Fall In Love With A Feline

Chapter 4

--*Abey's POV:

Act like a human.

How am I supposed to do that?

After my transformation, Kevin stayed at home for days. I was happy he didn't leave like he usually does but now, I think I'm wrong.

The list of the things I'm not allowed to do had piled and most of the time since that day, he's mad.

I can no longer use my litter box. If I need to pee or poo, I need to use the toilet. He taught me how to sit on it. It felt uncomfy but he had thrown my litter box away so I have no choice but poop and pee where he poops and pees. And talking about grooming, I can't even lick to clean myself. I mean, now, I physically can't reach the parts I could usually lick for cleaning. He says I should use soap and water... the same as taking a bath. And taking a bath is no longer gonna be on the sink but in the tub where he too takes a bath.

Another admonition is I can no longer sit on the table anymore nor climb any platform I used to walk on - not on the shelves, not by the windows, not above the backrest of the couch.

I am also not allowed to sleep beside him anymore. He lets me sleep on his bed every night while he sleeps on the floor but, it's not the bed I want.

Whenever I step down to lay beside him, he would get angry, like really angry as if I have broken something.

The worst of all is, I can no longer sit on his lap or even rub my face or my body against him. He wants me to stop that behavior.

How am I supposed to show him I love him?

Also, I now have things I needed to do. I need to take a bath by myself and use the bubbles he uses when bathing. I wanted him to give me a bath the day after he transformed but he refused. Every time I ask him to, his cheeks grew a shade of red.

I also need to brush my teeth and comb my hair. Apparently, the fur in my head is not called fur, it's hair but the color is the same when I was I cat. He said I have beautiful blonde hair. He seemed flustered when he told me that but despite him saying that he asked me to tie it up as it gets in the way whenever he's teaching me something.

The first time I saw myself in the mirror, I ran away. I thought it was a stranger but Kevin told me it was me. I've seen myself through the mirror as when I was still a kitten and I remembered reacting the same way. But the more I look at myself in the mirror, the more I think I am pretty as human.

I also need to use a spoon and fork when I eat. He said I can't eat my food directly from the plate anymore. I was so happy to eat the same food he eats because human food is so heavenly it sometimes makes me want to leak on the eyes but, I can't enjoy it using these tools.

And lastly, the thing I need to do that I hated the most - wearing clothes. It feels so weird over my body but he says I need to cover myself or he will die.

I don't want him to die so I did what he said even if I hated it.

Today, I lay down on the sofa feeling exhausted having nothing to do all day while waiting for him to come back home. As a cat, I could nap all day to skip time until he comes back. As a human, napping can only take me 3 or 4 hours and it would just make me feel like sleeping isn't resting at all.

He taught me how to switch on the TV but watching it is boring without him explaining everything I watch because there are things my attention can only cope up with. So I just laid on the couch while watching the door.

When the day slowly drags the darkness back while staring at it, I sat on the floor in front of the door as I always do and as expected after a few minutes, I finally heard the jingling beyond the door. I quickly stood in anticipation of seeing him again after a long day.

However, I noticed a feeling inside my chest that I've never felt when I was still a cat. The excitement... the thrill of seeing him again is different. 

When the door finally opened, "Kevin!" I cheerfully yelped and jumped at him. He was able to catch me as always even beyond my size. Though he dropped his bag just to do so. Arms around his neck and legs wrapped around his waist, I cling onto him happily while both his hands support each thigh that's around his waist.

"I missed you.. Where have you been?" I asked, muttering against his neck while attempting to rub my forehead against his cheek but failed when he immediately dropped his hold on me, "Get off, Abey." He ordered, hands now on my waist, pushing me off gently but fortunately, my hands and legs grasp on his body is strong that it kept me clinging onto him even if he no longer has my weight.

I frowned, pouting as I look up to him while I'm slowly slipping off my hold.

"What did I tell you?" He asked sternly.

"But I miss you..." I whined softly.

