My life My journey My story

Hello there My name is Curtis Courtway I was born on a cold day of January 11 1983 to my amazing mother Paulia Courtway. She was a single mother of two she was trying to raise my sister and I all on her own. I was 3 months old when she got with my stepdad now being a baby I always thought he was my real dad but I found out later he wasn't. So as a baby my mother trailer caught fire and my Grandpa saved my life he ran into the house picked me up and put a blanket over me and jumped out a window with me. Can you see where this is going already one close death as a baby. now my parents was alcoholics badly its all they did and my stepdad was mean so was his twin brother they always fought each other or hurt there woman. So we had a messed up childhood but I guess that's where you can say it made me who I am today. Back in them days it was so much different and crazy. When I started kindergarten I got deadly sick with scarlet fever it was bad and they didn't have medicine for it but my mom and family found a way to help me get over it and back to healthy. When I was younger then that like 3 or 4 I stopped breathing on my my mom and I almost died then. Now I was held back in kindergarten and I started doing good as a child I went on to the 1st grade where they found out I had a hearing problem so I had to have tubs in my ears. I really don't remember the 2nd grade it's crazy because I remember everything about my childhood. now I went to the 3rd grade and I started getting sick again I had blood problems I didn't have enough red cells as white cells so it was killing me I was takin from my mom by the family division and placed in a home. The people I was staying with seen me getting worse so they told me to the hospital and that's when they found that I had bad blood and my parents wasn't beating me. well at that time I wasn't being beat. So I was in the hospital and they gave me back to my mom and I was in the hospital for a little bit fighting like a champ again 4 different times have I faced death at a young age. You know it's crazy falling in love at a young age well I did with two girls. The first girl was my all school sweet heart Jennifer and the other girl was my best friend jimmy sister Billie jo. I met jimmy when I was 7 or 8 and we become best friends I was always going to his house but he would get mad at me for looking at his sister all the time. I couldn't help it she was so beautiful and I met Jennifer in the 5th grade now I knew that I never had a chance with jimmy's sister Billie and I was hoping Jennifer liked me she was just as beautiful as Billie jo was I was in love with two beautiful girls. Me and Jen started going out in the 5th grade and we stayed together most of our school years I wouldn't trade it for anything. Now I remember the day I went to school and found out my best friend jimmy's family had moved away. I missed my friend and his sister even though I was to shy to talk to her. Now as I said my stepdad and mom was alcoholics and he was abusive to us. I was always sceard that he would kill us if he had a chance. Now as a kid I started cutting the grass and stuff. No big deal right what if you was 5 years old and had to do that. Made me tough if you asked me. My stepdad would get drunk and neat up my mom and when he didn't hit her he was hitting me. His twin brother had 3 stepkids and he was meaner to them then my stepdad was to me. So I thought it was my responsibility to keep them from being hurt and I did just that I would take the blame for everything they did. Sometimes they would do it just to see me get hit them little punk's. It all was coming to a end because now I was getting use to the hits and beaten and I liked the pain. so one day my stepdad told me to go pick me a switch so I did just that but I picked one of my moms rose bush. brought it to him and he drops it I put my arms in the air and said come on do it already hit me with it he got mad but I didn't get hit he told me I was stupid and to go to bed we would talk about it later. And we did talk or well he found out I was taking the blame to save the boys and all he said was good boy tap my head and went to bed. Then one night he put a pillow over my face and started hitting it and moved it to my rips and and started hitting it there. But it all changed the morning he made me stand there so he could use my shoulder to rest his gun on and shoot at my mom. he got so mad because I wasn't standing still so he stopped shoot at her and started hitting me witch I was fine with. Now I waited for my parents to go to sleep or I should say passed out and I went to there room without waking them or leo up leo was his dog he was a smart pitbull I grow up with dogs also my stepdad and mom always had pitbulls not as fighting them they was part of our family leo being the oldest. Now I was saying I went into my parents room and got the same rifle that he was using to shoot at my mom got on the bed putting the barrel to his face going to kill him my mom woke up because leo jump off the bed she stopped me looking at me with tears in her eyes knowing I was going to shoot him. She walked me into the front room and asked me what I was thinking I told her this world isn't big enough for me and him. One of us had to die now so I was going to take his life before he took ours. I was only 14 then and my mom toke me to my aunt's house. Now my sister moved out just a year earlier she was staying with a nother one of our aunt's and uncle. Me I was going to stay with my grandparents and aunt's and uncles that lived by my grandparents. I was pretty lucky I guess you can say some of my childhood because I had 3 uncles and a lot of aunt's. Tommy is my youngest uncle he is a year older than me and Billy was the middle uncle he was 4 years older than me and Johnny was the oldest he was 11 years older than me. now when I moved in with my aunt and her boyfriend Mike I was happy finally I didn't have to be worried about dieing but I was still scared for my mom because she stayed with my stepdad