Fall In Love With A Feline

Chapter 5

--**Kevin's POV:

I wasn't able to sleep last night.

Allowing her to cuddle is wrong.

Last night, I thought I was dreaming, that a giant creature was suffocating me in my sleep. It's as if I'm trapped inside my dream and it prevented me to move or even open my eyes. It's as if I'm paralyzed, like what sleep paralysis does... or so I've heard.

I remembered to have actually called her name out loud, asking her to save me...

I wasn't thinking of the cat, in her cat form but, I was thinking of her face, I was calling out for Abey as a girl, as a woman... as a human.

I was just lying there alone in my bed, unable to wake up when I felt someone's hands around my throat.

That was when I was able to wake up.

When I was finally able to pull my eyes open, I found her sleeping soundly on top of me. She was facing as she sleeps soundly on top of me and I could see her pale skin clearly despite the darkness. She rests her head on top of my chest as if I was her pillow while her body's curled on upon the thick blanket I used as a bed since I've been sleeping on the floor. Her legs were under my right arm while it's being wrapped around her arms.

A smile crept on my lips as I stare at her face, reminiscing the time when she used to always sleep on top of me, curled and purring while my upper body was able to support that body of a cat.

I wasn't mad at her despite being icy towards her. Even when she was still a cat, she's a bit hard-headed. No matter how many times I tell her to sleep on her own bed, I would always wake in the wee hours to find her sleeping so comfortably on top of me or on my pillow just beside my head.

I reached for her cheek, gently caressing her fluffy, rosy cheek.

"Pretty..." I whispered.

Just with the sight of her face, I completely forgot about that dream.

"I guess you couldn't sleep with your whole body on top of me anymore," I whispered followed by a soft chuckle.

I should consider myself lucky but this honestly feels like torture.

Torture because... she's someone I can't be with.

She's a cat.

I thought my eyes had already adjusted in the dark but what made my eyes wide was seeing her naked body.

I had my air conditioning switched on and she's curled too tightly meaning she's curled. Who wouldn't be when you're sleeping in your birthday suit? 

My hand then traveled to her bare shoulder that felt cold in the instant my skin touched hers. I had no choice but to wake her even if I didn't want to.

"Abey..." I called softly.

Her eyes flutter open slowly, pouting after I disturbed her sleep but I should've known and remembered - She always stretches her body out when she wakes up.

I regretted waking her up when she lifted her head from my chest then put both her hands on my torso before bending over. Her chest hangs down closer to the sheets and bum sticking up out in the air as if she was still a cat as she stretches out. She then yawned silently before opening her eyes, pouting once again as she looked at me.

"Is it time to eat?" She asked, whispering. I was about to peel my back from the floor when she suddenly climbs on top of me before embracing me, face rubbing against my chest once again.

"No, but you need to get to bed. And for god's sake, don't take off your PJs." I ordered in a mutter but then, she pushes me back until I was completely laying down again and she, lying comfortably on top of me.

"Noooo.... I sleep here." She whines softly.

She looked incredibly sleepy so I decided to just let her sleep after I took her blanket and covered both of us.

I concentrated so hard the whole night, counting sheep after sheep inside my head and keep my hands off where it shouldn't be.

She wasn't that heavy and I really didn't mind her weight.

But any man would find this torturous.

To be honest, I wasn't really concentrating on getting some sleep. I'm so focused on not getting a hard-on while she's on top of me knowing the very fact that she's naked.

However, she did this a few nights later on, so I decided to sleep on the same bed.

There's no use anyway.

Every night, I see to it that she wears her pajamas but only tonight do I realize, after deciding to sleep on the bed, after switching off the lights and laid beside her underneath the same blanket, that she takes off her clothes immediately as soon as she thought I'm already asleep. I felt the bed shift and rock for a few minutes until she pulled my arm.

Why am I still surprise when she does this?

But when I felt her soft skin, particularly the mounds of flesh on her chest pressing on the side of my arm as she embraces it, I scurried out the bed.