He then sighed before saying softly, "Get off, now."

I then dropped my feet back to the floor and pulled my hands back and kept it behind my back, eyes locked at him while keeping my frown and pout on.

"I bought you something..." He says, getting his backpack from the floor. "But I don't know if it'll fit you. The lady just guessed your size based on how I described you."

He then handed a paper bag. I quickly opened it and something small, pink cloth fell off to the floor after I pulled it out. He sighed again and get it for me. I then looked at the thing in my hand which had stretchable ropes connected to a curved, soft, cups like thicker cloths.

"What's this?" I asked, putting it against my eyes since it looked like something I can put either on it or on top of my head.

"It's a bra and this is your... uhm..." He trails off, pulling the thing he called bra from my face before he handed me another cloth. "Those are your underwear. Please wear those before we leave."

"Wear where? And... where are we going?" I asked.

Going out of our home is one of the dreadful things I can think of. There were only a few times we went out and that's going to the vet. Every time we do so, he always hides me inside his jacket because the noise and people frighten me.

"We're going to buy you some clothes and more underwear because it doesn't look like you're changing soon." He answered while walking towards his room.

My eyes followed him as he lazily walks towards the room where I trailed behind him, holding the underwear - not having any idea on where should I wear it.

I decided to just do what he says to keep him from getting mad at me. The last thing I want to do is become an addition to his stress. I wanted to comfort him because he always look like this whenever he gets home but I had stopped all my affectionate gestures because he would always flinch and tell me to stop acting like a cat. 

He then flopped himself upon the bed, laying on his stomach. He lazily pulls out his phone from his pocket, typing in something before calling me softly.

"Here, that's how to wear underwear." He said. I took his phone and looked at how human female wearing something looking similar to what he bought for me. I thought I should be wearing it over my clothes as the woman did on the video but she explained that it should be worn underneath clothes. 

So, it's used to cover my chest and my private area.

Giving him his phone back, I pulled the hem of the shirt I'm wearing, taking it off before proceeding to wear each piece just like how it's worn by the female on his phone. But, I could not tie the bra from the back.

"Kev? Help?" I asked, muttering as I crawled in the bed with him.

He slowly opened his eyes then sighed before pulling himself up from the bed. "Don't crawl like that, please?" He asked.

Another prohibition again.

When does the don'ts stop? 

I stopped, sitting on my legs, pouting while the bra straps hang on each shoulder. He then sat behind me, "I'm sure you can reach it from your back." He said, pulling all my hair over one shoulder then felt the strap tightened and the cups glues to my chest. He said it has hooks on the back before telling me I can do this by myself.

I just nodded as I sit there.

"We're going to the mall before dinner, okay?." He asked. I turned my head over my shoulder and saw him walking towards the cabinet, pulling some clothes again I knew I have to wear.

"Can we just stay here? I'm afraid to go out. I don't need clothes anyway." I asked, muttering.

"No. You can't keep on wearing my clothes because I'll run out of clean ones to wear for work. And you can't walk around the apartment with just a shirt on." He retorted.

"But it feels weird," I complained, scratching the skin where the lining of the bra is tight. Do females have to wear something like this every day? It kind feels hard to breathe in.

"I don't care. You need to wear clothes." he retorted back.

After wearing a shirt and pants, we went out. He made me wore the soft slippers he wore inside our home.

Going outside scared me. There's a lot of people and there's too much noise especially when the sky is dark. At first, I tried hugging him but he pushed me away. If not for the salty water coming out my eyes again, he wouldn't let me cling on his arm. Though I always feel so bad whenever he pushes me away.

We went to a*****e first with lots of clothes. The female who took care of me had a confused expression on her face when Kevin asks her to teach me to wear clothes and underwear she chose for me. I was hesitant to go inside the small room with her but Kevin assured me that she's a good and kind person.

She's kind but she's a stranger so I had my guard up all the time. Wearing so many clothes all at once made me feel itchy and all weird, especially when she covered my feet with socks and shoes, tho the shoes with strings on it felt comfy on my feet.

