Unwanted mate

unexpected

    The first store we head into is Nordstroms, I already know we more then likely will not find anything that fits me in here, this is where I have looked for stuff more then once and I was pretty sure they intentionally only carried clothing up to a certain size to keep the bigger people out or just to make themselves feel awful about themselves one or the other. I knew we could find something for Eleanor though, after looking for about 10 minutes I was sure there were cute outfits Eleanor and Amy would look amazing in but I could never fit into , or at least not until I lost about 60 lbs or more. Eleanor started looking at some super cute summer dresses , Ashley was giving yay or nay votes on them, when I stumbled on a super pretty peasant light blue top and Eleanor found some ripped black jeans when she tried them on she looked amazing, this was going to be the perfect outfit for tonight. Ashley ended up getting a super cute dress to change into after the game.

    Like I had thought I did not see anything that would be even close to looking good on me , Eleanor bought her outfit and we headed to Torrid, I was super embarrassed to even be seen walking into the store but as soon as we were in I instantly relaxed as I saw the super cute outfits that they had, of course Amy took the opportunity to make fun of me that I was finally in the correct store for people like me. The main reason that I did not want to come here in the first place was the fact that I did not want to get used to having a larger size clothing store as a option instead of just losing the weight and fitting into the cute outfits that everyone else would wear. I wanted to be motivated to actually improve myself instead of being comfortable with how I am, I know that is a awful way to think , i know I should love myself and love my body but i really wanted to be accepted by my pack mates .after looking around for awhile Eleanor found a super cute baby-doll top in a teal blue , I decided that I might as well grab a few outfits to be able to wear until I was small enough to fir into normal clothing sizes . I looked around for awhile longer and found a cute cami, a pair or boyfriend jeans , a pair of sky high skinny jeans and a few more tops and headed into the fitting rooms to get approval from Amy and Eleanor, The whole point of bringing Amy was to make sure that what I thought was cute was actually cute. 

    After putting on the first outfit I stepped out of the fitting room and Eleanor instantly looked at me with approval, " you look super cute !" she exclaimed, Amy was even looking at me like she approved of my outfit. "Yup definitely a improvement over how you usually look"  I took that as a complement and decided to go ahead and buy the other outfits that I had picked out even with them being a little on the expensive side. oh well thats why we have black cards from our parents , benefit of being part of a Alfa family . even with my family not being the best most loving family out there at least they wanted me to be able to make myself look nice , I guess , I am sure that they will actually like that I had spent some money on clothing that looked good on me for a change . the total ended up being close to $300 which still seemed crazy to spend on 4 outfits. " hey so are you going to call Emily to see if she wants to join us to get our hair done and grab something to eat or are we just going to finish up without her and if she calls then let her know where we are , so she can join us . " I asked Eleanor, "ummm, I kind of think it would be more fun to just finish getting our hair done and then if she calls she can come , we can always just meet up with her at the game too, anyways she did not seem to be that excited to come anyways". Amy was looking at her phone and not really paying attention. I knew that she really does not like Emily though even though they kind of hung out in the same group of "ultra attractive people" , personally I think they have some strange rivalry going on. 

    After looping around the plaza and grabbing a few accessories we headed to the Salon to see what the heck they could do with my mess of hair to make it possibly look better then what it currently did . I decided I should probably pull up some hair styles that might look good on me , after scrolling a little I decided the best option would be to ask for some help from Amy and Eleanor I really have no idea what will look good with my chunky face shape, I kind of want a A-line bob or a shag , " hey what style do you think is better?"  I asked showing the two options of haircuts to both of  them, " I really like the shag cut ,  I think that would look cute on you, and it probably will make your face look a lot thinner" Ashley commented looking at the two. That was one of the nicest things my sister had said to me in a long time , I was a little surprised by her comment. I show Eleanor the pictures to get her opinion as well, you never know when my sister was trying to make me look awful. 

After looking at the pictures for awhile , Eleanor took a chunk of my hair in her hand and pulled it up to about the length where the shag would be cut, then she took most of my hair and held it to where it would be if i had a A-line cut, "I think the shag would look really good on you as well. maybe you could do a few low lights as well just to add something" . we had finally reached the salon and walked in , " I think I am going to get my hair glossed when you are getting yours cut"  Amy comments " you should get yours straighten yours and get a gloss as well Eleanor, I bet that would look super pretty" she added looking at Eleanors hair. " ummm , yea but I did not bring all that much money with me and between our nails and my haircut I really do not have enough to get all of that done " she seemed embarrassed  to admit that to us . " don't worry about it , I will just pay for us both , if you are possibly my cousins mate I really need you to look hot enough for him, plus I think you would actually be good for him"  she added .I was really surprised by sister , it almost felt like the old times when we were super close, it kind of made me sad that we were not close anymore , but it was also making me feel hopeful that we would be able to get back to a place where we could be close again at some point. we finally were called back to our stylists and I showed the picture of the shag I wanted and also showed a picture of low lights I thought would look good on me .

  After about a hour we were all finally finished and after looking in the mirror I really did not look like myself at all, other then being still super chunky , but honestly my hair looked amazing tons more then what i ever could have hoped for and a lot better then what I could do on my own. Amy and Eleanors hair looked amazing as well super shiny and healthy looking, Eleanors looked even prettier then before after the glossing treatment and straightening . " alright , should we eat and then go to Eleanors house to get ready for the game? or what . Amy you can come too if you want" I was seriously hungry after all of that pampering and i really did want to spend more time with my sister and try to learn more the whole finding your mate thing, We were all at the age to start finding mates but as far as I knew no one in our grade had actually found their mate yet and I knew. that was part of the reason that everyone was on edge at the school , we were all just at the edge of starting to mate, all of our hormones were as high as they had been on top of the normal teenager hormones , we have the wolf wanting to find their mate as well, good times right? sometimes I really wished that I could  just be a normal teenager and have normal teenager friends

    Amy looked like she was thinking the same thing, I knew that she really was still a good person even though she had not been the best sister the last couple of years , " yea, actually I am kind of hungry I think it would be a good idea to get something to eat and I know that you really are going to need help with your makeup you have no idea what you are doing " . Eleanor was biting her lip trying not to laugh at the back handed compliment I just rolled my eyes at my sister and stuck my tongue out at her. , " alright what are you guys thinking we should get to eat then ? " Eleanor asked . " ummmm whatever is fine with me I don't really care that much" I answered . "cool, pizza it is then" was all Amy said making the choice for us. I decided I was going to tell her about the sushi event and about the guy once we got to the pizza place maybe she knew who it was . 

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