I don't like to see the look on her face whenever I reprimand her on the things she's used to. But she needs to learn how it is. I shouldn't be getting mad but it's frustrating and what's making me mad is not because she's naked but because I don't want her to get used to sleeping naked or being naked in general.

What if there was an intruder? I'm not saying the apartment complex we're staying up is not safe but of course, we can never tell what will happen.

In the end, she won over being naked underneath the sheets because she can't sleep because if not, I wouldn't be able to sleep as well because she moves a lot, trying to find the best spot and position with her PJs on. She kept whimpering, position after position until I allowed her to take it all off because she won't be giving me sleep if she do this all night.

I turned my back on her but she curled behind me with her hand hanging over my tummy.

I should be living off a dream of every man - getting spooned by a girl, a gorgeous girl but, I'm trying so hard to keep myself together.

Any man wouldn't be able to sleep if there's a gorgeous girl naked, sleeping in his bed. Any man would just attack and make the most out of the opportunity, but not me.

Abeyis my friend. She had helped me a lot in my daily life just by existing. And now that she's human, every day had been hella unforgettable.

But nonetheless, I've never felt so homesick than ever, I always wanted to come back home immediately and check what crazy thing she does this time.

I look forward to opening that door inside our home, anticipating she would jump at me with those sweet smile before telling me how much she misses me, asking me where I've been all day and what took me so long. It's a routine now but I think I won't be able to get used to it.

"Hey..."

The things she does are adorable if I'll be honest with myself. She still acts like a cat no matter how hard she tries to act human, her instinct still drives her but emotions also confuse her especially when she frustrated.

Are cats' emotions differently than humans?

I hate it when she cries when I order her not to do the things she usually does, but she's learning how to compromise.

She adjusts for me. In reality, she's the one who's been adjusting drastically into this life, a completely different life.

"Kevin..."

Honestly, I want to feel those cheeks on mine whenever she cuddles with me. But my shyness gets the best of me sometimes.

It may seem natural for her but it's uncomfortable for me in a way that I couldn't contain my anxiety, that she'd think I'm taking advantage of her innocence.

I don't want her to think of me that way. Human or not, it's her right to be respected.

Though the way she shows me how much she loves me is too much for me to handle. She's too touchy like whenever she cuddles, her hands sometimes go to places no one had ever touched.

However, no matter how angry I get, her pouty lips defeat me always, changing me to be lenient for her.

Am I really angry tho, or was it just a mask... a defence mechanism perhaps?

"Hey! Kevin!" My boss yelled followed by a light nudge on my shoulder. I was startled that both my shoulders jump in surprise, eyes widening in surprise as I recoiled from him whose standing beside me. I then decided to stand timidly and apologize

"You've been spacing out lately? Are you okay?" He asked.

"I'm sorry... I just didn't have enough sleep last night." I apologized, bowing my head in embarrassment.

"If can give you time off if you need it. You've been like this for a week now. There's not much work to do nowadays either because you've done it way ahead due. You have so many unused sick leaves and vacation leaves, Kevin." He suggested.

"Maybe you can get a girlfriend if you take a rest." He said followed by a boisterous laugh everyone heard which made me more embarrassed. "You've been here with me since you finished school and never been absent once. Take a rest." He added with a light tap on my shoulder.

At the end of the day, I ended up taking his suggestion. Besides, Abey needs a lot of lessons.

I was in a hurry to get home but on my way, I stopped over a girls' store of clothes where a headless mannequin wore a dress that I think would look cute on her. It's displayed behind the huge glass window where the rest of the store's apparel were displayed.

It's pretty... a white, short. off-shoulder dress with a few frills around the shoulder while the hem of it was embroidered with light pink flowers.

It would be prettier if she wears it.

I was thinking about buying it for her but I noticed my reflection on the glass standing just beside the mannequin and automatically, my head created Abey's image wearing that dress.

She looks so beautiful.

But,

Her beauty would be wasted on me.