But the uncomfortable feeling I'm enduring is worth it when he smiled after I went out of that room, looking at me from head to toe with that smile.

It felt like I haven't seen him smile for so long.

He bought me a lot of clothes - shirt, pants, underwear, and pajamas that I need to wear at night. He also bought a slipper I could wear inside our home and another pair of shoes. When we finished our business at the store, we then walked our way to the place he said we would eat.

Unlike the first time I went out as a human, other humans were now looking at me which made me hide on his arm as I cling to it. I don't want to get poked with sticks again so I hold his arm tightly. However, I noticed that Kevin now had his head bowed as he walked.

At the place called a restaurant he told me we're going to have dinner at, he suddenly requested the food to be packed. We didn't stay long at the store that smelled so good which made me really hungry. But I was glad we left immediately because I'm really afraid of the people who had been looking our way.

When we arrived home, he sighed out loud again, "geez... I'm not gonna take you outside anymore."

"Yes. I agree!" I answered enthusiastically. "Now let's eat!" I jumped happily, feeling the softness of the shoes that once felt so weird.

Then, I saw him smile again.

I wish I could make him smile more.

I'm still learning the things that please him now because he became so different when I became human.

We ate delicious food together tho I prefer the food he makes. Afterwhich, he taught me how to wash our dishes.

We then hang out on the couch while watching TV. Unlike before where he'd always like me to snuggle onto his lap while waiting for sleep to visit his consciousness, I now sit on the far end of the couch while he sat on the opposite end.

I'm wearing the silky pajamas he bought for me that felt good on my skin tho I'd still prefer to have it off me. I turned my head to his direction, feeling lonely that I could no longer snuggle on his lap. Whenever I tried, he pushes me back.

But that wouldn't stop me from trying.

I'll try every day to bring back how we were before. I'd show him how much I love him no matter how much he pushes me away until he gets used to me, being a human.

That's all I think he needs, getting used to.

I scurried to his side, smiling widely as I grab his arm and hug it which had him startled.

"Abey, what did I tell you?" He asked.

"I miss you..." I pouted as I look at him.

"I'm here now. You don't have to cling anymore." He retorted, trying to pull his arm back.

"There you go with your don'ts again," I whined, now frowning. "Being human is so complicated."

"It wouldn't if you just do what I say, now give me my arm back."

"Can't I snuggle with you like how I used to? I miss your warmth especially your gentle scratches." I complained, tightening my embrace on his arm as he tries to pull it from me.

"You're human so you don't need scratches anymore. Get over it." He retorted back, looking at me in a way that's almost scowling.

"It's still me in a different form so I need my scratches!" I whined. "I thought being a person would make you happy? Why do you hate me so much now? You never said you love me anymore, you never let me get near you, you never let me sleep beside you, you never kiss me on the forehead anymore... Why does Kev hate me so much?!" I whined out loud after letting go of his arm. '

My frustration just poured out instantly. There are so many things I can't do and having him pushing me away every time I tried to show him I love him hurts me inside the chest. The pain feels a lot worse than being poked by sticks or losing my mom.

He looked surprised at that moment I raised my voice so I quickly snuggle back to his arm, "Do you really hate me now?" I asked, muttering. I tried to keep the salty water from escaping my eyes again but it just fell on its own.

He was quiet for a brief moment before I heard him whisper, "I don't hate you."

"Then why do you not push me away when I just want to snuggle?" I asked.

He then sighed once again before tapping his lap, "Okay... on my lap."

I quickly perked up and look at him. He then smiles softly, "Before I change my mind, Abey."

I immediately sat on his lap and curled my body where his arms soon cradled me. I leaned on him on my side and easily felt comfy on my position, "Scratch my head too?" I asked while he looks down on me before he began softly scratching the back of my head.

I then closed my eyes. It feels like it's been a long time since I purred so I remained inside his arms, within his warmth. I even felt him rest his head on mine. However, no matter how much I concentrated, I can't seem to get it out.

