Muted Mate

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty

A Pregnancy

I haven't been feeling physically well lately. So I've been staying in bed. I feel bad though, because Kyle does all the work and is often swamped with work because I'm not there to help.

So today my brother decided to help out with everything. Thank gosh. Kyle definitely needs all the help he can get.

"Don't you agree?" Rachel;Ian's mate; says giggling.

"Hm?" I say quietly looking up at her

"That the kids are all hyper little things" She laughs "I mean, Mr.Lawrence's little girl took my shoes and ran. I didn't get that pair of shoes back. But oh well"

I laugh. Kids.. "Yeah. They are hyper. Plus being a werewolf makes them extra hyper" I say, frowning, I wish I could have met my baby. But I didn't. Thanks to my father ...

"Are you okay Beth?" Rachel asks carefully. She doesn't know about the miscarriage.

"Yeah.. I um.. I just really want kids of my own"

I start playing with my hair, and become skittish. "Why don't you?"

Bam...

Those three words were like a knife into my stomach that was twisted around.

"I miscarried ... and we haven't tried again since" I say sadly, tears brimming my eyes.

To this day I wonder why my father hated me so much, of course I can't ask him. He's dead. I killed him. I don't feel any regret, I just wish I knew the reasoning behind his actions.

Did he honestly believe I had caused my brothers 'death'. Mind you... his fake death.

My father really had to take away my baby. Kyle's baby. Our baby.

I thought it would get easier day by day.. it's been months now. But I still can't talk about it. The wound is to fresh. To painful.

"Oh my god. I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to upset you"

"It's fine.." I whisper, brining my knees to my chest.

Rachel is a really pretty girl. Under all the dirt, and starvation. After we got her cleaned up, fed, fixed up, and talking. She's a sweet girl. She's on the pale side, but we believe that's still from needing to eat right. Her hair is pretty long, it's dark, almost black, but really pretty. She has really bright green eyes, and she's also pretty much family too, since she's my brothers mate.

Which makes me wonder ...

"Are you and Ian going to have kids? Have you talked about it. Or is it to soon?" I ask hurriedly.

It's only been a couple weeks, so I don't know how they have been taking things, but I can clear as day smell on her that she has been marked by Ian. So that makes me wonder...

"Actually..." She begins but I stop her.

"If I'm being to nosy just tell me to shut up" I say and laugh a little.

"No no. It's fine" she says while pulling her hair into a pony tail. "I'm actually pregnant. Only about a week or so. We mated kinda fast. And just so happens. I go pregnant.." She says, a small smile on her face, but I can tell she's trying not to upset me, and she's trying to be careful.

"Awe. Oh my gosh. I'm so happy for you" I say forcing a smile. I really am happy for them. I just wish I could have my baby still. "Are you excited?"

She chuckles nervously "Actually I'm terrified"

I furrow my eyebrows. "Why?"

"I'm only 19. I've been rouge for a long time. I don't know about how to be a good mother, let alone be a mother at all. I lost mine. She can't help me. She's gone" she whispers fiddling with the bracket she has on, which I notice she has had on since we've found her.

"My mom gave me this charm bracelet on my 16th birthday. I've worn it everyday since. My mom and I were very close. Now that's she's gone, this is all I have left"

I scoot closer to her on my bed and hug her. "Your going to be a great mother. I promise. And I'm sure your mother is right here, right now watching over you"

She sniffles and wipes away a tear. "You really think so?"

I smile reassuringly at her.

"I know so"