I look like a dork.

If she's a regular human girl, she wouldn't notice me. I doubt if she would even look at someone like me.

I'm not pleasing to look at. I'm just a waste of space. No girl ever looked at me. I don't even have friends.

I'm just that lucky that my cat turned to a beautiful girl.

But, I wouldn't even call myself lucky. The gods are just mocking me because I'm so helpless. That my only chance of having a girl is by turning my cat into one.

The cat that loves me so much.

She's human now, maybe it's really my chance.

She never failed to tell me every day that she loves me.

"Who am I kidding?" I scoffed at myself with that thought.

It's against any natural law so naturally, she'll turn back to a cat sooner or later. Whoever supernatural being turned her into a human is mocking me. If I let myself fall into this trap, she'll immediately turn back into a cat and will leave me miserable.

I'm just destined to be alone.

My eyes then adjust beyond my reflection, noticing a cake shop just across the street behind me. I turned and decided to cross the street to buy her something.

She hasn't tasted any sweets yet, so I bought her a small-sized, chocolate cake and some macaroons.

At least I'll reward myself with her smile.

When I got to my front door, I was really excited to open the door and see how happy she is to see me but when I finally pushed the door open, my smile disappeared.

"Abey?" I called. Even when she was a cat, she never missed a day hopping to my arms whenever I get home.

I closed the door gently behind me, heart starting to pound on my chest, anxiety rising rapidly.

Shit... was my fear of an intruder happened? She would never leave home without me.

"Abey?!" I called out louder as I stomp over to our room.

She isn't here.

"Abey?!!" I practically shouted. My hands were beginning to tremble and I was about to run outside but suddenly, I heard her calling out for me, voice muffled behind the bathroom door.

"Kev?! Keviiiiiin!!!!" She cried, yelling.

I ran quickly to the bathroom and push the door but, it's locked. Just like what I've taught her and always reminded her off.

"Are you okay? What's wrong?" I asked, trying the knob.

"I'm bleeding!!" She cried.

"Bleeding?! Open the door! Now!" I ordered, frantically pounding on the door and forcing the knob alternately.

"I can't! I'm sitting on the toilet bowl! Keviiin! Help meeeee!" She pleaded.

"On the toilet bowl? Are you pooping?? You're bleeding when you poop?"

"No! I'm not pooping... it just suddenly gushed out. I thought it was pee but... It's blood! Kevin! I don't wanna die!!" She cries. "It doesn't stop since this afternoon! I've been here since this afternoon!"

Is this... menstruation?

I sighed out in relief after hearing her cries. I seriously thought she got hurt.

"You're not gonna die, Abey." I chuckled behind the door. "Don't cry, okay? It happens to all human females. I'll explain later. I need to buy you something first."

"NOoOooooOoo! Don't leave me, Keviiin!!!" She begged, still crying.

"If you can reach the knob, Abey, unlock it so I could give you stuffie. I need to go and buy that stuff for you so you can get out of the bathroom. I won't take long. I promise."

She kept begging me not to leave but after hushing her softly and assuring her that everything would be alright, she agrees. I heard a few sniffles before she said okay. I was able to throw her old bed we named Gold Fishie that's now turned to a stuffie. She was stomping her feet as she cries while sitting glued on the toilet bowl.

The skin around her eyes was puffy and rosy. I wanted to give her a hug since she had her arms open as well but if I get closer, I won't be able to leave. Good thing the stuffie calmed her down.

However, the biggest struggle of my life was standing in front of so many sanitary napkins to choose from.

"Shit...?" I struggled to pick even just one pack as I look at each pack with all the confusion in the world.

Why do girls need so many types of pad? There are even these different kinds of tampons. Why does it have to this many kinds?

There are soft and cottony, dry, nighties and... there so many...

"Son, you finally got a girlfriend?" I jumped in surprise as soon as the first word was spoken. I didn't realize I was too fixated on the packs in front of me.