"Keviiinn?!" I whined.

"What?" He asked, surprised.

"I can't purr!" I whined louder, pouting.

"We'll... because... you're not a cat anymore. Why do cats purr anyway?"

"When we're comfy and happy, we purr," I answered, laying my head down on his shoulder again before I wrap my hands around him. "It's also to generate heat but... mostly because we're in a state of comfort and happiness."

Then... there was silence. But even none of us talk, I was so comfy and happy. I just want to purr but, I lost that ability now that I'm human. I just have to get used to this now.

Suddenly...

"I'm sorry if I made you feel like I hate you. I don't hate you. It's just that... I'm... uhm..." He trails off. I looked up at him and answered for him, "you're not used to me being a human?"

"Uhm... yeah and... I'm uhm, not used to... girls." He sheepishly answered in a mutter. "I'm not really comfortable with girls especially when uhmm... like you, you know, you're really p-pretty... I'm not used to it."

"I should've wished I'm a male then." I pouted which made his brows furrow, "Hell no... I prefer a female."

"But you said-"

"It's complicated to explain. I can't snuggle with a male. Let's leave it at that." He said, cutting me off.

"I just want to make you happier, Kevin. I'll learn everything you're teaching me but, please don't push me away when I try to show you how much I love you." I said, slowly rubbing my forehead on the crook of his neck. "Before, back when I was a cat, I could only comfort you whenever I rub my face onto yours and being unable to do so now hurts me inside here..." I said, touching above my left chest.

"I able to tell you I love you but even if you understand me now, it still hurts when I can't do the things I used to do to show you how much I love you," I added.

"Don't say I love you so easily." He sighed.

I look up at him again and pouted before asking, "Why?"

"Because what you're feeling might be completely different from what a human may perceive. Those words should not be taken lightly." He answered.

"But I love you... does love means different for you? You said you love me, is that different when I was a cat?" I asked.

"My love for you is different in a way that I hold you dear to me, you are my friend Abey and you were a cat. I still love you as my dear friend but if you keep saying you love me... I'm afraid I'll...." he then trails off.

I get what he means. Human or cat... I feel the same way for him. I know it's love... but a different kind. Something's changed within me. I've never seen him as handsome as I once saw a tomcat. I've seen a lot of humans today but Kevin is different. And that day I changed  and became human, he doesn't look the same.

He's very attractive. And I was so attracted that I wanted to snuggle with him like I never did before and it pains me when he shoos me away.

"Humans and cats can't be together in a way that... Uhm..." he trails off again.

"I get what you mean, Kevin." I muttered, lifting myself from leaning against him.

"But... I still love you." I continued, holding both his cheeks and looking straight in his eyes.

"If you don't feel the same love for me like I do, I understand. But, I won't stop saying how much I love you because all my life, you never understood anything I say until now and I just want to make you happy." I smiled in the end. "Please, just let me tell you I love you... and snuggle with you?"

It took a while before a soft, gentle smile formed on his lips. Then, he nods.

Finally.

"Also...." I added, trailing off with my words for a second with a sniggering smile before continuing, "can I stop wearing clothes?" I smiled widely.

"No." He quickly answered, squinting his eyes and brows furrowing.

I then rest my forehead against his forehead, eyes closed, intending to rub it across his face but suddenly, he held both my arms and pushed me back gently.

However, when I opened my eyes, his cheeks were completely red.

"Kevin hadn't told me he loves me for a long time now. I hope you'll love me again soon." I whispered.

"I can't..." He replied in a whisper.

"Why not."

"Because... you're still a cat. Your form now isn't what you really are. You're dear to me but, saying those words to you will make it hard for me when you change back into a cat."

I don't understand what he means. But, nonetheless... I love Kevin. If he thinks it's not the same feelings as what I have when I was a cat then, I need to prove him wrong.

He's my human.

And now that I'm human, I will become his person.