at me from across the table. I nod, I'm fine. Grammy looked flustered. 

"I'm sorry, not the right time to be saying this all. Just think about it."