"Oh, H-Helen..." I called, scratching the back of my head in confusion. The store owner, an old widowed lady I have known me since I moved to the apartment complex.

"I need one of these, which one should I pick?" I asked.

"Take the pink ones. That's what most girls use nowadays." She smiled.

I quickly took two packs and bolted out the store after payment, feeling so flushed out of embarrassment.

However, never have I ever thought I'd be watching a tutorial on how to put a sanitary napkin on a panty. It had never slipped to my curiosity, even learning when to change it and when it would finally stop. I need to know these things so I could teach her. Though, maybe it's best to just give her my phone and make her watch these. 

Thank god for youtube tutorials.

But then, the biggest surprise of my day was seeing a box of condoms along with the sanitary napkins inside the shopping bag.

I was frozen for a second before deciding to hide it behind my clothes inside the closet.

Helen must've slipped it in the bag.

She's been asking me why she doesn't see me bring a girl home after all.

After trying my best not to look at Abey while she sits on the bowl as I hand over the things that she needs, she asks, "What's this?" She looked at the pack of pads.

"It's a sanitary napkin. It's uhm... used to uhm,..." I trailed off, not having any idea on how to explain.

"Why am I bleeding?" Her lips pout and she starts to get teary again. "Kinda hurts a bit too. Am I really not gonna die?"

"It's a human thing, Chaey. A female human thing. You've bled too when you were still a cat. Though, I guess you never noticed because it wasn't as much as it is now. Don't worry... I'll go away. So... wash up and wear that. I'll teach you everything you need to know."

I waited outside the bathroom. And when she came out, she immediately jumped on me, clinging on to my neck minus the wrapping of her legs.

She continued crying, telling me how long she's been there and how weird it felt. I then taught her why it happened to her and assured her that it would stop, though it would return the next month in which she instantly dreaded.

I can see she wasn't really comfortable because of the way she walked. It changed and she looked funny. She walks weirdly as if the pad between her legs was keeping her legs apart.

But I understand. If I were her I think I'd walk like that too.

Calming her down is easy. She gets over it easily especially when I showed her the sweets that she could eat.

She said she's been so curious about it when I first brought a cake home.

"Happy birthday!" She cheered before taking a slice of the cake using a fork she holds sloppily.

"Huh?" I hummed in question.

"Hmm? Happy birthday? You bring cakes during birthdays. My turn was over so I guess it's your turn again. I told you I won't forget it." She smiled brightly followed by a chuckle, leaving a smudge of chocolate on her teeth.

A pained smile crept on my lips instead of laughing, my heart felt like it's melting.

She remembered celebrating birthdays.

To be honest, I'm not missing the cat. The cat has been there on my worst and had always given me comfort when I needed it. I am very grateful. But this version of Abey is entirely different.

However, I start thinking of the day she would change back. The cat would return but, I won't be able to see her sweet, bright smile smudge with chocolate or hear her melodious laughter.

I wouldn't be able to understand her meows again whenever she cuddles with me or comforts me.

"Kevin?" She called out softly, smile disappearing.

"What's wrong?" She stood from her seat then sits on my lap with her hands on my shoulders. She looks straight in my eyes, studying my expression before her soft palm cup my cheeks.

"I-...." I trailed off, looking back into her beautiful, worried eyes.

"I... I miss you." I whispered, feeling my eyes well up tears.

I'm missing her already just by thinking that she'll be changing so suddenly.

A soft smile formed on her lips before she embraces me, arms wrapping around my neck while her hand softly clutches my hair at the back of my head.

We used the same shampoo and soap but, why does she smell sweet to me? She smells better.

Unknowingly, I embraced her back, tightly, burying my face on the crook of her neck.

"I'll never leave, Kevin. I will be always here for you to welcome you back." She muttered.

I know she won't leave. I know she'll stay with me for the rest of her life but that is if she's a cat. There's no way she'll stay human until the end.

I'm falling... I know it but, should I just let myself fall?

But... what would happen to me if she changes back?